day 1558 – me menu

called everything off and put myself and only myself on today’s menu cause i need time alone to set my priorities straight. absolutely no work related tasks today – no work for the first time in sixteen days. i was going down the wrong path of cramming work in to avoid idle time which in turn has even more negative effect on my mental health. can’t say i’m not a workaholic but then realized i was more burnt out than ever. so first time sleeping in until eight, helped my parents moved furniture, went for a workout and cleaned my room. that is not to say i don’t see the relationship struggles, but we’ll both be working on it together. i do feel better thinking i’ve reset my priorities and reorganized my life for the upcoming week

day 1238 – physio fix

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i needed this physio visit badly enough to call for an emergency appointment. my chest and back was feeling slightly improved upon waking up but still much too impaired. when physio pressed against my ribs and collar bone, i was in a lot of discomfort and couldn’t grasp for air. i know i still need more rest; i’ll take it day by day and feel optimistic that this will get better soon. for all the years he’s treated me, he still shakes his head at me and occasionally scolds me, but is never surprised with what kind of injuries i put up with

30 share it [ten]

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back at home with a hot shower and just chilling with the need to do some reflection. thanks to chiropractor on site for putting my two ribs back into place so i can play my games today. i wasn’t hallucinating nor exaggerating when i complained my back and neck was out but of course i can only say so much before i realize it’s pointless. i’ve decided on a few things so i don’t get unnecessarily hurt

day 1192 – fizz see oh

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getting my maintenance work in for my beat up body so i can continue to beat up my body. i like to be active and i will continue to be for as long as i can. physio did mention he was very pleased with how well i held up for as long as i have been away. it’s also nice to hear from others that they’ve noticed my improvement and acknowledge what i can do; that’s a compliment i’ll gladly take. i’m here because you inspired and challenged me to be, but i’ll never be satisfied with myself because i know i can always be better

day 1191 – shroom burger

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in front of me was the eastside craft house mushroom swiss burger because mo refused to let me order the double chicken patty burger; this pig says i always waste food because i can’t finish it. i’ve struggled a lot with eating over the past year; over the past months i’ve tried really hard to fix it and it’s showing signs of being normal now. fixing process and long and arduous, let’s hope i never wreck my metabolism again. one day, one day i’ll order it and finish my food

day 1125 – readjust

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checking in with physio to make the readjustments required so i can function optimally. sneaking a picture in between sets of side plank with disc. the back has progressed each and everyday since wreckage, but nowhere near where it needs to be. then again, very little can stop me from doing what i like doing. since i am off limits, i was able to sit down and get some work and planning done

day 1069 – physio bound

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after some debating, i finally caved and admitted that my back needed medical attention; i was overdue for my physio checkup anyways. that also means it’s a lonely unconventional monday of no training, no dodgeball and no other physical activities for me today other than physio. at least he put my pieces back into its proper place and all should be back up and running in no time