day 1490 – double header

was thinking my hip wouldn’t be up to playing if i had to take doses of advil but ended up playing both double header. it’s not the ideal weather for softball, but we expected the rain to fall and dressed appropriately. fielding first game at first base and second game at rover. got multi base hit game in both games but i swung the bat particularly well in the second game. baserunning iq could be better if i only focused more. it’s funny in between innings the ump told me i was fast; he probably wanted to say my speed saved my butt from an ill-advised decision

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day 1489 – slopitch

the rain was coming down hard in richmond so i thought surely the rain would be even worse in burnaby. the league said games run as schedule and good call for them. the field was mucky, but the weather didn’t turn out too bad. i layered up to anticipate a chilly evening and it was. it was important to stay warm through the game so i had to keep moving in the dugout. i actually ran a lot of bases and had a good line at the plate too. thinking if it will be wise to play tomorrow because my hip is in a great deal of pain

day 1488 – getting sweaty 

normally i don’t sweat much, but the way my shirt was drenched sure made it look like i played hard tonight. my ribs are becoming more stable, but still have to play conservatively until chiro gives me the okay to play without limitations. my team played better than what the stat sheet showed; i had a decent night with nine kills and five catches despite trying to play cautiously. hard to believe a thunderstorm is expected to spur tomorrow when the weather was so nice out all of last week

day 1487 – sriracha spaghetti

made our own recipe of sriracha tomato sauced spaghetti for dinner. i’ll be picking up my parents from the airport tonight so this is the last homecooking while we have the entire place to ourselves. i enjoyed the freedom and peace, but one my priority it to embrace their presence and build better rapport like the good old days. today also marks the six year anniversary of my first foot fracture. i can’t say i’ll ever be able to treat it like normal again; paranoia usually takes over

day 1486 – start low

lightening up and still feel difficulty with five sets doesn’t bode well for my psyche. four weeks of disruption from my workout program and all my lifts suffers a tremendous drop. everything must stay within warmup range until i can prove my that recovery is at 50%. i’m trying to stay patient but i’m not very patient at this and it sucks the life out of me until i am fully back. i’m waiting on everything that i have little control over

day 1485 – earnest

carrying over the effects of yesterday, i couldn’t concentrate seeing so many live streams and posts of the event. even the earnest manager brought in didn’t help much. i didn’t want to be anywhere; if there was a hole i would bury myself. luckily i could go out for a drink on a warm summer-like night. that gave my mind a break so i don’t have to bum around and want to run myself through the walls

day 1484 – speak easy

nationals in the back of my mind the whole day made me so restless. i never expected the decision to be easy to overcome, and i think i handled it the best i could. what made it more difficult was i had no one to speak my mind and made it less inviting when i’m constantly being criticized, teased or ignored. i feel like i’m taking this on alone and less willing to pour my heart out knowing i’m going to get insults. i don’t know how long i can take the punishment