day 1869 – apparatuses

didn’t spend any time at my own desk this morning. i had a good long meeting with the director followed by the bpdt team. constant meetings is very draining so really looking forward to getting off work and onto my way to practice some acrobatic stuff. felt a little tight and lethargic, didn’t really feel good about my back tucks. progress has been really slow, and i’m disappointed to say the least. i’m sure a lot of setbacks as to do with my ongoing shoulder woes

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day 1726 – sun run fun

it was a gutsy decision to continue with the run, but i’m stubborn that way. i’m glad i put my third sun run in the books with my best run time yet. the near one hour mark was good for second with my company, only to be ousted by a forty-two minute avid runner. couldn’t have asked for a better weather as it was perfect when i began to rack up my steps. running with someone makes me stay motivated to continue pushing forward. no recovery time allowed since i had to work a belt test hours later covering the ten kilometres. now it’s time to hit up my physio so he can fix my knees and get it back to being functional

day 1486 – five star 

just got confirmation that my fifth star has been added to the team hard hat. the amount of stars beside my name is a pretty good display of what i have accomplished thus far. i’m proud of the improvement and success i had in my first full year, but also not settling for anything less than what i can be. i’m predicted to continue to grow as a hockey player, but where that growth and progress takes place is not yet determined

day 1440 – plating

my kineis put one plate heavy squats on the rehab menu and i delivered. he was impressed, and i was sort of too; he even said he underestimated me all this time. my squats felt pretty good today despite my head feeling really off from the moment i woke up at 6am. work was especially busy as i have a deadline this week; downed a few advils and onwards with work. geared down and pushed through the rest of work, tutor, meeting and then rehab. i feel a lot better halfway through my rehab stint; my body is more intact and stable as opposed to a wreck eight weeks ago

building 2017

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2016 was one heck of a crazy roller coaster ride. the past twelve months gave me ample opportunities to experience more of what life is about. i found myself in the darkest moments where i shut myself off from the world, fluctations and eating problems ensued. i managed to dig deep with the support of my close ones, and got myself back together. nothing came easy as nothing worth achieving ever comes easy. behind closed doors, i fought many battles that no one knew about, but the most important thing is i never gave up on myself. i came to realization that i don’t want to remain stagnant and don’t want to remain the same so i took on some challenges. i defined what my goals were and was proactive in taking the necessary steps to get myself there. through the hard times i gained a lot of knowledge and strength that no doubt made a better me. it made me realize i’m much stronger than i think i am and need to get even stronger to withstand. i’m much closer to where i want to be but i’m not where i want to be yet. i’m still working on becoming the best version of myself

finished 2016 on a high note and looking to build a strong 2017 with bigger and more ambitious goals. it’s time to take it up a notch or even two and fulfill whatever my heart desires

  • stay as healthy and as injury-free as possible
  • train smarter and eat properly with sufficient sleep
  • be more disciplined and focused towards my goals
  • continue to work on my confidence level
  • love myself for who i am
  • communicate more with family and friends
  • explore the world and expand my horizon
  • attain supplementary diploma
  • appreciate being a workaholic, but also appreciate the little things
  • save up for the number game
  • revisit photography
  • do more of what sets my heart on fire

i’m pumped to make the next twelve months the best months i’ve ever had. find my strong. it’s now or never

day 1211 – on the line

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a weary week it has been with added stress and commotion. i’ve handled them myself to the best of my ability and dealt with them with a sense of urgency. i live through my passion that others may not see value or significance in. no one will understand how and why some things can impact me so much, but i’ll keep fighting for what i believe in and hope that one day they see it too. extremely relieved that i completed some tests and great to see that i can be a contender too; glad to know i’m wanted somewhere. i’m proud that i’m strong enough to stick with it

林奕匡 – 一雙手

a song that’s been looping endlessly especially when i’m at loss of words. sometimes i think i have found what i’m looking for, i have what i want, and then those thoughts vanish. these thoughts leave me hanging and instills a lot of self doubt. lately i’m feeling a little upset at myself and i’m trying hard not to let that to spill over to others. this song resonates for me; it gives me a boost and a reason to continue even when i’m uncertain