charlie puth – one call away

i can never seem to get tired of this song even on infinite loop in the background. i personally think it’s a very well written song with meaningful lyrics; maybe because i can relate to a lot of what he’s trying to say. sometimes i just want to be superman; my own superman. recently discovered this is one of my favourite stretching songs, it’s very soothing and calming

what you want

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feel like i am falling off the train tracks and hitting a wall so another check in is required to make sure i know what i am doing. it’s hard to always stay on track, but always got to keep a tab on it and not let myself stray too far and even back pedal too much. when life is a long journey, must aim high and make meaningful goals and achievements to strive for. and throughout any undertaking of any goal requires discipline in many forms that makes the separation. unfortunately that also means times can get rough, minds can get lost and that’s what usually what happens to me far too often. it is important to know that the struggles and hardwork is part of the process and that the progress and eventual achievement will be well worth every ounce of effort i put in. the process is important, but knowing the reaching the top of the mountain and conquering every obstacle is the most rewarding feeling should be enough to keep at it. that i should be proud of reaching and striving, all for the greater good

all in a days work

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this reminds me of my physio crew that serves me so well. they have tried to hammer that the feelings of soreness, tired, fatigue, exhaustion are all part of the package because it means the training is working. for all the years they have known me, they must have heard every possible reason or excuse from me by now and no longer adhere to what i say or how i feel. as far as they are concerned, they will push me as hard and as far as they see fit, and give me no breathing room to escape. my reasons have little or no effect on them, they just listen and look at me but do nothing to acknowledge. even when i plead i can’t, their response is only “i don’t care, you have or do it”. so i know whenever something asked of me seems insurmountable, my mind is constantly finding ways to cut myself some slack. but no matter what i say or plead, the demand doesn’t change but all these can’t thoughts comes out so naturally. but i am grateful for their uncompromising and unsympathetic attitude, because they see that i am capable of such and that’s the only way i will get better. it is the main reason i have made big strides in the right direction – towards a healthier me

day 580 – physio overpowers

image was given a hard time the minute i stepped in but i already knew that every time from now on will be no joke. kinesiologist only followed physio to step everything up a notch so to not get himself into trouble and even then physio finds ways to demand for more. when what was asked of me seemed impossible, i turned to my kin hoping he would be able to change his mind but physio is adamant in what he demands for. even when things are hard, i know i need that unforgiving push because i am guilty of always looking for a compromise

day 566 – physio at his best

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physio had his radar on me the entire morning and went crazy today pushing me hard and maxing out my leg. said he was on a mission to push my left leg to match the other because he’s simply not satisfied that i am settling. upon hearing that, my kinesiologist was on my back because physio faulted him for not working me hard enough. physio also discussed my mri report to confirm results came back negative. the good news is nothing broken and nothing torn, the not so good news is he has the green light to hurt me in any possible way to fix whatever is wrong with me

day 552 – vmo

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no secret what is the underlying issue that i try to slip through under the radar all these years. i knew it was only a matter of time until muscle imbalance catches up to me. today, physio finally forced it upon me to work my vmo using the muscle stimulator and i am already not fond of that device. both kinesiologist and physio flat out said it’s a tortuous process where the machine would cause a lot of painful contractions but said that i am forced to do it for as long as it needs to catch up. its a brutal process, but it must be done because he’s not going to let me off the hook anymore

day 456 – breaking new ground

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lack of action picture so here’s what my kinesiologist claimed as his awesome water bottle. feeling accomplished i am able to take my rehab execises up to next level after patiently working at the same level for a few months. it helps being trained and constantly pushed to take steps breaking into new ground and greater difficulty with each exercise. and now i need to keep my lifting consistent and work my way back to the weights i was capable of during my peak form. i am eager and feeling determined to pick it up and break into more new territory very soon