day 1674 – over and done


it’s a pity it’s made official, but deep down i know it’s over for the better. the decision to leave at one of my most critical time was already a telling tale; but i learned and bared next to no expectation from then on. if i was able to survive that storm alone, i’d be able to get through anything. lots of things are about to change. it’s a time to reset myself and welcome the new challenges i’m about to take on. it’s a time to get back to understanding that my own priorities don’t need live in the shadows of everyone else’s

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day 1240 – amrapping

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my movements are still limited so i had to deviate from my regular thursday lifts. a simple workout that didn’t require a lot of equipment but required a lot of fighting with inner self. it was a heart pounding one that had me drenched within a minute. there were so many times i could’ve stopped and gave up but didn’t. i missed this feeling of exhaustion and really needed it, but my body tells me otherwise. i will wake up tomorrow in pain and my legs will hate me every step of the way, but i’m proud i pushed through. just a testament that i’m physically stronger than i think and that i need to work harder mentally. i feel like i needed this so i deserve to eat tonight

day 1192 – fizz see oh

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getting my maintenance work in for my beat up body so i can continue to beat up my body. i like to be active and i will continue to be for as long as i can. physio did mention he was very pleased with how well i held up for as long as i have been away. it’s also nice to hear from others that they’ve noticed my improvement and acknowledge what i can do; that’s a compliment i’ll gladly take. i’m here because you inspired and challenged me to be, but i’ll never be satisfied with myself because i know i can always be better

day 1129 – salt and pepper

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i was pretty bored and lazy today even though i had a ton of things waiting for me to do. the family commented on how rare it was to have me eat out with the rest of them. it’s been a long time since i hardly recall when and where was the last. it was such a long dinner, my everything was so stiff by the time we took the bill. got home and did some painful rolling so i can still move for team practice tomorrow. i’ll also get to my long to do list tomorrow

day 1068 – sunday lift

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trying to not let my messed up back dictate what i should be doing. dreaded going to instructor seminar in the middle of my day, but i did the right thing; i did it for sifu. i showed up fashionably late, performed several poomsaes and ran through the rest of the poomsaes; it went smoother than expected. i went in and did my job like i had agreed to, so i felt like i deserved to hit the gym. still got to lift that them weights and push my damaged pain sensors some more

day 1035 – all knotted

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everything on my legs are all knotted up and a bruised and tender knee from taking an ego damaging fall. this is what happens when i don’t exercise for three weeks, then go all out at the gym and go crazy kicking bags without stretching. i guess that’s when proper warm up and cool downs come into play. i had to skip gym today because all i can do is roll them out on the deathly foam roller

day 892 – new nemesis

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i knew the day would come when i would outgrow my pipe and needed to find a harder alternative. for as much as i use my rollers, my body has developed enough immunity to the pipe it no longer serves me justice. i have passed the stages of foam, firm foam, even firmer foam, ridged foam, plastic and pipe in sequential order; let’s get straight to the point and go for metal. found a new effective tool to roll out my frequently overused legs and get it to a functional state