bought a kettle bell off my colleague because he’s currently purging. having one accessible wouldn’t be a bad idea since i am suppose do shoulder rehab. with it at home, i would have no excuse not to. the amount of exercise equipment around me makes my current work space also looks like my play space. at some point, i’ll probably need to do a purge myself so i can keep my space free of clutter
it’s inexcusable that so many times i lose my self discipline and stray off from what i need to be doing. there’s been a lot of pressure from different sources of life and i’m struggling trying to stand my ground. i didn’t sign up for this, maybe i was meant to be alone in the dark, forever. i’m so stressed out; it’s been disappointing the stress has so much impact on my willpower and the lack of it. there is no excuse to not have a better habit and stick with what i want
found today’s morning session a tough one and it wasn’t even physically demanding at all. i dragged my sleepy butt out the door but i was just not mentally there to perform. i found myself being a whiner more than a doer and that’s not what i should be doing. my mind and body would’ve put caffeine to good use if only i made a pit stop. after my energy level went back to functional nornalities, i made up for the lacklustre morning session with an afternoon one
it was a uber long test, but i made it. from the moment the test began to the end of the test, i don’t believe i had a chance to sit down. i was up testing and doing my stuff from the very start while the grandmaster and many of the instructors and students watched. taking all components of the test in one go is a massive undertaking, but i knew that i wouldn’t have done it any other way. there were things that i should have and could have done better; but i can live my performance given the preparation time i had prior to this test and being fully exhausted with the amount of things i performed while having little rest throughout. i was beyond drained and overworked when the promotion test was all wrapped up. i am truly grateful to all those instructors who got me to where i am and made it all possible. could never have imagined how far i would go when i first started this journey. i am officially a third dan blackbelt!!
looking skyward up towards the open sky and i can’t possibly miss the banners that hang on the lamp post. seeing that banner really hits me that there’s only a month remaining until the dreaded vancouver sun run. i can’t help but feel unprepared knowing there’s so much to do in so little time. must plug in those headphones, pick up the slack and run the hell out before it’s too late to feel guilty
was given a hard time the minute i stepped in but i already knew that every time from now on will be no joke. kinesiologist only followed physio to step everything up a notch so to not get himself into trouble and even then physio finds ways to demand for more. when what was asked of me seemed impossible, i turned to my kin hoping he would be able to change his mind but physio is adamant in what he demands for. even when things are hard, i know i need that unforgiving push because i am guilty of always looking for a compromise
physio had his radar on me the entire morning and went crazy today pushing me hard and maxing out my leg. said he was on a mission to push my left leg to match the other because he’s simply not satisfied that i am settling. upon hearing that, my kinesiologist was on my back because physio faulted him for not working me hard enough. physio also discussed my mri report to confirm results came back negative. the good news is nothing broken and nothing torn, the not so good news is he has the green light to hurt me in any possible way to fix whatever is wrong with me