day 2541 – digested worries

had a week to digest the breakdown and sort through all that’s on my mind. honestly, i was scared to pour out what went through my mind last week because i was afraid my coaches would give up on me. the fact that i wanted to succeed so bad put a lot of pressure on myself, but i wouldn’t have it otherwise. i want my coaches to continue pushing me to achieve and reach what’s in my fullest potential. i just want them to know that i’m trying to do what they’ve been harping at me for, and that i don’t want them to baby me because they think i can’t handle their strictest expectations. afterall, i wouldn’t want to settle for anything less than what i should be capable of. i took a step back the past few days to retrain a few mechanics and that seemed to have help me make progress

day 2519 – cup marks

to help my knee heal in every way possible, i’m constantly using the suction cups and electrolysis stimulation. though i don’t do as much strengthening exercises, stretches and conditioning as i should, i still try to whenever possible. sitting out has never been easy for me and it’ll always be something i won’t take lightly, so i will take every step i can to ease my pain and rehab process. the biggest drawback is these suction cups leave a large bruise when you least expect it

day 2498 – open gym flash

still going strong attending classes and hitting up open gyms. i’ve learned that adopting to train everyday, but train at seventy percent may be better than going ham every other day. despite doms hitting hard after a heavy squat day the day before, i had a pretty strong session. i wasn’t expecting to do any power moves, but i was in for a surprised with both my flash kick and x-out. i took the x-out to the floor after two warm ups and it looked better than the ones last summer when i drilled them the entire session. my flash kick is starting to click for some reason; i wish i could take it to floor as well but i know i need to be held back to have a better margin of error before i do so. i have no doubt it will come in time

day 2495 – two hundred bound

how much difference two weeks of consistent deadlifting has made. prior to covid, i haven’t deadlifted for a few years. at the beginning of april, i was working with about one plate worth of weights. two weeks ago, i tried two hundred pounds the moment i brought two extra plates home and only managed to pull it an inch off the floor. fast forward two weeks, i surprised myself and did it for three reps. the form could still improve, but i’m pulling safely and not risking any injury. i owe it to my training partners for correcting my form and giving me that extra push. i’m looking forward to making it back to my two plate club soon

day 2457 – whiskey hazelnut

earnest is a luxury that i save only to indulge as a reward. i had a rather rough week coping internally, especially in training. whenever there’s any sign of improvement in my knee, a setback happens like excessive inflammation during drills or walking into a car. what made me content is that even though things didn’t go well, i kept up with the training. it’s important to keep drilling, but it’s equally important to accept that some things may not be at it’s best and that’s when i can work on other skills

day 2454 – stubborn knee

it’s hard to stay positive when i was all eager to train raiz into red, but i can’t carry out the drill because my knee simply can’t take the landing on the mat. it started to get inflamed after five attempts and i wasn’t even at a point where i was doing it right yet. i teared up a little getting overly flustered and frustrated. the stubborn me says i’m still going to do this drill no matter what because i’m determined to get this move

day 2442 – training accountability

one thing that’s really worked during this quarantine grind is we keep each other accountable. both of us felt sore and tired, but we kept up with the training because we knew we needed to push through for the whole ride. we trained, but trained smart and adjusted to only doing things our bodies could handle. for me, it was focused on aerials, websters and back handsprings. it’s good that my webster is back on track and felt good after a few off days. i’ve also committed to do a better job at stretching to get my flexibility back

day 2397 – cartwheel back again

i wasn’t going to stop cartwheel back tucks the day after landing my first. in fact, i was determined to capture an even better one. i went straight for the panel mat, did a couple and then a couple more on the floor. at some point my cartwheel felt off and i couldn’t make the connection, but i would really disappoint my coaches and myself if i hadn’t kept at it. i ended on a good note by landing one of the best one. i honestly wouldn’t be able to sleep tonight if i hadn’t done so. this is a move i never want to lose because of all the struggles i went through

day 2378 – winger dinner

got some wednesday wings after some air track training. though i didn’t make it into distinct back handsprings or flash, i made progress by just getting around on my own. i hit my head on the edge once or twice but i just have to keep doing it until it clicks. i’m pretty hard on myself for not getting the tumbling, but i know it’s a must in order for me to continue. i hope very soon it will look like what i actually want to do – the cartwheel flash or cartwheel back handspring. finished off the night having talks about taekwondo, competition, future school, side gigs, and stocks

day 2362 – tricks and kicks

i’ve, for the longest time, avoided training kicks at tricking because i’m really scared to find out i won’t be able to kick ever again. ever since i found out the real truth about my ankle, i’ve been really down just thinking how much that will affect all the things i love to do. i’ve since learnt that i will still be able to train certain things back if i rehab it properly. i want to make it a priority to rehab properly and train kicks because it’s quite unacceptable if i don’t have some kicks. i started with cheat 720 and backside 900 tonight and i’ll keep drilling it until i get them