day 2287 – condo modeling

i was feeling pretty emo because i couldn’t go flip, couldn’t play hockey, couldn’t workout and couldn’t do anything sports related. i was suppose to go watch my team play their game, but i really couldn’t get myself to the rink just to sit on the sideline. missing all my games and trainings made me feel dead inside. i was bored so went ahead and modeled a dream unit with the picasso galleria floorplans. i really don’t have an entertaining life besides my sports and active lifestyle

day 2279 – foot issue

everything seemed fine during training and i even landed my handspring on floor midway through. two hours after the fact, my foot started having shooting pain. i’m beyond puzzled why my foot is in so much pain that i ended up at the emergency. the area below my ankle had a big hard bump that i described as bone-like. i went through the standard protocol and took xrays, left the hospital with the doctor diagnosing it as an achilles tendonitis. i had a chiro and physio take a look and both think it’s much more than that. i could no longer weight bear and had to resort to crutches to get around

day 2271 – out of reach

i once wrote this list of things i wanted to drill and moves that i want to have. it was something i needed to keep myself accountable while chasing these moves, but none of this is happening and not sure if i’ll ever be able to get back to drilling anything. honest to god, it’s really wearing on me and some days i cry myself to sleep knowing i may never be able to achieve any of these goals. i’m going to put up a fight, knowing so

day 2268 – sky fallen

it feels like the world just crashed on me. i wish my first instinct was incorrect, but i’m pretty certain i’ve just torn my other retinaculum during the battle. it was a bad judgment on my part – i shouldn’t have tried to sync the cartwheel back tuck and should just went for it on my own. now my everything is in jeopardy and i can’t help by think that my hopes and dreams of competing or even tricking in general could all be over. it hurts thinking not even reconstructive surgery can be a solution and all i can do is keep waiting and hope there’s a chance it will heal itself to a usable state. no one truly understands the physical pain i’m going through at the moment, and definitely don’t understand how much this hinders me in all the things i do and love doing. i just know i’m not ready to say goodbye to any of those things

day 2243 – new ubc

its my first day off for the compressed work schedule. i haven’t been back to ubc in years; the campus seemed so familiar yet unfamiliar. lots changed since my graduation but memories will stay forever. the appointment i waited to get with the sports medicine doctor since march was a disappointment and a total waste of my time. he delivered the worst news i could possibly get by telling there’s nothing he could do if now. he followed that up by saying had he seen me right after the injury, he would have suggested putting it in a boot to help the recovery. i was outraged when i heard that because i had been on the stupid waitlist for six months

day 2233 – flip talks

during the late night dinner with the crew, had a bit of a truth moment when the topic of competition came up. deep down i know i want to compete, but being removed from the competition field for quite some time is a big obstacle. i know for me to make a comeback, i put a lot of pressure on myself to only compete when i’m confident i can do well; i just want to ensure i’m at my best. but as of right now so many factors are standing in my way and instilling so many doubts. for one, my foot is a problem because it’s not letting me have my preferred techniques. i can’t work on my roundoff combos and i avoid kicking combos whenever possible

day 2197 – matching limes

driving was made difficult today when i can’t even do the shoulder check motion. i saw two matching lime green vehicles on the road as i was heading to my chiropractor appointment. it’ll definitely be a rest day after suffering a whiplash. apparently i’m not suppose to workout while experiencing antibiotic side effects. it’ll be a write off and i’ll take the time to catch up and prepare to start my intermittent fasting again