day 1678 – gymery

although i’m not cleared for most activities i do, the surgeon has given me the okay to be here. my gear was ready, my bag was packed while i waited for his signal. it’s the first time in over two months i could legitimately be here in my happy place doing the happy things. a stupid setback happened due to my impatience and inability to stay away. i thought i was okay, i wanted to be okay, but later found out it was still premature

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day 1633 – muggy days


a whole week of wet and muggy weather further dampens my already bad mood at the moment. day fourteen of being in a splint and i can’t help but feel very depressed that i can’t do seemingly basic things. others just see me as being grumpy; it’s hard for anyone to understand what it means to me to be on the sideline missing out what i love doing. i’m doing everything to the best of my abilities, and that makes people forget how much pain and inconvenience i’m in. the countdown continues, but the thought of taking the risk is always on my mind

day 1619 – shattered thumb 

a blocked shot did all the damage. took it directly off my thumb and immediately confident it was broken but kept playing since there’s no confirmation. i couldn’t put my bottom hand on the stick, but i continued onward and eventually put one into the net. although netting the goal should not be my main focus now, it was definitely the saving grace of the game ending injury. i tend to downplay the pain so the pain cannot be seen through me. two hospitals and four hours later, the hand specialist decided i can have a splint without immediate surgery. i’m more disappointed of the length i’ll be out and not the pain or discomfort that comes with

day 1617 – iced knee

bounced off the floor hard when i dropped down too quickly to the floor. my chiro was on site but there was nothing he could have done for me there. there’s no taking it easy and i hate sitting out.  the damage is already done so i might as well continue playing through it; finished the night and immediately slapped an ice pack on it to stop the swelling. despite bruising up bad, it’s always a fun night playing with the girls. i am a little doubtful to be healthy for saturday night’s rivalry

day 1610 – growlers 

i had no handle on what damages could happen today, but i have three appointments lined up. honestly think i make terrible decisions but i really wanted to play dodgeball after sitting out for an extra ten days. it’s taped up to the point where almost no skin on my hand is visible, yet it still hurts to grip the ball, catch the ball, throw the ball. i came out not thrilled expecting more, but at least playing today didn’t make it much worse

day 1600 – hand pain

it’s back to square one. after my making my first catch of the dodgeball night, my hand was in excruciating pain and could no longer grip a ball properly. being me, i thought that if i taped it would allow me to play; if i taped more i could continue; and if i tape enough to make it immobile, i could finish the night. i finished the night, but once the last game was over, i realized i no longer have a functional hand. it does open nor close, it doesn’t hold a fork, nor a steering wheel; it basically doesn’t function for my basic needs

day 1595 – physio revisited 

getting my hand checked out gives everyone a peace of mind, but knowing it’s more serious than i thought isn’t what i wanted. he was not surprised of another new injury plus my preexisting list of injured body parts. to my physio’s dismay, he told me not one, not two, but three tendons were sprained. i guess the pain i felt was real but forcing it very hard wishfully thinking the pain isn’t real. having high pain tolerance is good but it does come back to bite me. also got my knee and hip adjusted as per usual and wasn’t expecting my knee cap to be out as well. aside from my knee, he was quite happy with the shape i was in