day 1511 – solstice begins

on days like this being stuck indoor away from windows isn’t ideal. the weather looks to be good for the rest of the week with the start of summer season. temperature is on the rise and it’s just one of the reasons summer is my favourite, for it brings sunshine to my life. all the fun summer activities awaits. maybe this will brighten my mood and bring me to a better place 

day 1510 Рdisconnect 

there’s no change since. the fact that i still feel alone hasn’t changed. it makes me wonder what difference it made being in a relationship. i still feel i am on my own. has it gotten too comfortable to the point where communication can be so sparse and the disconnect can be so big?? i don’t have a lot of needs and i don’t demand for much, maybe that’s why i get pushed aside and pushed down in priorities. i try to sweep it under the rug but i can’t help noticing my patience that something will turn around is declining

day 1509 – breakless

the weight accumulated in the past two months has caught up to me. on the exterior i seem invincible, but i can only fool others and not myself. the more i tried to brainwash myself, the deeper i went. at times i thought i didn’t want to fight anymore and wanted to give in. i fear that i’m nearing the brink of losing it – losing the patience to battle. didn’t have an appetite for any breakfast, but forced a few bites at lunch. i tried to bury myself with work to occupy every part of me

day 1508 – dodgeballers unite


tournament of champions is not just any dodgeball tournament. of course there’s vdl, rdl, cdl, sdl, but it’s super cool to see teams from calgary, edmonton, toronto, victoria, seattle. through the round robin, my team was in the middle of the pack. we played well in the playoffs and went further than expected. we fell behind two games in two series, only to come back and win it. i made some good catches and snipes but what stood out with the clutch kill to avoid a fifth game showdown and push the team into next round

day 1507 Рcanucks blowout 

too bad i had to teach and couldn’t go but i sent my parents to canucks inventory blowout sale weekend. the family are inti hockey fans so they came back with a few goods and ornaments. lots of game worn equipment and apparel, i would think about it if the sizes were appropriate. i’ve always wanted to try playing in goal but don’t have the right sized equipment to do so

day 1506 – grandma’s arm

my grandma is over ninety but probably healthier than me even before i turned nineteen. rarely has she made us worry, but today i received the bad news that she broke her arm from a fall. worried that she’s suffering in pain, that she can’t take care of herself, that she wants my father by her side. she needs to go through a procedure and what she needs most is care that i cannot provide her with. i just can’t rest easy knowing what she is going through and can only wish i could take it for her

day 1505 Рventuresome 

hustling hard everyday just to fulfill vancouver’s living standards. trying to hustle harder to hunt down my future unit. the reward at the end of each four month cycle is a well earned vacation to relax. these getaways with mo are my highlight knowing i have something to look forward to. the theme parks were awesome, i will be back for more adventures after visiting places i’ve always wanted to visit. i really wish for a nice hawaiian or beachy trip for the winter