day 1568 – buckle down

it’s inexcusable that so many times i lose my self discipline and stray off from what i need to be doing. there’s been a lot of pressure from different sources and i’m struggling trying to stand my ground. i’m so stressed out; it’s been disappointing the stress has so much impact on my willpower and the lack of it. there is no excuse to not have a better habit and stick with what i want

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

day 1567 – new salary

received my first pay stub with my new remuneration; means a lot to me to finally have my hardwork reflected in my salary. though that’s the only bright spot of the day as i woke up feeling really shitty about myself. a stomachache made matters worse and i didn’t feel like eating. i regret having dragged myself into the office but had so much work that missing any time wasn’t feasible. just as i thought my evening was getting better, a phone call from sifu changed everything and i all i could do was lay in bed feeling majorly overwhelmed but no one there to receive

day 1566 – nomadic tempest


camping under the cambie bridge with my beach chair for the free nomadic tempest outdoor show.  it was more cultural and less acrobatic than advertised but it’s still neat to have checked it out. i like checking out the various summer events vancity has to offer; it gives me a reason to be outdoors and away from the things i routinely go through day after day. i’ll be back for more summer events around the city, especially the free ones

day 1565 – rehab’d out

checking out of rehab is a rewarding feeling as today marks the last of the program. i started off being very frustrated since recovery was slow and my body was reacting to movements much differently after the accident; the more agitated i got, the harder the exercise felt. over the many rehab sessions with kinesiologist, we went through a lot dynamic stretches and compound exercises to regain what i once had. been worked mighty hard where both both in strength and knowledge happened. it’s one of the most satisfying when i noticed increased jump in my game and along the way i built and broke plateaus

day 1564 – serious dessert

line ups for premium ice cream shops are always this long, but if we always turn around like we did last time, i’ll never get to try any of them. my whiskey hazelnut and london fog double scoop cone was worth my wait. it was not a bad sunday, but i would see the norm every so often and wonder why it’s not like that for me. that thorn will be inevitable, for as long as it’s not addressed it will be a reminder of what hurts

day 1563 – game development

a steady development in my game lately as a result of playing with the higher tiers, receiving pointers, and just getting more ice time. a good day of hockey for me that started off well in britannia, but drop in is where it clicked; even with my aching body and tired legs, i felt strong on my skates. i thought i played a solid game gaining more confidence on the ice whether carrying the puck, driving to the net and playing good positioning. it’s nice when the opposing players compliment on your game, especially the goalie on my shot. it makes me smile a little he said i have a dangerous shot cause both speed and accuracy is there. i hate it when opposing guys take my lightly just because i’m a girl, but the fact they check me harder is a sign of gaining respect

day 1562 – corridor floor

third day of the contractor laying down hardwood floor. it’s coming along nicely; he’s working slowly but diligently as those curved steps on the stairs is complicated. i hope he can get more done over the weekend so i don’t have to deal with the sawdust. it’s looking quite nice but i still don’t like how the random creaking noises comes with. no matter what, i think i’ll always prefer carpet in my bedroom