day 2383 – orthopedic clinic

for the first time in my life, and of my fifteen years of physio life, i’m seeking assistance from a different clinic. the physio i’ve grown up with doesn’t seem to have a solution or rehab program for my ankle. i left the first consultation with mixed feelings. it didn’t sound promising when the physio first read through my report. he said it was very rare that someone could rupture the most important stabilizing ligament like this. after seeing me go through a series of exercises, he said i look very much functional; so there’s hope i’d return to good capacity to pursue my competition dreams. i’ll trust what he has in store for me when get me back in the game

day 2372 – work it out

felt lazy today but still dragged my butt to the gym because i needed this last check in to qualify for my january contest. good thing i did because i needed to move around and burn some extra calories. i did two things out of the ordinary. one, i forced myself to do ten minutes of cardio. two, i did not lay my hands on the barbell at all. instead, i followed up with ankle and shoulder rehab exercises like single leg balance, calf raises, bosu ball balance, heiden jumps, rows, cable pulls

day 2362 – tricks and kicks

i’ve, for the longest time, avoided training kicks at tricking because i’m really scared to find out i won’t be able to kick ever again. ever since i found out the real truth about my ankle, i’ve been really down just thinking how much that will affect all the things i love to do. i’ve since learnt that i will still be able to train certain things back if i rehab it properly. i want to make it a priority to rehab properly and train kicks because it’s quite unacceptable if i don’t have some kicks. i started with cheat 720 and backside 900 tonight and i’ll keep drilling it until i get them

optimizing 2020

2019 presented me with some of the biggest and scariest obstacles thus far. i am relieved this difficult year is drawing to a close and can now look forward to the turn of the decade. what i had endured this year far exceeds anything i could’ve imagined. my world changed drastically since the thudding landing of a roundoff back tuck attempt that went undetected. it was confirmed nine months later that it was a fully ruptured ankle ligament and the future of my many hobbies are on the line. though operating far below one hundred percent, i did manage some accomplishments that made me proud. i picked up one of my old hobbies at the start of the year – olympic weightlifting. from struggling to snatch twenty-eight kilos when i first started training at apex, to ending the year strong with a personal record of forty five kilos. just as i thought i was done with all my taekwondo tests, i somehow got persuaded and tested for my fourth dan. it was rather a risky thing to do given my ankle condition, but of course it wasn’t something i told many about. one bright spot in tricking was getting comfortable with my back tucks, and even tried two different variations. frankly speaking, i’m disappointed with the lack of progress in my other moves and scared to find out if i can even kick. i have at some point considered quitting if one of the three new moves doesn’t happen within a given deadline. there was no shortage of injuries throughout this calendar year which also affected taekwondo, hockey, dodgeball, softball and tennis. my skillset at work has had notable growth, but not to be overshadowed by the stressed that comes with it simply because of the toxic people. removing the toxicity has led me to grow my friends circle within other departments

with the new decade approaching, there’s really no place for injuries in 2020; i’m going to try my hardest to deal with the ankle problem while staying as healthy as i possibly can. i expect to get my fitness back and work my hardest to grind through whatever it takes to be the best version of myself. the next three hundred and sixty five days will be all about bigger goals, greater happiness, less pain, stronger relationships and being more focused for everything i’ve ever wanted

  • stay healthy and injury-free #gethealthystayhealthy
  • training consistency #fitgoals
  • eat well #eatsmart
  • accept myself for who i am #selfcare
  • love my family #familymatters
  • reconnect with friends #friendscircle
  • relationship goals #relationship goals
  • finance and budgeting #budgetlife
  • travel the world #roamtheplanet
  • career advancement #careerdevelopment
  • setting my priorities #prioritiesincheck
  • new skills and new knowledge #foreverlearning

2020 is my year to conquer and i’m going to become the strongest version of myself

day 2314 – tucking it

feeling gutsy and antsy with the flips and couldn’t hold myself down any longer. it’s hard to describe the feeling i had when i realize even after all that happened to me, i just did a back tuck by myself. sure, the technique is not as good as my prime days, but at least i can still do them unspotted. best of all, i didn’t experience any pain in my ankles. i think i still want to to train through my ankle woes, but train smart so i’m still able to condition it regardless if i go under the knife or not

day 2312 – level up box

when i tried to test my ankle with light box jumps two weeks ago, i had ample of problems jumping into an eighteen inch box. flash forward two weeks later, i’ve leveled up and can comfortably jump onto a twenty four inch. although it’s nowhere near the thirty nine i had back then, i’ll take this as a big step because anything forward is never granted given the situation i’m in. i can’t really tell if i’m doing rehab or preparing myself for prehab

day 2072 – skinny

img_20200124_1337537582007002541905786.jpga look back to when i was at my leanest and also have two happy ankles. at that point, i was eating well and exercising optimally while on properly working ankles. i liked it back then when i was at my lowest body fat percentage with a four pack, while being able to do eleven consecutive pullups. i’m not liking where i am at now; i’m sure the stresses at work and injury troubles plays a big factor. let the cutting phase begin to get back to the best shape i’ve ever been. the time is now to stay focused on my goals and disciplined on how i’m going to get there