day 1625 – office revolution 


made it into the office today and good to know that i was missed. it’s made official the main renderer has resigned, leaving me as the only renderer. my manager told me i am the front runner to step up into the role and be the next one. i’m extremely excited for the opportunity presented because it’s what i wanted. i’m scared that the bigger responsibilities may expand multi-fold and must learn the new programs with no support. it’s daunting just thinking about it, but it’s within my power to take, learn and grow into being something much bigger. afterall, my manager has the confidence in me and said i’ll go as far as i’m willing to

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day 1605 – vachl debut

my legs hates me for pushing it so hard so often but here i am excited to be playing my first game with new vachl teammates. the bench was short but it was a lot fun and i made some good plays plus shots of goal. the game was fun and the pace is similar to what i’m used to so no big adjustments needed. i’m expecting myself to make great improvements this season and take my game to the next level. next game mental note to self i need to bring hockey socks, replenish hockey bag with tape supply, and find time to sharpen skates. it’s inexcusable i failed to have those necessities done for today

day 1604 – perspiration 

my glutes are in extreme soreness and overall body is tired after a workout and coaching session. i forget how much i have to demonstrate when sifu is there. so sore i was in limbo to go workout or not. in the end i went because the blueberry muffin devoured earlier needed to be justified; won’t let myself eat without having exercised. in transition between my program; the increased urgency is the cause of more sweat

day 1502 – autopilot 

no more autopilot moving forward because i’ve had enough of dormancy. made some ballsy moves just to make this happen; laying down a few protocols and making a few adjustments. i don’t like the way things are going and it’s about time i raise the bar for myself. i’m still struggling with pain in too many parts of my body but i’m taking painkillers everyday just so it gives me a chance to step it up. the harder it hurts, the more frustrated i get so the more i push. maybe that’s why its having snowballing effect

day 914 – leaf through

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came across this as i was leafing through my phone album for a kickass picture request. going through these pictures bring back so much memories, the times when i seemed to have a better grasp of competition. deep down i know i miss competition and really want to be back in the game, but knowing i will not return until i can step up my game. it’s been far too long since i last competed. the longer i’m away from the competition stage, the more scared i feel. i hope i’m able to control and improve not only my game, but my state of mind

day 846 – coffee call

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i succumbed to having caffeine so here i am sitting at starbucks with my coffee in one hand while my laptop is propped in front of me. trying to be productive at the coffee shop before heading to training and dodgeball. i don’t know what exactly turned my body on, but i definitely went into it with an extra boost of energy. being able to crank out five sets of deadlifts is a hefty number. i do expect my back to feel very sorry for all that i managed to crank out today. my fitbit line is amazing and i feel great with the numbers i made today. just praying that dehydration wouldn’t play a huge factor and cause multiple calf cramps that prevents me from sleeping

day 763 – getting sweaty

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despite bouts of headaches and some sort of unknown illness, i was determined to start september on the right foot; the first of september means first of september. august had its ups and downs, but many things are about to change and things are really going to take off in september, i won’t let it slip away without getting what i want. in the meantime, keep grinding even when times are tough