day 2466 – elevate it

i was told to keep my ankle moving, but elevate it whenever possible, so naturally thought of doing some handstands. i was also bored out of my mind during the day time finding things to do and shows to watch. it also bothered me so much contemplating if i could still train tonight. at training, i was sad because it occurred to me that i had absolutely no plans for my birthday tomorrow. i guess everyone forgot about my special day

day 2445 – bugged knee

a bit of a bugger because i was doing well in these isolating days until hyper extending my knee on what should’ve been a basic move. it prompted my leg to go into shock, but i was hopeful sitting out a bit would let me continue to train. it was difficult to train, but i wasn’t ready to throw in the white towel. i changed up with it could handle which was predominantly back handsprings and handstands. learning to work with what i have has been a challenge over the course of this recovery, but something i’m slowly starting to adapt to

day 2428 – choreographing

everyday since being in quarantine, one of the things i look forward to is going into the gym to train. it’s good that we’re putting some initial choreography thoughts into action. i do, however, worry that my basics isn’t sound, my skill-set is limited, my technique is inconsistent and i’m not enough to match my partner. the last thing i want to do is disappoint my partner and coach. the only thing i can really promise and control is to work hard at solidifying what i need to hold my own

day 2373 – rutted

i’ve had far too many nose blows the past few months. the amount of times i stay awake being sad and discouraged far exceeds the times i not. i’m so tired of it; the feeling of quitting happens every other day. i’m not okay being neglected, left alone to fail and self destruct while some get the full on instructions. it hurts me that i show up to classes and open gyms ready to learn, ready to land my next move, but i’m clearly not their priority because they’ve got their ‘pokemon’ to train. i don’t deserve this and it hurts me so much inside more than words can explain

day 2362 – tricks and kicks

i’ve, for the longest time, avoided training kicks at tricking because i’m really scared to find out i won’t be able to kick ever again. ever since i found out the real truth about my ankle, i’ve been really down just thinking how much that will affect all the things i love to do. i’ve since learnt that i will still be able to train certain things back if i rehab it properly. i want to make it a priority to rehab properly and train kicks because it’s quite unacceptable if i don’t have some kicks. i started with cheat 720 and backside 900 tonight and i’ll keep drilling it until i get them

day 2336 – tong’s christmas

the annual christmas dinner at tong’s residence never has any shortage of tasty food. as a tradition, mom makes a delicious stuffed turkey every year. this year, to complement the turkey were cauliflower pancakes, roasted bacon wrapped enoki, turmeric salmon, baked rice and green salad. a special day is meant to be shared with the special people in my life. thank goodness it wasn’t a full day of eating with no exercise. it was nice to step out for a couple hours to train a bit at flightclub

day 2274 – squat stance

working on the heavier squats after some hiatus. the past several weeks i kind of brushed it off because i either felt my legs were too fatigued or felt down from then injustice of my foot problems. it’s not like me to not feel like squatting or gyming in general, but life right now is just a struggle to stay afloat. no doubt the squats felt heavy, but i pushed through and expect to be sore waking up tomorrow. i’ll have to work extra hard to catch up with the programing