day 1674 – over and done


it’s a pity it’s made official, but deep down i know it’s over for the better. the decision to leave at one of my most critical time was already a telling tale; but i learned and bared next to no expectation from then on. if i was able to survive that storm alone, i’d be able to get through anything. lots of things are about to change. it’s a time to reset myself and welcome the new challenges i’m about to take on. it’s a time to get back to understanding that my own priorities don’t need live in the shadows of everyone else’s

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day 1661 – home and away 

another one of my design creation turned into something so real and so rad that my team and i could wear. took my manager’s advice to opt out of the reversible and get two separate jerseys. i can’t wait to be back on the ice to debut this jersey, but first i must wait to be cleared by my surgeon. six weeks in a splint was what i was told by my first doctor. one doctor, one hand specialist, two surgeons, one physio, and one hand therapist later, i’m unsure what my status is

day 1651 – bandwidth 

i can’t control that some people are toxic and can’t mind their own business. no matter how i take care of my tasks, there’s always going to be somebody ready to stir the pot. my bandwidth is full with projects stacked on projects, it has no capacity to deal with bullshit. i had a long talk with manager because he obviously saw the frustration in my eyes. he is coaching me through the management side of things and mentioned that if i wasn’t an important member, they wouldn’t even bother picking on me. i’m going to continue to keep a good strong head on my shoulder and work on getting it better than ever no matter what the situation is. if people misunderstand and make ignorance assumptions, so be it

day 1642 – going for spin


it’s funny the one was only one good hand gets asked to sit behind the wheel and act as the valet. going for spin in my coworkers new wheels during lunch break. good to see that the parts of my new desktop has arrived and i’m fully running on new hardware. it means it can handle 3ds renders and do cooler things. everyday at work is busy and it’s only going to get busier as i continue to try to grow into a bigger role. soon it won’t be just staying extra hours but also going in for overtime

day 1632 – work selfie


plugging in the headphones at work to prevent too many distractions. people realize i’m not i’m the office for two days and feel the need to bother me. i have a lot of emails to catch up on and haven’t got the time to entertain people’s nonsense. i got really ticked off when someone came over to almost tease my minor sprain he called it. i went to bed without dinner since the stressful day took over my appetite. it’s not like i can exercise anyways so i might as well keep the eating off

day 1617 – iced knee

bounced off the floor hard when i dropped down too quickly to the floor. my chiro was on site but there was nothing he could have done for me there. there’s no taking it easy and i hate sitting out.  the damage is already done so i might as well continue playing through it; finished the night and immediately slapped an ice pack on it to stop the swelling. despite bruising up bad, it’s always a fun night playing with the girls. i am a little doubtful to be healthy for saturday night’s rivalry

day 1590 – beneath 

i didn’t have to come today but i didn’t know what to do with myself when my mind doesn’t stop going. struggles still pop up though all this time i denied i was hurt much deeper than the surface. here i am on a friday night trying to workout like i have nothing else better to do. i have to step back, take a deep breath and remind myself i didn’t do anything wrong