day 1394 – speak easy

nationals in the back of my mind the whole day made me so restless. i never expected the decision to be easy to overcome, and i think i handled it the best i could. what made it more difficult was i had no one to speak my mind and made it less inviting when i’m constantly being criticized, teased or ignored. i feel like i’m taking this on alone and less willing to pour my heart out knowing i’m going to get insults. i don’t know how long i can take the punishment

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day 1096 – walk of life

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everybody’s walk of life is a little different, this is my night time walk. i’ll find my way that leads to the path that my heart desires. it’s been a day of a weird long weekend full of unexpected circumstances and sudden turn of events. one that gave me a lot of realizations and held a lot of hard truths. although it was a laid back day, i am still very tired and could use the extra rest. i’ll give my body a break since i am too sore to benefit from exercising

day 407 – long trek down

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it’s a gorgeous sunny and warm september day driving down here to see a specialist. the drive would have been much more pleasant if there werent a trail of twenty cop cars hogging up one lane and if i didn’t keep getting detoured. the pace of this city is definitely a lot slower and calmer, i could use a few of those days, but  that’s wishful thinking, rushed back to reality after the appointment