day 1502 Рautopilot 

no more autopilot moving forward because i’ve had enough of dormancy. some ballsy bold moves were required to make this happen; laying down a few protocols and making a few adjustments. i don’t like the way things are going and it’s about time i raise the bar for myself. i’m still struggling with pain in too many parts of my body but i’m taking painkillers everyday just so it gives me a chance to step it up. the harder it hurts, the more frustrated i get so the more i push. maybe that’s why its having snowballing effect 

day 1496 Рfielding 

it’s a dry day, so out with the old peeling mitt and in with the new mizunos. our lineup was smaller than usual but we managed. playing rover again today but it’ll be my first time batting third. softball game made my day better when playing with a good group who’s there to help and listen. i’ve had better days; but cracking balls, venting and getting my hip checked out helped indeed. chiro said due to my active level, my body will cycle through progression and regression. sharp pain will happen but he knows it won’t stop me so didn’t even try, but he reassured me he’ll get me back to my good state

day 1474 – dr seuss

taking a page out of dr seuss to motivate myself on this rain-filled monday. it’s always hard to wake up on monday and only harder when my back and neck are not at par and now even my elbow is in damaged. my elbow is swollen and in pain, but i’m in denial that is more than a bad bruise. i’ll wait for my chiropractor’s judgement before deciding if i need further scans. i can’t picture what life would be like if it came back positive

day 1467 Рbirthday smoothie 

had another visit to the chiropractor office to treat my ribs. very little range of motion and a lot of discomfort throughout the whole work day, but some it calmed down after getting adjusted. sipping on my birthday smoothie helps make up for some of the pain i’m experiencing. i know chiro wanted to say no but he saw that i was adamant on playing dodgeball and gave me a cautious okay sign. i just really wanted to play even though i knew it would hurt 

day 1439 – rebuilding

the plate seems a lot heavier than weeks ago. my body still feels so out of sync from neck down after the accident. the many recent mishaps caused so many disruptions to my progress which is making me more impatient day after day. i’m still trying to rebuild but that won’t happen unless my body is recalibrated and it doesn’t help when i can’t seem to fall asleep and stay asleep at night

day 1436- stim days

two years ago my knee was still going through the worst of it. being hooked up to machines and doing muscle stimulation multiple times a week was definitely a one of a kind experience. i cannot say it’s normal now, but it’s taken leaps and bounds considering where it once was. i’m wrecked today to the point where i could hardly lift my shoulder to manoeuvre a mouse. i’m sad and disgruntled but i’m reminded why i persevered through my knee problems all these years

day 1300 – less sensation

it was a bad ending to a monday night aggravating my hip at dodgeball shortly after having pulled it at taekwondo. i went home the whole way not having sensation in my right leg from my hip down; not a feeling i’ve ever felt. my night has been rounds of ice, heat and patch repeat. i can’t get my mind off two things: what happens with my competition and can i play my games this week. i’m doing lots to make it go away