day 1501 – bone buldge

the bruising on this left foot is looking worse than hours before. i couldn’t put on skates today but that wouldn’t have mattered anyway as i’m way too sore from too much activities yesterday. maximal soreness results in minimal movements; my back ached, my calves tight, my hip flexor restricting, my foot and shin bruised and my si joint problems still persist. the soreness isn’t a big issue, it’s the persisting joint pain and abnormal bruising that worries me

day 1495 – rendering

still made it to work feeling unwell since i need to crank out renderings for client. adamant on my gym routines after work regardless. part of my workout came to a halt when i felt sharp pain in my hip. i rested a little and popped some painkillers before leaving the gym with limbs shaking. sharp pain hit me again mid way through a dodgeball game; my hip felt paralyzed for a second and i couldn’t bend over. i have yet to play a robot night without pain and never knew how much this car accident would impact my daily life and movement. but what hurts most going home wasn’t my hip but my heart. this time i can’t really brush it off and pretend i’m okay with it

day 1437 – blatt

who knew sour catch would be competing for blatt this playoff. it was a tough tier to be in and no surprise our playoff didn’t last long but maybe that’s not a bad thing because my shoulder is beyond wrecked when it doesn’t fully rotate. i do believe the team played the best we have all season; we laid it all out on the court and didn’t give an easy pass to either riceballz or pork. already looking forward to next season but first need to heal

day 1436- stim days

two years ago my knee was still going through the worst of it. being hooked up to machines and doing muscle stimulation multiple times a week was definitely a one of a kind experience. i cannot say it’s normal now, but it’s taken leaps and bounds considering where it once was. i’m wrecked today to the point where i could hardly lift my shoulder to manoeuvre a mouse. i’m sad and disgruntled but i’m reminded why i persevered through my knee problems all these years

day 1325 Рpunctured 

i looked down at my foot because i felt some pain, only to see red. i spent two hours hiding in the washroom trying to stop the bleeding because i didn’t want my parents to know. as i want for the bleeding to stop, doctor friends told me to go emergency room plus get my tetanus shot done soon. my mom later told me i had left a trail of bloodied footprints from the kitchen and up the stairs to my room. so i still need to play queen’s tomorrow and hoping that an insurmountable of gauze will cushion the wound and let me play

day 1319 – reassessed

i got my shoulder reassessed and that explained why my shoulder doesn’t rotate like it should. the numbness and tingling through my arm has worsened the past two years. i’m told if it’s not addressed, it will be very difficult to continue my tennis and dodgeball. through some cupping alternatives, there’s a bit of improvement in my shoulder orientation, but it’ll take a lot more to adapt and remain in its proper place

day 1302 – skinny latte

day three and i can walk without pain but the bigger question is can i kick, can i play, can i still compete?? there’s progress every day but my leg is still bothering me and stopping me from doing fun things. i’m not going to lie, but i was on the fence with skipping class. in the end i chose to go to school to be a good student and tried to be productive. caffeine intake was necessary so i can get through school