day 2378 – winger dinner

got some wednesday wings after some air track training. though i didn’t make it into distinct back handsprings or flash, i made progress by just getting around on my own. i hit my head on the edge once or twice but i just have to keep doing it until it clicks. i’m pretty hard on myself for not getting the tumbling, but i know it’s a must in order for me to continue. i hope very soon it will look like what i actually want to do – the cartwheel flash or cartwheel back handspring. finished off the night having talks about taekwondo, competition, future school, side gigs, and stocks

day 2362 – tricks and kicks

i’ve, for the longest time, avoided training kicks at tricking because i’m really scared to find out i won’t be able to kick ever again. ever since i found out the real truth about my ankle, i’ve been really down just thinking how much that will affect all the things i love to do. i’ve since learnt that i will still be able to train certain things back if i rehab it properly. i want to make it a priority to rehab properly and train kicks because it’s quite unacceptable if i don’t have some kicks. i started with cheat 720 and backside 900 tonight and i’ll keep drilling it until i get them

2019 year at a glance

the recap of the past 365 days could easily be all negative, but instead of going down the rabbit hole of saying everything that went wrong, i also want to recap on all the things that went right. sure, my ankle injury cost me nine months of the year to diagnosis, but it didn’t stop me from carrying out the things i can still do. weightlifting was a big plus this year for i joined apex and dove back into olympic lifting. i got pretty good progress despite the many physical road blocks; a seventeen kilo improvement and making the yellow plates for a personal best. in the mere two months i was introduced to clean and jerk techniques, i’m happy to be just shy of the blue plates. tricking has caused me the most grief. there were so many flips and tricks i wanted to land, but couldn’t mostly because my injuries didn’t allow me to do things i should be able to. i’ll have to accept the fact there’ll be some specific moves i’ll never be able to do again, forever. i had a serious debate inside telling me to quit because everyone has given up on me, even me. at one point i had a deadline in mind to land one of the three moves i’ve been working on. low and behold, i did not land one, but i’m urged to give it a little more time because i’m really close. taekwondo became really stressful having to train a new set of teaching staff. i never once thought i’d test for my fourth degree, especially not with the ankle i was on. sports aside, i also traveled to europe, met some new people, got rid of toxic ones, changed departments and tried new things. i had some very low moments throughout this year where i really wanted to give up, but i kept my head up as hard as it was. i told myself because i never have up, 2020 will be the year for me where everything will fall into place and it’s my year to shine

day 2314 – tucking it

feeling gutsy and antsy with the flips and couldn’t hold myself down any longer. it’s hard to describe the feeling i had when i realize even after all that happened to me, i just did a back tuck by myself. sure, the technique is not as good as my prime days, but at least i can still do them unspotted. best of all, i didn’t experience any pain in my ankles. i think i still want to to train through my ankle woes, but train smart so i’m still able to condition it regardless if i go under the knife or not

day 2257 – monday off

compressed work week saving me by letting me sleep in like no other. also blessed to have the day off to take my mom out for birthday lunch. basically woke up at 11am, then met up with my parents near both their offices to enjoy some beef noodles. stopped by the gym to stretch, roll and use the sauna before heading out to flightclub. had a lot of fun after hours training, getting more back handspring reps in. hopefully all these reps will pay off sooner rather than later. i opted not to join the crew for dinner because i had some cake errands to run before the stores closed

day 2247 – kip up

i was forced to re-train aerials because my ankle was feeling wonky after a landing. big surprise came as my long lost aerial, that wasn’t even close to landing for weeks, felt super solid on blue mat today. the bonus of the session came at the end when thought i’d get a few reps of kip ups in to close the night. somehow it just started to click today; i fluked the first one and fluked another half a dozen. i’m reminded that sometimes reward comes simply from being stubborn and persistent about training and getting reps in. i’m hoping that’s the case for some of the other moves i’m chasing

day 2220 – outside masters

keeping up with practice at masters class on one of my infrequent saturday off. i’m even more taped up than usual after getting a scrape across my instep yesterday, but that’s never stopped me from anything in the past. i’m glad i went because i got more pointers on how to refine my back tuck and x-outs. the bonus was getting to try them with shoes and then some x-out attempts on grass, both spotted and unspotted. i wouldn’t say i’m comfortable with it by all means, but the fear is slowly shrinking. it’s a pretty good way to end the month of august