day 2392 – airtracking

getting comfortable with tumbling on the airtrack is a good sign. steadily improving on the connection some sort of backward variation out of a cartwheel. right now it’s looking a lot like backtuck, but the goal is both a flash kick and a back handspring as well. i think a different setup onto a matted floor surface may better utilize the airtrack. i’m pushing for it and looking forward to the day i can comfortably do it on the floor

day 2370 – antsy cleans

a fun gym session joined by two friends. i last olympic lifted three weeks ago because of pec strain. i was scared but i wanted to see if i was able to do light cleans without shoulder pain. i started with sixty five pounds but somehow felt okay and worked it all the way to one plate. i probably could have done one forty, but wasn’t going to risk it. we ended with some box jumps and i’m happy to report i jumped a thirty nine inch box which basically matches my personal best. now i feel a little more motivated knowing my ankle can get back into things. my previous goal was to hit a forty inch box jump, but i think a forty two may be a goal down the road

optimizing 2020

2019 presented me with some of the biggest and scariest obstacles thus far. i am relieved this difficult year is drawing to a close and can now look forward to the turn of the decade. what i had endured this year far exceeds anything i could’ve imagined. my world changed drastically since the thudding landing of a roundoff back tuck attempt that went undetected. it was confirmed nine months later that it was a fully ruptured ankle ligament and the future of my many hobbies are on the line. though operating far below one hundred percent, i did manage some accomplishments that made me proud. i picked up one of my old hobbies at the start of the year – olympic weightlifting. from struggling to snatch twenty-eight kilos when i first started training at apex, to ending the year strong with a personal record of forty five kilos. just as i thought i was done with all my taekwondo tests, i somehow got persuaded and tested for my fourth dan. it was rather a risky thing to do given my ankle condition, but of course it wasn’t something i told many about. one bright spot in tricking was getting comfortable with my back tucks, and even tried two different variations. frankly speaking, i’m disappointed with the lack of progress in my other moves and scared to find out if i can even kick. i have at some point considered quitting if one of the three new moves doesn’t happen within a given deadline. there was no shortage of injuries throughout this calendar year which also affected taekwondo, hockey, dodgeball, softball and tennis. my skillset at work has had notable growth, but not to be overshadowed by the stressed that comes with it simply because of the toxic people. removing the toxicity has led me to grow my friends circle within other departments

with the new decade approaching, there’s really no place for injuries in 2020; i’m going to try my hardest to deal with the ankle problem while staying as healthy as i possibly can. i expect to get my fitness back and work my hardest to grind through whatever it takes to be the best version of myself. the next three hundred and sixty five days will be all about bigger goals, greater happiness, less pain, stronger relationships and being more focused for everything i’ve ever wanted

  • stay healthy and injury-free #gethealthystayhealthy
  • training consistency #fitgoals
  • eat well #eatsmart
  • accept myself for who i am #selfcare
  • love my family #familymatters
  • reconnect with friends #friendscircle
  • relationship goals #relationship goals
  • finance and budgeting #budgetlife
  • travel the world #roamtheplanet
  • career advancement #careerdevelopment
  • setting my priorities #prioritiesincheck
  • new skills and new knowledge #foreverlearning

2020 is my year to conquer and i’m going to become the strongest version of myself

day 2237 – clean reached

when i first started learning to olympic lift with jae three years ago, i wished to one day full clean one plate. i never got close before took a break and only restarted with apex the start of this year. through these eight months, there’s been steady progress in both snatches and cleans while solidifying my squat strength. what i thought was a lost goal was made true today and i couldn’t be more happy to share it with my coaches who helped me along the way. this is obviously just a milestone with much more to come

day 2210 – matcha cavery

been craving matcha soft serve for several weeks running. i didn’t want to think of it as a reward in any way. i think i’ll only feel deserving once i land my btwist. i’m grateful that my coach is helping me and also offering me a prize if i land it, but unfortunately tonight wasn’t the night. i know i shouldn’t put a deadline to some things like such, but my goal is to have him see me land my btwist before he leaves for vacation in september. i also have interest in back tuck variations once i get my x-out consistent

day 2190 – pr clean

since i’m expecting deloading week to come soon, i just went for it. this would be the heaviest clean i’ve ever done and i’m truly proud of it. in the past i’ve only hovered around one hundred fifteen, rarely get into the twenties because i struggled to get out of the bottom position. my front squat have improved so much since joining apex that this weight was easily handled. i have had my eyes set on the one plate ever since i started getting the hang of olympic cleans, but who knows, maybe one day i can even make the reds

day 2154 – self journal

finalizing my self journal and ready to start this weekend. i hashed out my three top goals and carefully thought out the progression actions to reach them. for the next thirteen weeks, i’ll have to be extra diligent with my game plan and disciplined with my focus. it won’t be easy and it’s not meant to be, but i’m sure it’ll be worth it once it’s all said and done. this is just scratching the surface of rebuilding my empire. i have yet to decide on a reward for when i survive and achieve my goals