day 2222 – fourth bound

after a full day at the dojo, i walked away with a fourth dan certificate. though i was satisfied with most, i was unhappy about one thing. i was bitter my x-out didn’t get the three attempts that all breakings get because he was worried i’d hurt myself. if held firmly, i was confident in breaking it. i’m still pretty proud i went for it considering the roller coaster i had been on the past few weeks. it was a good attempt and maybe the best attempt i had with boards. i’ll keep practicing and do it better one of these days for redemption. i’m just relieved this is all over. my beaten body full of gashes and bruises deserves the break after two long days at the dojo and of course all the work i’ve put into my x-out. definitely a smart decision to take tuesday as a flex day

day 2221 – dojo obliged

wasn’t too thrilled on working this quarter’s blackbelt test being well aware that i’ll be a long one. the test didn’t finish until 9:45pm and i walked out with many more cuts, scrapes and bruises from holding for all the board breaking misses. still, i headed to open gym without food because i said i would be there. i did some x-outs and reviewed some poomsaes before i called it a day. i couldn’t join the gang for late night food because i’ll need the energy for a full day ahead of me. this can’t be over soon enough; my soul needs a break

day 2217 – nothing left

i’m feeling upset and beat because it’s crunch time and i can’t seem to land anything, not even my basic back tuck. the test is in a matter of days and my x-out feels like it’s fallen apart. it’s not a required board breaking, but i have been yearning to do this and if i was only going to take the fourth dan test once in my life, i better make it be something i’ll remember. i wanted to be proud of what i did and not just do the bare minimum. at this rate, i’m not sure if it’s going to happen

day 2117 – vacation swap

picking up my parents from the airport this afternoon while getting ready to pack and swap places with them. right after dropping them off at home, i had to head out to another taekwondo blackbelt test. the only difference is this time i’ll also be taking my own pretest. i never once thought i would be going for another degree. this was a very late decision that he ambushed with so i didn’t receive the study guide until friday night

day 1915 – hockey is back

it’s good to be back at the rink after missing the past few hockey games due to overlapping schedule. i was afraid i’d be slow coming out of the gate but i held up and even registered an assist. the scoresheet isn’t really an accurate representation of the high scoring game. it was a fun game but man i’m tired from invigilating a blackbelt test that went wrong in far too many ways. being put in the spot to do something i haven’t practiced in three years isn’t exactly cool. good thing i managed to do it and come out unscathed

day 1685 – board cuts

the aftermath of a blackbelt test i didn’t want to work. it didn’t bode well from the beginning and only got worse when i’m told by the grandmaster to hold a board when he knows very well my hand isn’t healed for it. it really has become a hostile environment i’m tired of bearing his unreasonable and unethical ways. it has caused me too much grief and too much sleep and i’m no longer willing to go the distance to suit his needs while i sacrifice my happiness. either his attitude has to change and respect has to be there, or that’s the end of an era

day 1579 – sunday workday

it started off having a laid back sunday morning before getting into work. good that i don’t have a 7:30am start on sunday as well so i could sleep in a little after a late night of partying. had no urgency to sleep after a night like this, but once in a while is okay. worked another blackbelt test and the rest of my time spent completing a bunch of modules. banking these extra hours hopefully to pay off and gets accredited for in the future