day 1502 – autopilot 

no more autopilot moving forward because i’ve had enough of dormancy. made some ballsy moves just to make this happen; laying down a few protocols and making a few adjustments. i don’t like the way things are going and it’s about time i raise the bar for myself. i’m still struggling with pain in too many parts of my body but i’m taking painkillers everyday just so it gives me a chance to step it up. the harder it hurts, the more frustrated i get so the more i push. maybe that’s why its having snowballing effect

day 914 – leaf through

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came across this as i was leafing through my phone album for a kickass picture request. going through these pictures bring back so much memories, the times when i seemed to have a better grasp of competition. deep down i know i miss competition and really want to be back in the game, but knowing i will not return until i can step up my game. it’s been far too long since i last competed. the longer i’m away from the competition stage, the more scared i feel. i hope i’m able to control and improve not only my game, but my state of mind

day 846 – coffee call

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i succumbed to having caffeine so here i am sitting at starbucks with my coffee in one hand while my laptop is propped in front of me. trying to be productive at the coffee shop before heading to training and dodgeball. i don’t know what exactly turned my body on, but i definitely went into it with an extra boost of energy. being able to crank out five sets of deadlifts is a hefty number. i do expect my back to feel very sorry for all that i managed to crank out today. my fitbit line is amazing and i feel great with the numbers i made today. just praying that dehydration wouldn’t play a huge factor and cause multiple calf cramps that prevents me from sleeping

day 763 – getting sweaty

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despite bouts of headaches and some sort of unknown illness, i was determined to start september on the right foot; the first of september means first of september. august had its ups and downs, but many things are about to change and things are really going to take off in september, i won’t let it slip away without getting what i want. in the meantime, keep grinding even when times are tough

day 580 – physio overpowers

image was given a hard time the minute i stepped in but i already knew that every time from now on will be no joke. kinesiologist only followed physio to step everything up a notch so to not get himself into trouble and even then physio finds ways to demand for more. when what was asked of me seemed impossible, i turned to my kin hoping he would be able to change his mind but physio is adamant in what he demands for. even when things are hard, i know i need that unforgiving push because i am guilty of always looking for a compromise

day 578 – seminar wrap

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day two of poomsae seminar and that wraps up my entire weekend full of poomae and everything revolving around competition. no shame to say my legs and arms are sore with all that i have done past two days. grandmaster yoon has enlightened me on so many things i can improve on and keep making my poomsae better. best compliment i could receive when a national champion says he sees potential. lets hope i can make some quick adjustment and apply them to next weekend’s competition