day 2222 – fourth bound

after a full day at the dojo, i walked away with a fourth dan certificate. though i was satisfied with most, i was unhappy about one thing. i was bitter my x-out didn’t get the three attempts that all breakings get because he was worried i’d hurt myself. if held firmly, i was confident in breaking it. i’m still pretty proud i went for it considering the roller coaster i had been on the past few weeks. it was a good attempt and maybe the best attempt i had with boards. i’ll keep practicing and do it better one of these days for redemption. i’m just relieved this is all over. my beaten body full of gashes and bruises deserves the break after two long days at the dojo and of course all the work i’ve put into my x-out. definitely a smart decision to take tuesday as a flex day

day 2217 – nothing left

i’m feeling upset and beat because it’s crunch time and i can’t seem to land anything, not even my basic back tuck. the test is in a matter of days and my x-out feels like it’s fallen apart. it’s not a required board breaking, but i have been yearning to do this and if i was only going to take the fourth dan test once in my life, i better make it be something i’ll remember. i wanted to be proud of what i did and not just do the bare minimum. at this rate, i’m not sure if it’s going to happen

day 2202 – tricking plan

i think i got myself a tricking plan to keep pushing forward. the assignment is simple: each session i must complete the required reps choosing three from the flips and three kicks on the checklist. this is meant to push me to develop and acquire new tricks while maintaining and improving my old tricks. it also forces me to practice the things i don’t necessarily enjoy but should sharpen. i can’t land any new tricks if i don’t spread my eggs in different baskets. i need to diversify my skillset

day 2166 – eating discipline

second week into the thirteen week self challenge and i’m doing a much better job than the first week. i turned down the cupcake because i knew i would have serious regrets if i had consumed that. it’s hard road ahead and lots of things to be enticed by, but i’m no stranger to this type of challenge. i must stay on track and stay disciplined for what i really want; not for some short-lived satisfaction

day 2154 – self journal

finalizing my self journal and ready to start this weekend. i hashed out my three top goals and carefully thought out the progression actions to reach them. for the next thirteen weeks, i’ll have to be extra diligent with my game plan and disciplined with my focus. it won’t be easy and it’s not meant to be, but i’m sure it’ll be worth it once it’s all said and done. this is just scratching the surface of rebuilding my empire. i have yet to decide on a reward for when i survive and achieve my goals

day 2147 – back at flips

ever since i got back from my europe trip, my body has been experiencing nonstop and soreness. soreness from one thing hasn’t left my body and more soreness is added from another activity. i’m still really happy to be training again and seeing the people i’m used to doing flips with. working on arabians after hours because i haven’t landed anything in a long, long time. it’s definitely time to get a head start on some new moves and make better progress

day 2145 – department change

going to work on monday morning with mixed emotions because the switch in position and department is considered a promotion. the fact i’m removed from the department i’ve grown with leaves a sour feeling. also having work with someone i need time and space from is rather uncomfortable. still, work must go on and i’ll be professional about it and keep the interaction at a business level. at the end of the day i just need to get my stuff done