day 1504 – numero uno 

although i haven’t been here too many times, this box feels so homey because this place has everything i like. a good first kineis rehab session in the books. nothing too difficult and starting off easy since he wasn’t sure where i was at with my recovery. he’s one of the most caring dudes i’ve ever worked with and would ask if i was okay every so often. the way he treats me is very warming and sweet. i wish i could play with everything here, but i had to lay off doing crazy stuff that he wouldn’t be concerned . soon, i hope the crazy stuff will be mine again soon

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day 1486 – start low

lightening up and still feel difficulty with five sets doesn’t bode well for my psyche. four weeks of disruption from my workout program and all my lifts suffers a tremendous drop. everything must stay within warmup range until i can prove my that recovery is at 50%. i’m trying to stay patient but i’m not very patient at this and it sucks the life out of me until i am fully back. i’m waiting on everything that i have little control over

day 1264 – chrome toys

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the gyms have been busy all week, but hopefully it dies down when the resolutioners can’t keep up. my eyes lit up when i saw a new chrome olympic bar sitting idle on the rack waiting for me. i see they finally decided to unwrap them from the boxes. both my workout and power skating class went well. the pain and discomfort is still there but  recovery is there too. it’s wishful thinking, but i hope i am back to normal by the end of this month. it was a productive day with workout, power skating, working from home and then preparing for the week as it will be another busy week ahead

day 1238 – physio fix

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i needed this physio visit badly enough to call for an emergency appointment. my chest and back was feeling slightly improved upon waking up but still much too impaired. when physio pressed against my ribs and collar bone, i was in a lot of discomfort and couldn’t grasp for air. i know i still need more rest; i’ll take it day by day and feel optimistic that this will get better soon. for all the years he’s treated me, he still shakes his head at me and occasionally scolds me, but is never surprised with what kind of injuries i put up with

day 1173 – no go

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concluded my month-long debate with a tough decision. my team was shocked with the news, but concerned about my well-being. i’m passing on president cup as i didn’t have enough training time to feel prepared for an international event. i do have every intention to compete at the grassroot competition on the same weekend; couldn’t pass up on both events because my heart wants to compete. there’s no way of hiding my disappointment. i felt so dejected there was no way i could get my head in it to practice today. perhaps when i wake up tomorrow morning, i might feel relieved that at least a decision was made. only time will heal both wounds

day 1166 – bars and boxes

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something made me feel pretty good as i was left the gym today. maybe because my first attempts at box jumps in over a month turned out really well. i thought i’d try some easy ones just to reintroduce it to my body, but ended up matching my normal height. it wasn’t that i was pain free, but the fact the pain didn’t escalate is something i’ll gladly take. i can honestly say through the past two weeks i’ve been painstakingly patient. i hope it pays off and treats me well with recovery

day 1149 – plate less

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it’s an off day away from the gym once again so here’s my version of throwback thursday. every time i walk by this rack i have the urge to lift these. it’s been weeks since i have and i miss it too much. i disregarded restrictions and tried on a number of occasions, but ended up giving my back more setbacks. i’d be lying if i said i wasn’t in pain more than half my waking hour, but i want to keep doing what i do. more importantly, my october competition status is up in the air if it doesn’t get better soon. i can only stay patient for so long, and i am not a patient person when it comes to recovery. when will i be back lifting normally without pain??