day 1445 – midjump

powering through easter sunday with some power cleaning. i had to stop my jumps as i heard something in my tailbone midway through a jump. i hope a combination of heat pad, ice pack and advil will alleviate some discomfort because that’s the last thing i need to take with me on vacation. i did a terrible thing to my parents and feel the guilty that i really owe it to my parents. i’ll make note to never let that happen again 

day 1339 – lift myself

this week has been real rough fighting so much distractions. made it to the end of the work week and lucky to be still in one piece. the take back for this week is how to be one of the pillar for my family when called upon. many things have been limited if not put on hold; i haven’t been to the gym as often as i usually do. many things have backtracked and dropped much strength but good to know i still can pick up myself, literally

day 1334 – powering up

hitting the gym one more time this weekend for good measures. power cleans never felt the same ever since my chest took the bar three months ago and i’ve stayed away from big weights cause i was scared. wanted to work on the mechanics of my cleans to dust off the rust and regain confidence. just slowly working my way back but who knew i’d be pr’ing on my third time since the long layoff. i was more than stoked because it was a huge barrier for me

day 1332 – new pumps

the major delay is over as i decided it’s finally time to pull out the new pumps. they felt amazing from the get go and required no breaking in. doing the same program but only everything seemed so much harder after taking a whole month break. it was a battle, but the satisfaction of grinding through the workout and getting my squats done overpowers. i must say i missed those lifts and glad to be cleaning again. hopefully the pumps will spark my comeback and get me back on track 

day 1290 – sums it up 

this pretty much sums up how i’m feeling about myself and my life lately. i can’t seem to get my stuff together and time after after i disappoint myself. got to the lowest point in a quite some time and i am in disbelief when i found out. i definitely feel undeserving of some basic privileges. the long weekend comes timely because i can take this time to regroup and find something new. i better get it together in a hurry or else it might turn out to be self harming

day 1285 – badbell hog

it seems everyone is busy with super bowl sunday so there’s no meatheads to be seen. i had the whole cage to myself so i carried out my work using a pair of barbells. i decided my big weights for leg must go on after power skating, so even though skating session today was a tougher one than all previous times, i couldn’t change my mind. i knew i made a mistake of deciding to go straight into that workout, but i don’t regret one bit of having completed it as planned. it was heavy on my shoulders and my legs still feel the burn as i lay in bed, but the fact i pushed through is satisfying 

day 1272 – monday eye bags

monday work went by so slow after only catching four hours and thirteen of snooze time. i didn’t even bother it contacts this morning because my eyes were so tired. when work finally came to an end, i happily dragged my butt to the gym for my monday routine working out before sour catch kids games. noticing i’m adapting better to the program with each successive workout