day 1826 – work calls

i went into work and did my lunch and learn presentation. i went not because i wanted to, but cause obligation calls. the way everything has unfolded recently left me feeling sour and i’m about to give up trying to reach for justice. i no longer feel like standing up for what’s fair and will just do whatever is said. the amount of work i manage, the amount of stress from all directions, and the lack of respect i’m receiving just doesn’t add up. the renumeration that was promised doesn’t exist. if things don’t change, then i’m on my way out

day 1825 – family doctor

img_20200130_2121075079257415063679041.jpgthis is a rather big deal when i make it an exception and visit my family doctor. after many months of ghosting her, even she was surprised to see me. she asked a bunch of questions, did some tests and wrote two referral notes and off i went. i took a day off work to run around from clinic to clinic; these tests and xrays are so time consuming. hopefully the results turn out negative. it’s a day off away from the office but not really – an influx of emails and a presentation to prepare for kept me busy

day 1824 – current status

img_20200130_213535463764481126162429.jpgicing and heating both my shoulder and elbow while maintaining movement is the story of the day. i really didn’t know what to do and what to think of it because i hadn’t done any tests, scans or rays. i refused to go to emergency even though dozens urged me to do so. i had no mood to do anything knowing sports is off limits right now. so i just stayed at home in the heat and sweated my sorrows away

day 1823 – team barbecue

there’s a few flakes but the team barbecue turnout wasn’t too shabby. there was a lot of drinking involved considering the rest of the guys are playing a game afterwards. i wouldn’t be in on any of the drinking games if i was healthy enough to play. i’m very disappointed i have to sit out, especially when i was ramping up my hot goals streak. the duration is indefinite until i get another assessment. i’m on a short leash so i could be off to the emergency barring any symptoms. i’m praying it’s nothing serious, but i’m also starting to worry more and more

day 1822 – cartwheel

throwing too many cartwheels and attempts of aerials nonstop can lead to severe injuries. i heard some kind of pop as i braced myself with an outstretched arm. i thought it had to be a dislocated shoulder or something had snapped in my elbow. i landed hard but i didn’t want to check what the problem could be because maybe i’m not ready to find out. as stubborn and stupid as i was, i continued practicing but knowing in the back of my mind it could be a major issue that needs attention

day 1821 – vitasoy

i didn’t understand why my body feels soreness like a post deadlift day even though i hadn’t. i guess that on ice collision was pretty hard and gave my backside a hard jolt. i decided taking a day off bootcamp would probably set me up for a more productive friday flip session. instead, my colleagues and i went to seven twenty sweets for a liquid nitrogen run. one way to beat the heat was to try the limited time offer vitasoy and vita malt

day 1820 – hard questions

img_20200130_212545729484898212674926.jpgonce in a while some questions come up i either don’t know how to answer, shouldn’t answer or don’t want to answer. noticeable that i’ve pulled myself out of involvements in the world of taekwondo. i no longer teach or attend poomsae trainings, took break from competitions, skip demos, and avoided going to main school. all i do is run my branch school and keep making improvements. now when asked if i’ll resume my commitments and return to the competition floor, it’s really hard to say if i still have it in me and i have the heart to make a comeback

day 1819 – basement rink

north shore winter club has one of the worst ice surface i’ve ever seen. it clearly never took hockey players into consideration when players have to lug giant hockey bags through sets of doors, up and down flights of stairs and across other change rooms. stomping down the stairs in full gear to get to the rink, only to see ice is actually a large pool of water. i left it all out there playing one of my stronger games to end the jdp regular season. i had a close call early on that looked like it crossed the goal line. had another opportunity on a two on one where i dove to get good wood on it. despite not scoring, i did many good things including passing, puck battles, forechecks, and just being in position

day 1818 – work morons

img_20200130_2134433351333474827226412.jpgdealing with morons at work isn’t good use of my time, but it’s what i’ve had to put up with lately. one of the manager has been poking me for a while and the way she provokes me agitates me because of her ignorance and lack of sense. good thing she is no longer the design manager, but the real question is how is she still a manager? i know she’s out to get me and she’s already been talking shit to the ceo who is easily persuaded because he doesn’t know better. while i’m not surprise she keeps stirring shit behind my back, it built up so much aggression i wish i could stick her face on a target so i can kick it until it falls off

day 1817 – furniture shopping

i lost track of how many times i pressed the snooze button, but i slept in until my poor body was ready to make any type of movement. my lazy day off was mostly spent with my parents shopping for both furniture and groceries. we came to a decision and laid down three and a half grand for a set of leather sofa. i really could have played another hockey game, but realistically i need to be a sloth so my legs could rest. it’s nice to be able to help my parents out; something i miss doing for my parents