day 1614 – bruised butt

meetings got shifted around so immediately had a long meeting once i got into the office. it was so busy at work before i knew it, it was already 11am and i have yet to eat my go to breakfast of peanut butter toast. i didn’t do a good job starting the month of october skipping my first meal, but i vouch to do better with eating. the fall in hockey really hit hard as i chose not to sit down at work all day because it gave my buttocks a ton of grief. i went to the gym to do my lower body workout which i probably shouldn’t have, but at least i exercised caution to make sure it didn’t cause it to feel worse. it was a much lighter day than i would have liked

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day 1575 – casual pr

my hand still hurt like a beep but going in cold for my second try at my normal monday workout. my crippled hand is still painful to open and close, meaning no deads today but still got to finish the squat portion. i went in just wanting to lift something without judgement, but instead casually matching my post rehab record weight for four, which is upped from last week

day 1558 – me menu

called everything off and put myself and only myself on today’s menu cause i need time alone to set my priorities straight. absolutely no work related tasks today – no work for the first time in sixteen days. i was going down the wrong path of cramming work in to avoid idle time which in turn has even more negative effect on my mental health. can’t say i’m not a workaholic but then realized i was more burnt out than ever. so first time sleeping in until eight, helped my parents moved furniture, went for a workout and cleaned my room. that is not to say i don’t see the relationship struggles, but we’ll both be working on it together. i do feel better thinking i’ve reset my priorities and reorganized my life for the upcoming week

day 1544 – lonely corner

the cage may be full, but the squat rack on the other side of the gym wasn’t. besides being in the stuffy side, it’s not so bad here. in fact, i kind of like being alone in this lonely corner where i can be me. i must admit i felt the heaviness after enduring the past couple days. my back and hip is feeling funky; must have been the jolt from yesterday’s game. what’s on my glute doesn’t seem like it’s just a normal bruise. had to cut workout short before i do some extra damage to myself. it was nice to walk the park with good old buddy just to catch up and unload

day 1537 – edgy  

my ankle was tender and swollen even after icing the night. haven’t seen a doctor to look at the bone but i was determined to go to nash regardless. so determined i iced on my way to work and while at work. did everything to force it because i wasn’t about to skip another leg day and leave any regrets. i went through my normal routine minus the box jumps. i’ve noticed my strength is returning to me and happy to take that one plate back. good sign squatting and deadlifting didn’t cause any additional pain

day 1520 –  squat hard 

i was definitely frustrated waking up because i stayed up working on payroll and i woke up with another email of explanations. work in the afternoon dragged on and i longed to get out. i didn’t feel particularly good during my workout today and felt weaker than other days. schedule just haven’t had time to hit up the gym. not having done so all week long is really showing in my squats but i still hit it hard knowing i’ll feel it even harder the next day

day 1439 – rebuilding

the plate seems a lot heavier than weeks ago. my body still feels so out of sync from neck down after the accident. the many recent mishaps caused so many disruptions to my progress which is making me more impatient day after day. i’m still trying to rebuild but that won’t happen unless my body is recalibrated and it doesn’t help when i can’t seem to fall asleep and stay asleep at night