shaping 2018

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2017 was challenging that staggered between many emotions, some happy, some successful, some difficult, some burdensome and some heartbreaking moments. i was struck by my most depressing moments that resulted in bottling up emotions where self destruction happened. underneath the outer shell, was three hundred and sixty five days of constant battle that left many unseen scars. after this three hundred sixty five day battle, i came to realize i had ample growth: grew stronger, became braver, gained experience and expanded my knowledge. the struggles gave me a different perspective in life, the achievements gave me hope to to continue to climb. life is a journey defined by how well one copes after being knocked down. looking forward into the next twelve months, i’ll regroup and pull myself together to find my strong. i’m a fighter and won’t stop short of reaching my goal. as long as i stay strong, keep grinding and never settle for less than my full potential. life is about betterment and i’m committed to being the strongest version of myself

the latter part of 2017 wasn’t the best of days and was a true test of patience. the long drought, the fluctuating health, the seesawing emotions were all big obstacles, but i made sure all loose ends were closed. waving 2017 goodbye knowing 2018 has much more for me in store

  • get back healthy and stay as injury-free as possible
  • consistent training and eating with proper sleep
  • step up my game and take it to the next level
  • setting my priorities and boundaries
  • love myself for who i am, love my family, love my friends
  • stay focused towards advancement
  • attain more designations
  • save up for the numbers game
  • explore and travel the world
  • devote more time on what sets my heart on fire
  • step out of my comfort zone and expand my horizon
  • acknowledge being a workaholic but appreciate the little things

i’m ready to start 2018 off strong and be the stubborn goal digger that i am. just remember the best has yet to come

day 1614 – big cheers


time really does fly by quickly and another three hundred and sixty five posts later, it’s the eve again. as every year comes to an end, i make reflections but the difference is how i plan for the upcoming. 2017 had its challenges and the latter part was tough being involved in many unfortunate events.  here’s a toast to hoping for a good 2018 where my pretentious goals and big dreams come true. happy new year and stay true to yourself

day 1613 – underconstruction tradition 


the tradition of our annual secret santa exchange continues during one of our parties. the friendship we share is something special when we don’t need to see each other frequently, but still have the same affection for each other. after friendly hellos, shots start firing in all cylinders and the love hate relationship is revealed. when i’m with this crew, i’m as immature as i’ve always been like hamber days because some things just don’t change. we’re still missing chu in the picture but the plan is she’ll be physically in it next time

day 1612 – skills competition

at a new venue with new fun games but same old game. a little action to once and for all test the how the brokenness deals with the game of hockey. taking my holiday break easy for the most part. putting my body through tension and maximizing it before checking in to physio where he did good amount of work on my hand. normally he wouldn’t worry whether my pain tolerance would withstand his adjustments, but he was extra compassionate to me today. he knew the work done on my long tendered thumb was very hard on me, but i exercised full trust in him and let him do what he needs on me

day 1611 – get resourceful 


pouring rain, ailing thumb, not perfect vision and no ice permission isn’t going to stop me from going around to achieve. make do with the resources i have on hand is a skill i’m trying to perfect. used nothing fancy but what’s readily available in my garage to make my setup work for me. who said i couldn’t practice when i’m not yet allowed to have the physical physical activities. i’ll always try to look for loopholes; i’m an infamous bad patient and i know it

day 1610 – poke some

img_20200203_1429513128816583509973269.jpgi don’t know how i feel about needles anymore. at a follow up appointment in continuation of treatments of my broken thumb, i was shown the needle that was poked in me. to my amazement, some of the needles used on me were as large as my palm. he did some painful stuff to my thumb which neither felt like stabbing nor poking, but more like scrapping with the needle as if he was going to lit a match

day 1609 – unwrapping

this is the continuation of my christmas gifts unwrapping now that i’ve regained some of my vision. a restful three days makes the recovery go a lot faster. even at only at 20/40, i’m able to see enough to have the enjoyment of uwrapping. i either love unwrapping gifts or just the act of unwrapping. my first and second gifts kind of works hand in hand; i will be well caffeinated come the new year. can’t wait for my next ones to roll in

day 1608 – family feasting 

annual christmas day family feast where my mom serves the most delicious turkey in the world. the meal is delicious as usual but the quality time spent together is more precious with each passing one. i’m forever thankful to be able to spend christmas day with my family each and every year and i don’t want that to change. in the end, they go the distance to give me the best they can in every possible way. in reality, they deserve better than what i can provide them. nothing is worth sacrificing my family in any way: i’ll try my hardest to keep that close to heart as a reminder. christmas, after all, is spending time with your loved ones that will always be there

day 1607 – meds mishmash

a day after the procedure has me hooked on all types of medicine and drops. so many painkillers and eye drops prescribed i can’t keep track on which one is which and all seems to be the same. the limited screen time forces me to sleep and rest to make up for all the times that i don’t get enough. truth is, since the surgery, i’ve had more than all of december combined. truth is, this is probably the only time i’ll ever get enough sleep and the life gets back on a grind. this holiday season will start off slow but i’ve stacked my schedule for new years so the best has yet to come

day 1606 – photorefractive

didn’t end up having surgery done for my thumb back in october, but i certainly am having one done today. it took quite some courage to pull the trigger but prk finally done in the books. it’s a huge trigger and a huge change that i gladly braved, knowing it will be miserable during recovery stages. it involved a large sum, but i’m all in to making everything about my future brighter. rarely do i make clear cut decisions, but this one i made with confidence, for it will pay dividends in the long run