day 1065 – second closet

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my car trunk has assumed the role of my second closet. not only do i spend a lot of time on the road running from one event to the next, but my gear and equipment has clearly outgrown the allowable space i have in my room. currently, five pairs of shoes, a pair of skates, tennis rackets, pvc pipe and hoodies are some of the things that reside in the back of my car. sooner or later i maybe be looking for an extension to a third closet

day 1064 – jenga mastery

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i had a long hump day where i was occupied with taking care of errands, playing some much needed tennis and coaching a couple students. after a busy day running around everywhere, i ended the night chilling at off the grid with mo’s extended family. there we played cards and jenga while some of us sipped on milkshakes and others munched on waffles. i had a good time chilling with a welcoming bunch

day 1063 – binging

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dessert helps soreness coping. after two straight days of heavy loading on my legs, i could binge a little without feeling overly bad. soft peaks has been on the top of my bookmarked list for a long time. i finally got a chance to check out their shop in gastown and indulge in their organic ice cream. i had the chocolatey mudslide and mo had the blueberry blue mountain

day 1062 – one plate

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hitting the numbers today felt awesome but it’s more about personal achievements in the grand scheme of things. i am happy that i successfully made it to one plate goal, but even more happy i stuck with my words. it’s only going to get better from here on, as long as i keep working on it. i guess i wanted this a little more than some others i have set in the past. i followed through with it the last two weeks and brought it home today, just before the deadline i had set. grateful to have people who believed i would get the job done even when i doubted

day 1061 – beach wedding

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at jericho beach attending a wedding ceremony on a hot and sunny day. the casual and free setting of the beach wedding was nice, but it needed a little more structure for the schedule. it was quite nerve wrecking meeting many of mo’s extended family, but i still had fun being mo’s plus one. i am exhausted from being in a formal social environment for much of the day. this is one of the rare times i will be so decked out

day 1060 – transpire

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sixteen timezones apart, no problem; a hundred timezones apart, still no problem. good friends keeping me afloat on this one because they will understand even when they don’t understand. she tells me you have to take their downs if you want to be a part of their ups; sometimes you fall because there’s something that you’re suppose to find. what i am searching for?? how deep do i have to dig?? that’s something i must find for myself

day 1059 – surfing the wave

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i’ve always been reminded to never take life for granted and live life to its fullest with no regrets. flashback to last year when i was one with the wave and riding on water for the very first time. i crossed off one thing from my bucketlist that day; i wonder what it would be this summer. summer season is upon us once again and if we’re not careful, it will flash by before we know it

day 1058 – tumbletrak

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i haven’t posted one of flipping for a long time; that’s because i haven’t been flipping for a quite a while. on the tumble trak combining two moves together to make a combo for very the first time. finally feeling confident enough to try this and it was nerve wrecking, but the spotter was there so i don’t kill myself. with this attempt, i am one step closer to nailing the combo

day 1057 – walking in rain

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a walk in the drizzling rain got me a little wet, but left me feeling refreshed. when i am alone, i think and think until i overthink everything. i’ll always find something to think about even when there’s nothing to think about. sometimes life let’s you wander off to nowhere in particular and leave you hanging just so you can learn a little more about yourself and perhaps find yourself. i got my rest, i got my time off; it’s time to look for steps to do something that will lead me to what i my soul is searching for

give and receive

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recently each and every day is a mighty struggle because i am trapped in a battle against myself and within myself. regardless of what i go through, i try not to let problems surface and definitely don’t allow my mood to fluctuate. i never want my troubles to affect others because i am a strong and independent girl that ought to take care myself and not cause others to worry. truth is, i’ve been really troubled lately and i just don’t know what to do with myself. there are nights when i sit alone thinking about everything i am, everything i am not, and then eventually emotions get the better of me. sometimes i am uncertain what purpose i serve in society and why my existence even matters?? what exactly sets my heart on fire and where my passion lies?? this is a routine i would go through day in and day out, but so far i’ve come out empty handed majority of the time. every now and then, i would feel my strength as a person has been decreasing with every self destructing battle i fight. then i think to myself that life gave me those challenges because i am strong enough to live it. knowing nothing comes overnight, i can only carry on and stay positive that something will come along as long as i keep going. this is only one of the few challenges i will encounter in my life, and i am set on defeating it