day 1602 – cleaning up

the day has come for i tried my first in a long time and it brought so much joy to my heart. what a great feeling it was to be able to power clean without any pain in the thumb, though not without some adjustments to protect it. though i must say that’s no indication my thumb is healed and ready for other things. it’s simply bettered to take on some vibrations as opposed to alarming spasms the last time i tried. it’s good to see my technique is still there. as i slowly make my way back to my routine work, i have no doubt my routine play will come back to me soon. it’s been much longer than anticipated, but soon i’ll be able to proudly stand tall for what i went through was nothing most people can compare to


day 1594 – new bar

i forgot to set my alarm but my body clock works well enough to wake me up at half past six so i was minimally late for work. there are days i just need to keep plug in the headphones and keep going and going; hopping from work on top of work. start off the week strong with lifting and be the first to use this newly unboxed olympic bar. getting back into my routines has sure left me sore for days and i can’t wait do it all over again to be sore for days again

day 1588 – gymery

though not cleared for most activities i do, the surgeon has given me the okay to be here. my gear was ready and my bag was packed while i waited for his signal. it’s the first time in over two months i could legitmately be here in my happy place doing the happy things. a stupid setback happened due to my impatience and inability to stay put. i thought i was okay, i wanted to be okay, but only after exerting it did i find out it was still premature


day 1485 – casual pr

my hand still hurt like a beep but going in cold for my second try at my normal monday workout. my crippled hand is still painful to open and close, meaning no deads today but still got to finish the squat portion. i went in just wanting to lift something without judgement, but instead casually matching my post rehab record weight for four, which is upped from last week

day 1405 – rendering

still made it to work feeling unwell since i need to crank out renderings for client. adamant on my gym routines after work regardless. part of my workout came to a halt when i felt sharp pain in my hip. i rested a little and popped some painkillers before leaving the gym with limbs shaking. sharp pain hit me again mid way through a dodgeball game; my hip felt paralyzed for a second and i couldn’t bend over. i have yet to play a robot night without pain and never knew how much this car accident would impact my daily life and movement. but what hurts most going home wasn’t my hip but my heart. this time i can’t really brush it off and pretend i’m okay with it

day 1402 – going for it

i most certainly don’t make the best choices when it comes to precautionary circumstances, but i went for it anyways. i’m stoked that i just went triple digit and made my bench pr. benching has always been my weakest major lift; for that reason, i avoid it. i’m told that with my athleticism, i should be able to bench at least my bodyweight; i sneered every time i’m told because i know that’s too much to ask of me. after today, my goal towards bodyweight may not be unachievable after all. thanks for always reminding me it’s a must – you had more belief in me than i ever had

day 1401 – feeding off 

after a stressful mental battle with stacy garcia deadline for eight hours, my mind was drained. a quick visit to chiro with steady recovery for my back and ribs, but bad news for my hip. it was humbling when a power lifter i frequently see and viewed from afar came to introduce herself. i look on as she’s feeding off his encouragements as she goes. what i didn’t know was as i’m impressed with the amount of weight she pushed, she is equally impressed with my coordination and balance as i did my olympic lifts and pistols