day 1520 –  squat hard 

i was definitely frustrated waking up because i stayed up working on payroll and i woke up with another email of explanations. work in the afternoon dragged on and i longed to get out. i didn’t feel particularly good during my workout today and felt weaker than other days. schedule just haven’t had time to hit up the gym. not having done so all week long is really showing in my squats but i still hit it hard knowing i’ll feel it even harder the next day

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day 1519 – cherry imports

i’m happy but not surprised when i saw giant boxes in my kitchen. this is the time of the year when my dad orders ten pounds of cherries from coworker who owns a farm in okanagan. normally i would eat cherries as meal replacements, but it as big and sweet as other years since the peak season is delayed this year. it will get finished nonetheless and then he’ll order another batch

day 1518 – render frenzy 

speed testing coworker’s crazy ten thousand dollar computer towers with some sketchup vray renders while he’s on vacation. this forty eight cpu tower is a monster compared to my eight cpu. i’ll be mulling around his workstation and putting those extra cpus to good use before he’s back. with this, there’s hope i’ll be able to finish the renders stacy garcia wanted

day 1517 – on the diamond

back on the diamond after skipping the last two games for meetings. the hardest adjustment is getting my timing and reading the pitch. my first two at bats were terrible, but i finally calibrated to finished the game with two base hits. there were couple weird series of events that ended up in a double play, but the ump was on top of it.  we got blown out but had a good rally in the sixth and final inning

day 1516 – forest blue xz

had been very good with my spendings lately so thought the timing was right to splurge and give myself a late birthday present by adding an xz to my sony collection. wanted to buy this many months ago, stayed patient for my phone case to arrive and the price to drop a bit. then waited some more for the one plus five release, but still set on my forest blue xz. setting up the phone just the way i like it will take some time.

day 1515 – waterworks

when was the last time i smiled from the heart?? please take me back in time and erase the nightmare i’ve been trapped in. there’s just no smiling today; not even the fakest. the only thing i did was cry as it continuously and uncontrollably roll down. my eyes were like waterfall no matter how hard i tried not to think. my eyes are tired, my mind is tired and so is my heart. the uncertainties of what i should do is far from over. i can’t imagine going to work tomorrow and anything acting like myself 

day 1514 – bruise much 

fresh bruises on my arm after taking a pregame collision and another bodycheck at my saturday night hockey games. this might be the only chance for my left arm to be buffer than my right. my arm is not looking too good but my foot is in much worse condition. the additional bone growth in my heel looks like a tumour and is getting so bad it even hurts to wear regular shoes. i need to get this checked out and fixed before it becomes something of a much bigger and permanent problem