2019 year at a glance

the recap of the past 365 days could easily be all negative, but instead of going down the rabbit hole of saying everything that went wrong, i also want to recap on all the things that went right. sure, my ankle injury cost me nine months of the year to diagnosis, but it didn’t stop me from carrying out the things i can still do. weightlifting was a big plus this year for i joined apex and dove back into olympic lifting. i got pretty good progress despite the many physical road blocks; a seventeen kilo improvement and making the yellow plates for a personal best. in the mere two months i was introduced to clean and jerk techniques, i’m happy to be just shy of the blue plates. tricking has caused me the most grief. there were so many flips and tricks i wanted to land, but couldn’t mostly because my injuries didn’t allow me to do things i should be able to. i’ll have to accept the fact there’ll be some specific moves i’ll never be able to do again, forever. i had a serious debate inside telling me to quit because everyone has given up on me, even me. at one point i had a deadline in mind to land one of the three moves i’ve been working on. low and behold, i did not land one, but i’m urged to give it a little more time because i’m really close. taekwondo became really stressful having to train a new set of teaching staff. i never once thought i’d test for my fourth degree, especially not with the ankle i was on. sports aside, i also traveled to europe, met some new people, got rid of toxic ones, changed departments and tried new things. i had some very low moments throughout this year where i really wanted to give up, but i kept my head up as hard as it was. i told myself because i never have up, 2020 will be the year for me where everything will fall into place and it’s my year to shine

optimizing 2020

2019 presented me with some of the biggest and scariest obstacles thus far. i am relieved this difficult year is drawing to a close and can now look forward to the turn of the decade. what i had endured this year far exceeds anything i could’ve imagined. my world changed drastically since the thudding landing of a roundoff back tuck attempt that went undetected. it was confirmed nine months later that it was a fully ruptured ankle ligament and the future of my many hobbies are on the line. though operating far below one hundred percent, i did manage some accomplishments that made me proud. i picked up one of my old hobbies at the start of the year – olympic weightlifting. from struggling to snatch twenty-eight kilos when i first started training at apex, to ending the year strong with a personal record of forty five kilos. just as i thought i was done with all my taekwondo tests, i somehow got persuaded and tested for my fourth dan. it was rather a risky thing to do given my ankle condition, but of course it wasn’t something i told many about. one bright spot in tricking was getting comfortable with my back tucks, and even tried two different variations. frankly speaking, i’m disappointed with the lack of progress in my other moves and scared to find out if i can even kick. i have at some point considered quitting if one of the three new moves doesn’t happen within a given deadline. there was no shortage of injuries throughout this calendar year which also affected taekwondo, hockey, dodgeball, softball and tennis. my skillset at work has had notable growth, but not to be overshadowed by the stressed that comes with it simply because of the toxic people. removing the toxicity has led me to grow my friends circle within other departments

with the new decade approaching, there’s really no place for injuries in 2020; i’m going to try my hardest to deal with the ankle problem while staying as healthy as i possibly can. i expect to get my fitness back and work my hardest to grind through whatever it takes to be the best version of myself. the next three hundred and sixty five days will be all about bigger goals, greater happiness, less pain, stronger relationships and being more focused for everything i’ve ever wanted

  • stay healthy and injury-free #gethealthystayhealthy
  • training consistency #fitgoals
  • eat well #eatsmart
  • accept myself for who i am #selfcare
  • love my family #familymatters
  • reconnect with friends #friendscircle
  • relationship goals #relationship goals
  • finance and budgeting #budgetlife
  • travel the world #roamtheplanet
  • career advancement #careerdevelopment
  • setting my priorities #prioritiesincheck
  • new skills and new knowledge #foreverlearning

2020 is my year to conquer and i’m going to become the strongest version of myself

day 2296 – missing me

this is an extreme pessimism post because i’ve seriously had enough everything. there’s so much i miss about this. i miss being able to move without so much pain and limitations. i miss being the fittest, strongest and best shape of my life. i miss doing backflips, kicks and flips at will. i miss playing hockey and dodgeball with all my teammates. i miss the soreness that came after every lifting and training session. i miss being able to jump and climb onto anything i wanted to. i miss the summer sunshine and being outdoors until night. i miss doing everything i can’t do at the moment

day 1908 – bought in

felt like i needed to take a plunge into hustle mode and did just that in a gigantic way. i’m frustrated with the stall and the lackluster effort i’ve mustered as of late. let’s not have any more unnecessary setbacks that’s going to prevent me from where i need to go. instead, i’ve decided to take my destiny in my own hands and make a hard push for everything i’ve ways wanted and envisioned. i won’t let anything stop me when i’m being held accountable

day 1827 – quick reminder

thank you for dropping this quote off on my desk because it saved me from going down a rabbit hole. i have always been a firm believer that discipline is what got me farther than i would have imagined and this time is no different. coincidentally it’s the turn of a calendar month which is the perfect time to pick myself up and try to turn things around. i’m set on making august a good month and get back to where i need to be – my top form

day 1794 – flasherback

emerging leader meeting got me well on my way to a long weekend; a weekend i’ll actually have. i’m feeling really burnt out lately so this is a timely and much needed string of days off. while i have time to sit down, i flashed back to when i was in the best shape of my life before it all went down the drain all due to a broken thumb. it then became one of the toughest moments of my life because of all that happened and all that couldn’t happen. that’s all behind me because i learn and i grow. i think now i’m ready to train for what got me to the shape i wanted. i have my eyes set on being the fittest, healthiest and strongest i could ever be

day 1674 – march madness

march will be focusing on me; not on what others want or need, but what i need and what i want. reason being march will be a hectic month trying to get everything back running in full line and at top gear. i have to be a bit more selfish because i realized i give up too much of myself for people who show little appreciation. i have a ton lined up. i made a few commitments along the way, balancing work and balancing life while staying on top of my diet are all keys to how successful i’ll be