day 2312 – level up box

when i tried to test my ankle with light box jumps two weeks ago, i had ample of problems jumping into an eighteen inch box. flash forward two weeks later, i’ve leveled up and can comfortably jump onto a twenty four inch. although it’s nowhere near the thirty nine i had back then, i’ll take this as a big step because anything forward is never granted given the situation i’m in. i can’t really tell if i’m doing rehab or preparing myself for prehab

day 2311 – relax and recover

somedays you just got to take care of yourself even if the sky has fallen. i really felt the need to just get away from the negative thoughts and try to do what will make my body better. i need to heal the rest of my ailing body. nothing right now can really change the way my ankle is, but i’ve been reading up on it and getting new learnings. talking to people with different knowledge and experience has also given me more insight and reassurance to some degree

day 2310 – mri results

i think shocked wouldn’t even be the correct term to describe myself after finding out the mri results. i’m pretty shaken that my ankle ligament is completely torn. it didn’t really hit me on the spot, but as the day went on and i digested this news, i’m feeling pretty discouraged and utmost concerned. it strikes me that i will forever not have this ligament and it will never heal itself. if not treated, i will have no chance of being able to do all that i love doing – my sports career will be changed and limited forever. i had some chats with doctors and friends, hoping to get their thoughts and views on it because i clearly couldn’t keep my head above water

day 2308 – ambidextrous

while i can’t use my right hand for a lot of things, i’m in the process of building up my skills to be ambidextrous. just a fun little comparison of my penmanship with the right and the left. i’m surprised it doesn’t look half bad with my left hand, but only it looks like an elementary school handwriting which probably took five times as long to complete. maybe i should also pick up how to use chopsticks with my left hand while i’m at it

day 2307 – finger splint

a splint on my finger is so suffocating and inconvenient. i hate how it’s so restrictive it is and how it prevents the swelling and bruising to dissipate. i get that i need to protect it when i’m out and around people, but whenever i’m by myself, i would try to remove it to let it air out. i know this is only week one, but hopefully i can get rid of this splint sooner than three weeks

day 2306 – finger fractured

checking into burnaby hospital yet again. i’ve had far too many hospital and clinic visits in the past month. what i feared last night is confirmed by xrays. my middle finger needs to be splinted for a couple weeks. it’s been that kind of a month, not only does my foot not work properly, now my hand is also disabled. how can i not be disappointed one after the other, but i hope by staying positive, it can help with the recovery process

day 2305 – fourth dan cert

retrieved my fourth dan certificate from the grandmaster during the colour belt test. when i first took on taekwondo, i never thought i would have such a long journey, never thought it would develop into a career. it was a long and hectic test, but everything went well up to and until i got kicked in the hand holding a board. it was a blur after that because i couldn’t stop thinking about how badly my hand was injured. i tried to finish running the rest of the test grasping one ice pack in hand