day 2104 – flex day

took a flex day in anticipation that i’d be exhausted from a weekend of activities and i couldn’t be more correct. there was no way i would’ve been able to wake up at 6am for work. i slept in until 11am, and half the day was gone before i knew it. i really should be cleaning up, doing laundry and preparing food, but i mulled around and finished off my drama series. i went to flip and stayed until late despite my leg and ankle being crazily bruised up. good luck waking up for work tomorrow morning

day 1875 – treadmill intervals

spent my off day from flipping for a rare cardio moment because i simply can’t find a way to appreciate it. i don’t think i’ve been on a treadmill for more than five minutes since i last did the sunrun. by the end of it, i was dropping with sweat. my lower body is so taxed from my regular activities i need not to do more leg work even more on my off days. the rest of the time was for core, stretching and rolling

day 1778 – handspring 

it was a rough day with so much fluttering through my mind and possibly a big decision oncoming. i few messages sent my way in the morning almost made me explode. i didn’t feel like going to flip after work, but i did anyway. wasn’t too bad with my first cracked at combos and crash course on front handsprings. i was, however, terrible at back tucks and didn’t bother doing anymore than three before i called it a day. i went home feeling quite disappointed and down. it’s just one of those off days that wasn’t meant to be, but i’ll come back clean and try again next time

day 1686 – skate tongue 

playing for the first time with my skate tongue in and i kind of like how the skate is more snug on me. the order of putting on gear will have to be slightly altered but that’s something to get used to. not feeling great after a barely catching any sleep, but still had to push for a rushed deadline today. took a nap alongside some tylenol and even then just wasn’t quite enough to be in game shape. my reaction and timing was off, but i did play a well defensive game covering for centres and coming back for odd man rushes. tempted to take a little time off work if possible; a little rest would be nice for my current tired soul

day 874 – box jump

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decided on a chill gym session on my off training day, but reality is, i shouldn’t have any off days anyways. all this holiday splurge of food is doing me all bad and no good. my latest targets has me working on my vertical just so i can take my pursuits to the next level. i didn’t make this height today but i know pretty soon this will be mine. i am just feeling ambitious and taking on new goals and new challenges heading into the new year

face it

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after getting some unexpected news on unreasonable competition policy and feeling rather disheartened, i have really let it slip and fallen off the tracks completely. at a point where i am getting the feeling i am on the verge of giving up and hanging it up because it no longer satisfies me the way it used to. maybe i am feeling the pressure of all the expectations and i worry i won’t live up to it. or it could be the preposterous conditions and requirements the school is imposing that’s making me feel like they are denying our opportunities to grow and improve. it scares me to have the feeling that the competition doesn’t mean as much to me anymore because my interest doesn’t lie within the provinicial level. i don’t want to lose sight of the intended goals and give up on the things i have been striving for all this time because i am not ready to let it end. given the circumstances and the time constraints i have to work with, i can’t afford to have any off days that will ultimately put me two steps back each time. really needing a little push to get back in the groove, because it’s coming up so soon and time is a pressing issue. it’s a challenge i will have to face and push through the mind block no matter how much i disagree with their decision

day 221 – cheat day

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the savoury fries and curdiness of the cheese tasted so good while i was eating it but feeling extremely guilty after having devoured that. told myself i must keep a healthy diet so will have to avoid fast food from diet for a while, mcdonalds,wendys and timmys see you not so soon and do not tempt me