day 1127 – post rolling

img_20200203_1330523310199490436145819.jpgwrapping up august with a satisfying workout and some intense rolling. the month has flown by so fast and today’s weather tells me summer season won’t last. reflecting on the month, i have made plenty of progress both physically and mentally, and in turn grown as a person. i have a lot to be thankful for, those who didn’t give up on me. i found that if i put my mind to something, i surprise myself and don’t always lose to my own expectations. the self realizations doesn’t end here, it’s only the beginning. stay tuned for the months to come on my journey to finding myself

day 1104 – catching on

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monday workout consisted of a lot of barbell and practicing my technique. continuing to put work in; snatching with better coordination and form today, but must remain patient with these lifts and make sure i break all the bad habits. i am a big believer in staying reserved because good technique goes a long way. finished off the night with a softball game. i can’t tell if things hurt, are tired or sore, but it’s not a bad way to start off the week

day 1094 – recondition

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getting up is what happens after falling down. restarting today is the best choice because focusing on my journey and devoting more time on myself is vital to a healthier and happier me. going into the gym and lifting usually makes my day better. today was no different as i surprisingly upped my deadlift numbers. i learned that i can’t do everything alone; sometimes opening up and turning to others helps me better manage my stress. my journey is not going to be easy, but i look forward to improving and picking up a few new things every step of the way

day 925 – aussie souvenir

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happy to have a dear friend that’s so encouraging from the very beginning. even happier when he brought back an australian souvenir and said i fully earned it because i accomplished what i had set out to do. still have a long way to go but told myself that each and every time will only get better. i am going to keep this thermos in mint condition and let my tennis collection grow

day 883 – downtown countdown

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spending the last of 2015 near canada place enjoying beautiful holiday lights before some highly anticipated midnight fireworks. the night was so cold, two brisk walks along the seawall was more than enough to get us frozen head to toe. 2015 was good for the most part, but i know that 2016 will be the best year yet. ready to take on bigger challenges that will get me past levels i have come far too comfortable at staying within

stay the course

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it’s been an atrocious week for me. ever since dodgeball playoffs ended last saturday, my world has turned upside down. a visit to emergency room on sunday morning didn’t give me the slightest idea of my finger injury status. i haven’t got a clue what was going on, what my path looks like, or what i should do. my biggest fear is the severity will keep me from training for what quite possibly is my one and only chance. i was really worried because i am already feeling pressed for time because there isn’t an abundant of time remaining and there’s a lot of training and learning needed to be done. this competition is one that i have been really looking forward to, so i would be more than disappointed if i cannot compete. but at the same time, knowing i will not risk entering the competition if i know i am not prepared to give myself the best chance possible. i was beyond stressed out because i couldn’t even tell my loved ones the truth of what happened and what was going on in my head. i was forced to really downplay the whole situation and acted like nothing is wrong when truth is everything was clearly not right. i spent the next four days really battling myself and everything else, and at some point it got so low i felt like i was a wreck. thankfully i am surrounded by people willing and ready to help. i knew i couldn’t continue to let everything get out of hand; i needed to pick myself off the ground and regroup because no matter what tomorrow holds, i needed to fix my finger. an acupuncture treatment was a good start to reduce the swelling and increase the mobility. a date to see my physio really put me at ease cause i trust him more than many, so when he says he’s almost certain there’s no fracture, i believe him. slowly but surely, it’s making progress and it’s looking a lot like my hopes for competition is still alive

day 746 – morning session

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good morning, waking up early for a morning session to start off my saturday right. morning gym seshs are tougher than the usual, clearly, i am not a morning gym person. doing everything i can possibly do, under my control, to steer the ship in the right direction. learning to stay patient and shoot for long term progress over short term goals. i know that i am taking tiny steps forward and making progress everyday, and only time will tell. i am trying my best, i will get there when i am meant to get there. in the meantime, i will continue to breathe and chug on

day 642 – day of birth

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today the calendar says that i turn another year older, but i don’t feel much different and certainly don’t feel much wiser. celebrating my special day with the family, the people that will put up with me and will always be there for me no matter what happens. time sure flies by quicker as i get older, but i don’t want to grow up just yet because there’s too much waiting for me to explore. i am truly blessed to have every one of you supporters out there being patient with me and not giving up on me. i can only promise i will make my very best effort to work towards my goals to be a better me. it would have been a more enjoyable celebration if i wasn’t sick on the day of my birth

louder than words

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i am beginning to fully understand what nike means when they say just do it. as my birthday approaches and soon i turn another year older, it’s one of those reflective moments where i look back and think of what i need to improve upon. all this time, there are many things i want to do and need to do but couldn’t do. in the past, i have put a lot of emphasis in thinking and planning for it but very seldom have i followed through with actions. it certainly took a lot longer than i would have liked but it’s never too late to understand; and i can’t be more happy to feel that things are starting to click inside my mind. knowing so, my mind and body must work together in order to make things happen and make changes towards my goals. it is time to search from within and find that power to will myself to put words into action. learning to take one thing at a time. actions speak louder than words so just go out there and prove it

day 631 – quest continues

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going about my usual routine, not much has changed and i mean it in a disappointing way. i am beginning to understand what it is i am lacking which is the all important piece to my puzzle. i just haven’t found the integral quality to get over some hurdles that keeps coming into play. until i find it, i will be on the same quest to find that missing element and hopefully everything click soon enough