day 1793 – roller and flosser

the fact my body is badly bruised front and back is enough reason not to partake the after-work bootcamp. the excessive overworked body is sore from hip flexor, to hamstring, to calves, to traps, to shoulders, to lats. hence, i spent much time on the floor releasing myself. i did a pre-game roll on my softball and a post-game roll on foam roller and pvc pipe. since that wasn’t enough, i went one step further and did some flossing

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day 1584 – over and done

it’s finally made official, but deep down i know it’s over for the better. the decision to leave at one of my most critical time was already a telling tale; but i learned to bare next to no expectations from then on. if i was able to survive that storm alone, i’d be able to manage others just fine. i don’t understand why i held on even when i wasn’t happy, when letting go makes me hurt less. lots of things are about to change. it’s time to reset myself and get back to understanding what my own priorities don’t need to live in the shadows of everyone else’s

day 1240 – amrapping

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my movements are still limited so i had to deviate from my regular thursday lifts. a simple workout that didn’t require a lot of equipment but required a lot of fighting with inner self. it was a heart pounding one that had me drenched within a minute. there were so many times i could’ve stopped and gave up but didn’t. i missed this feeling of exhaustion and really needed it, but my body tells me otherwise. i will wake up tomorrow in pain and my legs will hate me every step of the way, but i’m proud i pushed through. just a testament that i’m physically stronger than i think and that i need to work harder mentally. i feel like i needed this so i deserve to eat tonight

day 1192 – fizz see oh

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getting my maintenance work in for my beat up body so i can continue to beat up my body. i like to be active and i will continue to be for as long as i can. physio did mention he was very pleased with how well i held up for as long as i have been away. it’s also nice to hear from others that they’ve noticed my improvement and acknowledge what i can do; that’s a compliment i’ll gladly take. i’m here because you inspired and challenged me to be, but i’ll never be satisfied with myself because i know i can always be better

day 1129 – salt and pepper

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i was pretty bored and lazy today even though i had a ton of things waiting for me to do. the family commented on how rare it was to have me eat out with the rest of them. it’s been a long time since i hardly recall when and where was the last. it was such a long dinner, my everything was so stiff by the time we took the bill. got home and did some painful rolling so i can still move for team practice tomorrow. i’ll also get to my long to do list tomorrow

day 1068 – sunday lift

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trying to not let my messed up back dictate what i should be doing. dreaded going to instructor seminar in the middle of my day, but i did the right thing; i did it for sifu. i showed up fashionably late, performed several poomsaes and ran through the rest of the poomsaes; it went smoother than expected. i went in and did my job like i had agreed to, so i felt like i deserved to hit the gym. still got to lift that them weights and push my damaged pain sensors some more

day 1035 – all knotted

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everything on my legs are all knotted up and a bruised and tender knee from taking an ego damaging fall. this is what happens when i don’t exercise for three weeks, then go all out at the gym and go crazy kicking bags without stretching. i guess that’s when proper warm up and cool downs come into play. i had to skip gym today because all i can do is roll them out on the deathly foam roller