day 2525 – statutory lift

rarely do i have anything special on canada day. this year it’s even more boring than any other because of covid and the rainy weather. the highlight of my day was going into apex for a lift. i’m really happy to be trying snatches again and even happier that everything felt manageable. my knee does hurt when i stomp too hard or at lockout, but didn’t hinder me from getting into catching position. june was a really rough month for all things including injuries, lifting, tricking, family and people. i hope to put june behind me and start off july on the right foot

day 2523 – nothingness

i had a super frustrating training session at tricking and left the gym crying. i’ve been going at cart fronts and btwists for some time but there’s next to no progress to show for. the coach would point out that i’m doing things wrong, but no matter what i do, i can’t seem to do what the coach is telling me do so he’s also given up on me. as much as i want to slow down and work on the technique, i don’t know how it feels like to be right. i feel so hopeless that part of me thinks i should give up on it because i’ll never get it. i’m told to take a break and work on something else, but that’s happened for all my moves, and as it stands i’ve accomplished nothing

day 2516 – zoom meeting

i was just happy to be back training and almost forgot about my taekwondo zoom meeting in the evening. deadlifts in the morning garage session felt heavy, but one eighty five still felt minimally manageable. my knee is still in a great discomfort so being able to do any movement is already a win. i wonder if there’s still hope of making my two plate one rep max goal next week to salvage a completely disappointing june. i had to be very cautious with how my body felt at tricking, but being able to do any made me feel better and i have no regrets

day 2502 – surrendered

after a night of ankle disappointment, i still persisted to do the normal morning lift. it wasn’t the normal workload, but it was all that i could muster; did lighter deadlifts and changed up the squats for some overhead presses. it’s also the first time i took a step back and surrendered tricking class even though i wasn’t busy. it didn’t feel right missing my tricking routine, but it also felt right because my body needed to rest and reset. i thought it made more sense to sacrifice today’s class for a chance to have a stronger week

day 2494 – rocky times

the end of may has been a rather rocky stretch in a few aspects. i’m honestly not sure what to expect once june hits. the progress inside the garage gym has been really good many thanks to my lifting partner who encourages and spots me when necessary. i certainly hope it keeps going but i’m not sure if that’ll continue if he get busy. the tricking has been the sad part, because so many things have fallen apart this whole month. i don’t remember how to do a cartwheel and webster; it almost seems like i’m not in control of my own body. i need to be harsher on myself because i can’t keep letting it slide

day 2454 – stubborn knee

it’s hard to stay positive when i was all eager to train raiz into red, but i can’t carry out the drill because my knee simply can’t take the landing on the mat. it started to get inflamed after five attempts and i wasn’t even at a point where i was doing it right yet. i teared up a little getting overly flustered and frustrated. the stubborn me says i’m still going to do this drill no matter what because i’m determined to get this move

day 2438 – aerial breakthrough

sunday night private gym training was a strong and productive one. as usual, we started off with paddle kicking and footwork. then we developed a routine where we each took turns drilling the same one kick and one flip for five rounds before moving onto the next move. we did a couple sets of those before spending the last bit working through some of our freestyle form. i felt like my tricking aerial just came altogether today, my backside 9 also started coming back and i was able to combo those two together. i’m happy i started working on rapid 9’s which hopefully is soon to be cheat 9’s. i definitely deserved that alley bubble tea at the end

day 2435 – handstand practice

keeping a steady weekly routine of four workouts, three sprints and three tricking sessions. i’ve really enjoyed training with the crew – they’ve kept me motivated and accountable and i hope i do the same for them. from this, i’ve noticed constant improvements whether it’s my basic kicks, tricking, combos or tumbling. another night training with the private gym squad. i will continue to drill everything i’ve ever wanted and come out of this quarantine with newfound strength and skills

day 2428 – choreographing

everyday since being in quarantine, one of the things i look forward to is going into the gym to train. it’s good that we’re putting some initial choreography thoughts into action. i do, however, worry that my basics isn’t sound, my skill-set is limited, my technique is inconsistent and i’m not enough to match my partner. the last thing i want to do is disappoint my partner and coach. the only thing i can really promise and control is to work hard at solidifying what i need to hold my own

day 2418 – social distance

coronavirus emergency took another step suspending all non essential services until further notice. that means my chiropractor appointment this morning is cancelled. my lifting gyms are still open but that may also change any minute. even i don’t think i’ll risk going to steve nash or apex for the time being. good thing my tricking gym is still in operation or else i’ll have nothing to do. i really hope that doesn’t get too out of hand because i don’t think i can get used to this concept of social distancing