day 2373 – rutted

i’ve had far too many nose blows the past few months. the amount of times i stay awake being sad and discouraged far exceeds the times i not. i’m so tired of it; the feeling of quitting happens every other day. i’m not okay being neglected, left alone to fail and self destruct while some get the full on instructions. it hurts me that i show up to classes and open gyms ready to learn, ready to land my next move, but i’m clearly not their priority because they’ve got their ‘pokemon’ to train. i don’t deserve this and it hurts me so much inside more than words can explain

day 2372 – work it out

felt lazy today but still dragged my butt to the gym because i needed this last check in to qualify for my january contest. good thing i did because i needed to move around and burn some extra calories. i did two things out of the ordinary. one, i forced myself to do ten minutes of cardio. two, i did not lay my hands on the barbell at all. instead, i followed up with ankle and shoulder rehab exercises like single leg balance, calf raises, bosu ball balance, heiden jumps, rows, cable pulls

day 2371 – sunroof motor

the mechanic returned my car with the body fixed as good as new, but told me my sunroof motor is broken. the replacement part alone from bmw will cost almost nine hundred dollars, but i’m going with the used motor route. i get my car back while waiting for the part to be shipped over. even though i don’t plan on keeping this car for too much longer, i still need to fix it to get a better selling price

day 2370 – antsy cleans

a fun gym session joined by two friends. i last olympic lifted three weeks ago because of pec strain. i was scared but i wanted to see if i was able to do light cleans without shoulder pain. i started with sixty five pounds but somehow felt okay and worked it all the way to one plate. i probably could have done one forty, but wasn’t going to risk it. we ended with some box jumps and i’m happy to report i jumped a thirty nine inch box which basically matches my personal best. now i feel a little more motivated knowing my ankle can get back into things. my previous goal was to hit a forty inch box jump, but i think a forty two may be a goal down the road

day 2369 – federer comeback

it was pretty hard to watch this match as it wore on; probably one of the hardest federer matches i’ve ever watch him play. i could see federer’s movements are compromised and i know he was feeling lots of discomfort but still playing relentlessly until the end. his amazing efforts coming back to win a five setter. i would sacrifice my sleep any day to watch his play. it was the first time i went live on instagram so a friend without cable could watch the end of the match

day 2368 – beast kettlebells

what brentwood location needs is not one hundred and twenty one pound kettlebells, but simply ten pound bumper plates. in fact, they need to replace to whole set of bumper plates because it’s either nonexistent, missing, cracked or completely broken. i worked on heavy paused squats today and the weight didn’t feel like it was going to crush me. the same older gentleman i usually see there complimented on my squat form, gave me a few pointers hoping i could load the bar another ten pounds, and also tried to teach me how to low bar squat

day 2367 – rude encounter

first day of the year of the rat was a hectic one at taekwondo. having been an instructor for the past decade, i’ve always kept my composure and stayed collected no matter how unreasonable the situation. today, parents of two separate occasion were so rude that i didn’t even bother holding back my words. my branch welcomes anyone, of any age or circumstance, as long as they have the willingness to learn and try. no one disrespects me, my branch or the art of taekwondo deserves to stay. i’m not about quantity of students but more so the quality. the branch i run doesn’t sell blackbelts; one must earn it through diligence of hardwork

day 2366 – what work

work really feels like a drag in the recent days. i have an overflowing amount of tasks and deadlines but none of it is giving me much excitement or motivation. maybe it has to do with the lack of appreciation for what i do as well as the amount of additional tasks i’m assigned to that’s unrelated to my job description. thank goodness it’s finally friday so i won’t have to be in this office the next two days. i looked forward to the week’s end even though i have to work on saturday anyway

day 2365 – sunroof motor

i got a courtesy car from my autobody shop so they could fix both my hit and run, and the malfunctioning sunroof. the mechanic took my sunroof apart and found that my motor had snapped. i’m hoping they can source out a second hand motor so it would cost me over a grand. in the meantime, i’m driving a downgraded corolla around which feels way different than shadow

day 2364 – phone hijacked

whipped out my phone to film how my current back tucks look like. i left my phone for a bit and so many of these photos appeared in my album. my back tucks are looking more ‘complete’; it certainly evolved a lot since the first ones. the confidence and consistency has improved tremendously and the landing is a slightly softer and more controlled. i’m still working on my set to get more height in this flip so i can have an even softer landing which would be easier on my ankles