day 1514 Рbruise much 

arm freshly bruised after taking pregame collision and mid game bodycheck. saturday night back to back hockey games at britannia and sunset. my arm is not looking good but my foot is doing much worse. the additional bone growth in my heel is looking like a tumour and is getting so bad it hurts to wear shoes. i need to get this checked out and fixed before it becomes something a much bigger and permanent problem 

day 1513 – box jumping

jumping my boxes is a liberty i no longer take for granted. box jumps has been sparse ever since beginning my rehab with chiro. of the times i tried the past seven weeks, i either only managed a thirty box or stopped short in excruciating hip pain. two weeks into kineisiologist rehab today, i’m back on boxes and made a thirty nine box. the most positive note to take away is pain free jumps. i hope to keep up with the no advil days

day 1512 Рaccompaniment 

my precious sticking by my side morning and night. she’s there for hugs when i need it most and absorbs any burden i carry day in and day out. accompanying me so to know that i’m not going through this phase alone. i get disappointed wondering where each person’s priorities are at. i’d go home puzzled and speechless but at least i know i’m somebody’s top priority 

day 1511 – solstice begins

on days like this being stuck indoor away from windows isn’t ideal. the weather looks to be good for the rest of the week with the start of summer season. temperature is on the rise and it’s just one of the reasons summer is my favourite, for it brings sunshine to my life. all the fun summer activities awaits. maybe this will brighten my mood and bring me to a better place 

day 1510 Рdisconnect 

there’s no change since. the fact that i still feel alone hasn’t changed. it makes me wonder what difference it made being in a relationship. i still feel i am on my own. has it gotten too comfortable to the point where communication can be so sparse and the disconnect can be so big?? i don’t have a lot of needs and i don’t demand for much, maybe that’s why i get pushed aside and pushed down in priorities. i try to sweep it under the rug but i can’t help noticing my patience that something will turn around is declining

day 1509 – breakless

the weight accumulated in the past two months has caught up to me. on the exterior i seem invincible, but i can only fool others and not myself. the more i tried to brainwash myself, the deeper i went. at times i thought i didn’t want to fight anymore and wanted to give in. i fear that i’m nearing the brink of losing it – losing the patience to battle. didn’t have an appetite for any breakfast, but forced a few bites at lunch. i tried to bury myself with work to occupy every part of me

day 1508 – dodgeballers unite


tournament of champions is not just any dodgeball tournament. of course there’s vdl, rdl, cdl, sdl, but it’s super cool to see teams from calgary, edmonton, toronto, victoria, seattle. through the round robin, my team was in the middle of the pack. we played well in the playoffs and went further than expected. we fell behind two games in two series, only to come back and win it. i made some good catches and snipes but what stood out with the clutch kill to avoid a fifth game showdown and push the team into next round