day 669 – circuit

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haven’t been to gym for a while because i needed a recovery week and break after having completed my promotion test. no break between training for competition and blackbelt test so got permission for a well deserved time off. went through an exhausting circuit this afternoon and thoroughly tired. jumping back straight into a crazy workout usually gets me pretty sore next day. it is a good way to close off a successful month but the training commences again and nothing gets easier from here on

resolution series: [sixteen] update

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i have established time goes by fast and only goes faster as we get older. there are so many things going on simultaneously around the world and it is nearly impossible to keep up with every single event. but let’s not allow everything to seep through without having at least tried. don’t be that lone person that stays clueless forever and the person that finds out everything last. stay on top of what’s happening around you and your surroundings. whatever your interest is, be it a trending thread, top box office movie, latest drama, special holiday event, don’t let things pass you by while the rest of society is talking about it. go out and explore the city, attend the special events and festivities. no same that i get my news through sources like social media newsfeeds with people’s post and shares. i try harder to stay on top of things that interest me, anything from sports, movies, dramas, sales, civic events but sometimes it is a good idea to expand that beyond just my interest zone. i need to do a better job at keeping up with the news on the bigger current events that takes place around the world. it’s a better idea to stay informed and i would feel more witty when i am able to sustain a conversation of any topic

day 668 – shaved ice

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i never knew this place existed even though i unknowingly pass by it all the time. i heard the calling for late night dessert on saturday night at ice pik after a long brisk walk to earn extra calorie intake. trying some green tea shaved ice with mochi balls, grass jelly, lychee, mango bits all mixed together in a paper bowl. so glad this was shared between two cause it’s very filling and not exactly calorie friendly

resolution series: [fifteen] confidence

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i have never been a confident person and i still am not, but i have taken strides in this area. i have very high expectations for myself; the fearful part is when i do not meet those standards, it becomes detrimental to my already lacking and wavering confidence level. playing on teams definitely helped just knowing my teammates will always be there to back me up. i have been fortunate to be a part of numerous teams with awesome teammates that support each other so well and prides in teamwork and team building activities. team chemistry plays a big role in bringing home championships – i experienced that first hand. becoming a part of the vdl exec team has made me more vocal; part of the package requires speaking in front of large groups of people, constantly meeting new people and putting myself out there in a bigger community. taekwondo has provided me more than i could have ever imagined. having met a close knit family where we train together and sweat together. through instructing, competing and demonstrating, it has forced me to speak and demonstrate in front of students, parents and spectators alike. i am glad that many moons ago, my instructor pushed me out into competition because it has been, by far, the biggest difference maker. being alone in the ring with all eyes watching can be fearful as hell but when time comes i have no choice and just have to go on stage and finish what i started. no doubt i have gained a lot experience, respect and approval through being both an instructor and a competitor, but that also comes with responsibility and pressure. not only have i developed my own standard that i must live up to, but others also have high expectations for me that i’d hate to disappoint. all of these undertakings were a leap of faith that required me to step out of my comfort zone and into a completely new territory not knowing what to expect. from a person who is unwilling to speak up, i have evolved to being capable of stepping up in front of large crowds and audiences. this is not to say i am comfortable being in the spotlight because i still get nervous every single time, but at least i am willing to take that step forward. even today i still shy away from attention and hide in the background. i am still quiet by nature, and only when i feel comfortable around you will i start to open up and express myself. that’s when you will get to know me better as a person, my values, the driving force and reasons behind the things i do. there’s a lot hiding inside if you manage to crack my shell

day 667 – milestone mileage

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it’s with excitement i announce my shadow surpassed the 50000 mileage today. it’s taken me to a whole new level of smooth ride and i couldn’t have asked for anymore than what it has provided me. our relationship is approaching two years, feels like our bonding only began just yesterday. shadow is a true work horse working overtime all the time and still going strong to serve me day after day

resolution series: [fourteen] personal space

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having a busy schedule is good because that means i am always productive and proactive. my schedule is usually packed seven days a week, twenty four hours a day, and often needing more time in a day to squeeze everything in to accommodate everyone. it can also be very tiresome because i am always stepping on the gas pedal as hard as i can dashing from one errand to the next. but is accommodating and meeting everyone’s needs my top priority and the sole purpose of living? sometimes, i do wish to have more time for myself away from the rest of the world. aside from taking care of business in the public scheme of things, there are also planning, thinking and number crunching tasks that goes behind the scenes that often gets overlooked. these things tend to be handled in my spare time, which so happens to be time sacrificed from eating and sleeping. i like my personal space and enjoy time alone but it’s very hard to come by. when i am alone, i am able to sit there in silence and reflect on things while putting things into its proper perspective. i find being at the gym gives me that sense of privacy where i can plug in my headphones and shut off the rest of the world. the same can be found when training at taekwondo outside of class time, when all those annoying people don’t interfere at all the wrong times. it’s one of those moments that i will do my thing so don’t you dare come into my bubble while i am in my zone focusing on myself

day 666 – long visit

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this is me being super bored when i had nothing better to do while waiting with not much doing at appointment this morning. i knew it was going to busy but had to squeeze it in before physio leaves to check up on my banged up legs and body. today also marks the fourth anniversary of my first foot fracture. never forget what i went through, always remember how hard i worked to stand back up. it’s a good feeling to look back and see how far i have come since being removed from the fracture and on my way for bigger and better things

resolution series: [thirteen] independence

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at times like this when my parents are travelling around the world, i realize how much they have to do on a daily basis. even the most basic things like cooking meals, doing laundry, washing dishes, turning off lights, and taking out garbage. they take care of majority of all that, making mine and my brother’s life less stressful. though none of that those duties are difficult, they are very time consuming. the act of preparing, cooking and then washing the dishes is a tedious process and before i know it, an hour as passed by. as i grow older, i come to understand how precious they are and how dependent i have become. this is definitely the time to learn how to be more independent so to relieve my parents of their burden. slowly getting better at it, and good knowing that i won’t starve to death or run out of clean clothes to wear while they are away. going through the learning process of supporting myself physically, emotionally and financially. learning that earning money is hard but saving is even more difficult. understanding that success doesn’t come overnight and everything that contributes to future success requires utmost commitment. at a certain point, i won’t have anyone to lean on but myself. only when i can manage all that can i stand alone. there comes a time when i need to give back because that’s the least i could do in return

day 665 – learns to cook

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a proud moment cooking lunch and dinner for myself, all by myself. here’s some healthy looking salmon fillet so i don’t starve myself while my parents left me for travelling. i am no iron chef by all means, but watching all those cooking shows are paying off now. i would like to take all the credit even though all i had to do was put it in the oven and it would cook itself

resolution series: [twelve] mindset

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there’s never one solution to a problem or one route to a destination. different people will have different takes on things and often try to influence you in many ways so to make you see things their way, do things their way. it’s good to keep your eyes and ears open, but sometimes you just have to take a stand for what you believe in and stick with what you think you want to achieve. disregard what the majority of population thinks, so what if the rest of the world sees things differently. i learn that through the years you have to take into consideration people’s advice based on their knowledge and past experience, but there comes a time when you have to make a judgement call as to what you think is right and how you want to deal with a situation. there’s no perfect way of doing one thing. know that it is okay to be different because that’s what makes each person unique. find my own perspective, don’t let others decide and speak for me because it is my life to live. in the end no matter if the outcome is good or bad, know that i will be able to accept the outcome. that is precisely how we grow as an individual