plugging in the headphones at work to prevent too many distractions. people realize i’m not i’m the office for two days and feel the need to bother me. i have a lot of emails to catch up on and haven’t got the time to entertain people’s nonsense.
i was anxious to see my referred hand specialist also known as cosmetic plastic surgeon. i saw my bruised and shriveled up hand as he removed my splint to take a new set of xrays. after flipping back and forth a dozen times and examining my bone, he decided he wasn’t satisfied and wanted to reexamine next week. he sent me home recasted with a fiberglass splint only to do it all over again to decide if i require surgery or not. the splint is slightly less bulky, but just as uncomfortable. i pray for it to meld back together quickly so i can get back to doing what i do
it looks like a battle of laptops, but i’m actually remotely accessing my work computer through the network. i have been granted permission to work at home on selected days to accommodate the hardship and discomfort of my ailing hand. my manager respects that i’m responsible and trying my best not to disrupt the work flow. it’s tough that i have a dysfunctional hand and must miss all my physical activities. beyond that, what kills me is knowing and then losing hope that my stuff is at all important. why am i so dumb repeating myself more than twice thinking it’ll stick
the admins have finally moved out and we can finally take full ownership of the design studio. took an afternoon to rearrange all the desks and then a morning to set up my own workstation and do all wirings. it’s looking closer to having everything positioned perfectly. here’s where my ocd takes over; i’m particular with the arrangement of my space and like my organized mess just the way it is. my pod is quite cramped in a high traffic area, but i can’t complain with my upgraded computer and inherited office’s biggest monitors
only ordered days ago and excited to find my laptop stand already at my doorstep. can’t wait to unwrap and put it to good use once i can set up my home workstation. it isn’t as sturdy as the site showed but it should do the job and carry the weight of my laptop. i’ve been very diligent with my spendings, and this is one i thought was timely with my situation
quite possibly the last sunshine for a long while because forecast is filled with rain. wasn’t a bad idea to be out getting some relaxing fresh air, especially after an uneasy night. realizing this is the time to figure out what everything means to me and what i’m worth to others. went through the day with no emotions and a big void inside. surprisingly didn’t even see a drop of tear; maybe tears went dry, or maybe i learn to block out my feelings
saturdays is barely considered meal prep. if lucky, i’ll get two toasts in; if not, one will get me through until dinner time. all these years i’ve managed killarney saturday classes as well as i could and no question i put my heart and soul into it. if sifu stopping by today changes because i taught wearing a t-shirt due to a broken thumb, i have nothing to say except it’s unfortunate. i can only say i do my best to not miss a shift, even when i’m in considerable pain