day 1497 – tirelessly going

been hemmed in developing this new collection. after fiddling with lighting settings and going through many partial renders and trial runs, this is the first fully rendered room i can settle with. keeping busy and overloading myself with eleven hours so there’s no idle time and nothing else but work. if i could squeeze work in every sector of my day to occupy my mind, i need not to worry i’ll be thinking, feeling or crying. the best solution i can come up with until i can no longer take it

day 1434 – laying low

the work hours crept by so slowly but at least i was trying to work. at times i still felt dizzy with headache and wished that it wasn’t only wednesday. multiple body parts are wrecked and needs more rest than i will ever give it. surprisingly able to pry myself away from the gym and even decided against dodgeball. instead i spent the evening doing some overdue tedious calculations, paperwork and catchup

day 1274 – oversleeping

a big rush this morning because i snoozed my alarm and next thing i knew it was half an hour later. i zoomed into the washroom, got myself showered and out the door as fast as i could and arrived only thirteen minutes late. i had a headache the whole morning due to the abrupt awakening, but it got better in the afternoon. hump day is a good day to revisit my quote of the week as a reminder

day 1260 – drafting

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survived the first day of class and my first assignment is already handed in at the end of class. this isn’t what i was expecting when i read the course description, hand drafting all over again. i haven’t exactly got the prerequisite for this class either but the instructor said i don’t have to worry since my assignment was done well. it’s been a fifteen hour day; my brain is so exhausted and i’m utterly pooped. it was bedtime by the time i got home

day 1232 – work work work

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back into the office at half past seven ready to work. after tutoring and a long fulfilling workout, i’m finally back home half past nine for a quick bite before doing some graphics work. no easing back in on this super long day. i have yet to get around to housekeeping stuff, but at least i’m over the hump. even though we didn’t spend any time together today, we both recognize and value the importance of today

day 1218 – irregularities

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i’ll get use to leaving the house when the sky is still pitch black. but it’ll take much more to adapt to sleeping earlier. stationary objects orbiting around me probably means something isn’t functioning properly. felt so faint for much of the day with a banging headache and stomachache. something is definitely wrong but i’m not sure what; i just know i don’t want to take drugs

day 1169 – rattled

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there are instances when breaking down is the way to continue being hardy. had one of the heaviest conversation that i’ve been evading for as long as i could, but it was one that made my heart feel lighter. little was said within the conversation, everything else said it all. sometimes i’m at a loss of words because everything stays inside, but understand that i’ll always be the person you came to know. it was very difficult to follow through the night with dodgeball and training