day 3388 – denial halt

it has been on my mind for quite some time but i didn’t want to openly show it. i refused to kick because i was in total denial since my ankle and knee issues came back to back. i refused to kick because i was afraid to see its condition and wouldn’t be able to accept what it has gotten to. i finally decided to follow through and take my first steps at reworking my gradient kicks, starting with my five forty. i’m very thankful for the help i received and it would mean a lot to me to have these skills back and better

day 3366 – hp training

i have been delaying week after week and found every reason to delay to another week, but someone pushed the right buttons and i found myself lugging my butt to the dojang with minutes before training started. this is the first high performance team training i’ve attended in well over five years and i’m glad i dragged myself there. all this time i felt like i wasn’t ready and i was ashamed of how my body can perform now. the truth is, today made me realize i’m not as bad as i thought and there’s definitely much progress made and much more progress to be made before it’s time to pack it in

day 3340 – tasks track

still under the weather, but really needed to get work done. dedicated most of my day to taking care of all the tasks at studio that never gets done because it’s often overlooked past daily operations. not having time or energy isn’t an excuse to push it off to the side. i’m glad i was productive and got the little things done while my body isn’t in condition to train

day 3183 – minor upgrades

for the next little while, there’s be a sequence of small upgrades to the studio. i’ve been putting off some of the small things that needs to be done but are still undone. being busy isn’t an excuse to stop taking care of them because no one else will do them for me. it was a productive start – putting up a security camera, a few vinyl stickers, rearranging my office, and building more furniture. there’s more lined up for the weekend and over the course of the next weeks

day 2663 – work legs

no training and no teaching today, so i had no excuse not to workout. ending a hiatus after almost two whole weeks of no weight workouts. my wrist still hurts but i’ve still been getting leg workout in the form of tricking outdoors. i got back to doing the programed paused squats and surprisingly still hit the same numbers as i did two weeks ago. hopefully third time is the charm and i won’t have to restart this program a fourth time

day 1990 – kettle bell model

bought a kettle bell off my colleague because he’s currently purging. having one accessible wouldn’t be a bad idea since i am suppose do shoulder rehab. with it at home, i would have no excuse not to. the amount of exercise equipment around me makes my current work space also looks like my play space. at some point, i’ll probably need to do a purge myself so i can keep my space free of clutter

day 1478 – buckle down

it’s inexcusable that so many times i lose my self discipline and stray off from what i need to be doing. there’s been a lot of pressure from different sources of life and i’m struggling trying to stand my ground. i didn’t sign up for this, maybe i was meant to be alone in the dark, forever. i’m so stressed out; it’s been disappointing the stress has so much impact on my willpower and the lack of it. there is no excuse to not have a better habit and stick with what i want

day 922 – cognitive stimulant

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found today’s morning session a tough one and it wasn’t even physically demanding at all. i dragged my sleepy butt out the door but i was just not mentally there to perform. i found myself being a whiner more than a doer and that’s not what i should be doing. my mind and body would’ve put caffeine to good use if only i made a pit stop. after my energy level went back to functional nornalities, i made up for the lacklustre morning session with an afternoon one

day 662 – third dan status

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it was a uber long test, but i made it. from the moment the test began to the end of the test, i don’t believe i had a chance to sit down. i was up testing and doing my stuff from the very start while the grandmaster and many of the instructors and students watched. taking all components of the test in one go is a massive undertaking, but i knew that i wouldn’t have done it any other way. there were things that i should have and could have done better; but i can live my performance given the preparation time i had prior to this test and being fully exhausted with the amount of things i performed while having little rest throughout. i was beyond drained and overworked when the promotion test was all wrapped up. i am truly grateful to all those instructors who got me to where i am and made it all possible. could never have imagined how far i would go when i first started this journey. i am officially a third dan blackbelt!!

day 589 – burrard street

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looking skyward up towards the open sky and i can’t possibly miss the banners that hang on the lamp post. seeing that banner really hits me that there’s only a month remaining until the dreaded vancouver sun run. i can’t help but feel unprepared knowing there’s so much to do in so little time. must plug in those headphones, pick up the slack and run the hell out before it’s too late to feel guilty

day 580 – physio overpowers

image was given a hard time the minute i stepped in but i already knew that every time from now on will be no joke. kinesiologist only followed physio to step everything up a notch so to not get himself into trouble and even then physio finds ways to demand for more. when what was asked of me seemed impossible, i turned to my kin hoping he would be able to change his mind but physio is adamant in what he demands for. even when things are hard, i know i need that unforgiving push because i am guilty of always looking for a compromise

day 566 – physio at his best

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physio had his radar on me the entire morning and went crazy today pushing me hard and maxing out my leg. said he was on a mission to push my left leg to match the other because he’s simply not satisfied that i am settling. upon hearing that, my kinesiologist was on my back because physio faulted him for not working me hard enough. physio also discussed my mri report to confirm results came back negative. the good news is nothing broken and nothing torn, the not so good news is he has the green light to hurt me in any possible way to fix whatever is wrong with me

day 465 – poomsae uniform

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yes its another uniform and new belt, but this one is special unlike all my others. extremely happy i finally got  my official mooto poomsae uniform and a proper thick belt to go along. now that i have full ownership of this, it makes me want to train harder and set higher goals to get to the form that i want and make sure i am deserving of the blue pants. there’s nothing better than that satisfying feeling of achieving things after putting in long hours and working hard to attaining the end result. wearing this should be a privilege, and so need to own up and live up to it

 

day 407 – long trek down

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it’s a gorgeous sunny and warm september day driving down here to see a specialist. the drive would have been much more pleasant if there werent a trail of twenty cop cars hogging up one lane and if i didn’t keep getting detoured. the pace of this city is definitely a lot slower and calmer, i could use a few of those days, but  that’s wishful thinking, rushed back to reality after the appointment

day 391 – ice bucket challenge

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walking to the park and getting ready with a buddy for my challenge of the bucket of ice. fundraising for als that’s gone viral in the past month. didn’t want it to be ordinary dunk like the many hundreds of people, might as well be creative and have some fun while doing it for a good cause to spread awareness. now that i have completed the challenge, i am going to choose my nominations carefully

day 385 – go get them

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attempting to break new ground and find new sources of entertainment. this will be my next challenge to improve and perfect. recent interested in the exploration to add cooler and flashier moves to my skillset, so i am set to go get them. the journey of a thousand miles begins with one step

day 267 – nike frees

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spending a fortune these days and this time i invested in another pair of nike frees that i have been eyeing since it first came out. the style and colour had me from the very beginning, i guess this is what you call love at first sight. utterly most comfortable shoes ever and will need to take extra good care of this pair. but as long as i work hard, it will be worth every penny

day 251 – dig deep

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shutting myself off from the world and staying away from places that created all the frustration and uncertainties. taking all the bashing and fustigation and putting into perspective and using that to ignite the fight in me. trying to clear up my mind, refresh my soul and reenergize myself to continue moving forward in the path i have chosen. recognizing the only option i have is to dig deep and persevere, is the words of a good friend of mine

day 238 – time to upgrade

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my spanking new whey and shaker order arrived at my door. can’t wait to get it on and take full advantage of these goodies. trying out a new powder because the last one wasn’t serving me too well. hoping this would taste better than the chocolate i have been drinking. better turn it up a notch and not let anything get in the way

day 217 – taking care of business

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i was minding my own business and doing my own thing. everything was as it should be until two girls came into the scene and started jumping around and talking extremely loud in korean. one of the worst scenario to have forgotten my earphones at home. the gym is not a place to socialize and fool around, come in with a purpose, do your thing and get out. i am sure i wasn’t the only one that didn’t appreciate their prescence