day 914 – leaf through

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came across this as i was leafing through my phone album for a kickass picture request. going through these pictures bring back so much memories, the times when i seemed to have a better grasp of competition. deep down i know i miss competition and really want to be back in the game, but knowing i will not return until i can step up my game. it’s been far too long since i last competed. the longer i’m away from the competition stage, the more scared i feel. i hope i’m able to control and improve not only my game, but my state of mind

day 913 – off limits

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i had to stay away from legs exercises all week long because of my shin issues, today was no exception. it hasn’t allowed me to walk or drive properly, let alone handle any lower body exercises – trust me, i was crazy enough to try. a couple days of inactivity and so called rest, and i’m sad to say my legs are still off limit. i still got to do what i got to do, so i guess today is yet another upper body day. i’m almost begging my shins to heal up so i can go about my business

day 912 – troublemakers

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as i sit in idleness today, someone sent a picture to remind me that i am missing my annual exec retreat. a season end retreat south of the border which will undoubtedly involve massive amount of eating, drinking, passing out, waking up hungover and then repeat. i’m disappointed that i am missing out on this retreat for other commitments. but when i think about it again, i am doing my body a huge favour – forgoing things that can’t be undone to the liver, and then i get over it

day 911 – federer action

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staying up later than late to watch federer in semifinal action. it was painstakingly difficult to watch federer go through the first two sets. it’s a rarity to see him thrown off his game, where he had some unfederer hacks. i guess he also has a knack of making the game of tennis look so effortless. he fell in a deep hole from the very beginning but i am glad he pulled out his tricks and put together a good third set. i would’ve been beyond disappointed if it was a straight set match. nonetheless federer still had a dominant aussie open

day 910 – not mashed potato

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cooking up some alternatives to satisfy my cravings for mashed potato. first time using this recipe and must say the final product turned out really well. i will definitely make this again but opt to make some adjustments to improve the texture. who needs potatoes when cauliflowers can taste so delicious and satiisfy me the way it did. good to know i don’t need to be an iron chef to make good food like this

 

day 909 – letup

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a rare and validated rest day after a crazy action packed monday. my whole body especially my legs are feeling each rep and every move that i did yesterday. i really did go all out and overboard with dodgeball. as crazy as it sounds, i really did attempt to get my exercise in, but my legs just wouldn’t allow. i am urged to take the day off to stretch and roll instead of overtraining and put myself at risk

day 908 – post week one

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week one of rdl season four in the books and it was a successful one. the gang having post dodgeball late night snack – their late night snack. playing together as a team for the first time, we had a very good night racking up nine wins against some tough opponents. i think this team has great potential and will only improve as the season goes on. for someone who went through a tough high rep training prior to dodgeball and exhausted to the point where putting gear on was quite difficult, i played ridiculously well. but why am i surprised as history shows i play better tired

stumbling

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i can’t be certain if my mind and my heart will still be in one piece come end of this month. there were so many times this month when i sat alone in the dark wanting to cry, wanting to run myself through the wall, wanting to pull my hair out and wanting to quit everything. but then, when i think about it again, what good with that do?? would it solve all the problems and frustrations i have at hand?? before i did anything careless, i managed to step back to gather myself and viewed things from a broader angle. stumbling is part of life, falling down is a must because that’s when you learn what you are made of. i’m sure all the greats have fallen at some point in the lifetime but somehow they managed to get to where they are now. i know i had to make some big and extremely tough decisions lately, but i made them and will be able to live with it for the rest of my life. there’s a lot of things in my life worth striving for, a lot to look forward to in the future. i shouldn’t let one or two or a few setbacks dictate and ruin my life. i promised myself i would only give myself a week to dwell and regroup, but after that, i will once again find the determination to move closer to my dreams and goals

day 907 – aussie open

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so jelly my friend is catching all the australian open live. i wish one day i will be able go to watch live grand slam matches especially at us open. it was my goal to watch roddick play in person, but he retired much too soon to my dismay. now i will rest that hope on a live federer match one day. i guess in the meantime i’ll settle with watching federer play his quarterfinals match tomorrow night

day 906 – poached

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golfing down on my poached eggs and tofu as fast as i can before heading out to taekwondo. refuelling myself with a protein riched lunch after yet another gym session complete. i am feeling the effects from yesterday but nothing is going to stop me from doing it all over again. i always get asked why i eat like this, but what does “eat like this” really mean? the better question is why do you not “eat like this”? if you haven’t gone through what i have, don’t judge because no one understands what staying healthy really means to me