day 2274 – squat stance

working on the heavier squats after some hiatus. the past several weeks i kind of brushed it off because i either felt my legs were too fatigued or felt down from then injustice of my foot problems. it’s not like me to not feel like squatting or gyming in general, but life right now is just a struggle to stay afloat. no doubt the squats felt heavy, but i pushed through and expect to be sore waking up tomorrow. i’ll have to work extra hard to catch up with the programing

day 1498 – hiatus

having a hard time accepting the point it’s gotten to and where it’s headed. the hiatus must be changed because i feel it has regressed. i’m not going to settle for less because satisfactory just doesn’t cut it. when asked what i’m getting in return from all my sacrifices, i really couldn’t answer. now that i think about it, i’ve sacrificed myself too much without really much in return just because i let my limits be pushed. the accumulated frustration of neglected feelings and my well-being is tarting to show and i hate to think that i’m only called upon when i can be of benefit. i was warned that i’ll reach the point of snapping when i’m fed up with the one-sidedness