day 2174 – squinty park

a lifting session at apex before a softball double header. despite my back and neck not feeling normal, i still felt strong on front squats and lighter muscle snatches. not a fan of squint lake park because there’s so many mosquitoes around. even though i had bug spray on, i still go bit in the leg. hopefully i get to the bottom of this back and neck issue that’s causing so much discomfort becuade i’d hate to go through another week with so much unexplained back pain

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day 2170 – road less taken

the tears that rolled uncontrollably down my face was a direct reflection of how i felt inside. as much as i wanted to stop myself in front of people, i simply couldn’t stop the tears from coming down. so much stress has built up around work, taekwondo, people and health that my emotional and physical state are torn inside and outside. all my life i feel i’ve been cheated because i never had the privilege of having the health most people enjoy. still, i push through and train through all my injuries, overcoming one after another. this time is no different, but four months is too long to go through without having a proper diagnosis and method of treatment. no doubt i’m feeling frustrated from the hopelessness

day 2150 – tsujiri cravings

it was a not so productive first grass session for myself. i didn’t feel like i could do anything properly as both my ankles are going haywire. though i wish i could do more and get some good training, it was a fun grass session nonetheless. i still tossed frisbees, softballs and footballs around. a bunch of us hit up tsujiri to satisfy our matcha cravings. i mainly came for the matcha soft serve

day 2140 – scan report

my family doctor didn’t call me about the report, so i called her. it’s a good thing i did because my ultrasound report was overlooked. there happens to be some fluids found in my tendons which could very well mean the initial diagnosis is still valid. she was unable to explain much to me and didn’t know what to do, but referred me to a sports medicine doctor and suggested sports physiotherapy. today reminded me why i hate her nurses, they made a mistake in putting patients into the rooms and proceeded to blame me for going into the wrong room that they had led me into. i let them have an earful because i wasn’t about to take that blame

day 2119 – ankles ultrasound

it’s no surprise this step had to come after hurting it late february and it still severely limits me to this day. i went into downtown radiology to get some ultrasound done, but instead of doing just one, i tampered with the referral notice and added my right ankle scan as well. i’m not really sure what is the answer i would like to hear, but an answer would be great to solve this annoying mystery

2099 – softball season

i was unable to attend softball opening weekend so espr season kicks off for me with a double header. i got reacquainted at first base which is the position i’ll probably play at most of the season. the swing is a little off after eight month off season. i only managed to get on base three of the six at bats. i took a hard ball to the shin early in the second double header which got me limping. i didn’t need to unroll my high socks during the game because i already saw a big bump forming. when i got home, i checked the damage but made the executive decision i didn’t need to get it examined further

day 2072 – skinny

a look back to when i was at my leanest and also have two happy ankles. at that point, i was eating well and exercising optimally while on properly working ankles. i liked it back then when i was at my lowest body fat percentage with a four pack, while being able to do eleven consecutive pullups. i’m not liking where i am at now; i’m sure the stresses at work and injury troubles plays a big factor. let the cutting phase begin to get back to the best shape i’ve ever been. the time is now to stay focused on my goals and disciplined on how i’m going to get there