day 2538 – bled

randomly got a nose bleed mid day which is very uncommon for me. staying motivated day in and day out really takes its toll on the mind and soul. spent most of my day at home trying to find the motivation to continue the grind, but it was nowhere to be found. i ended up not doing much and not getting much done before evening rolled around. i’m just going to accept that everyone has days like this and will move on looking forward to another day

day 2442 – training accountability

one thing that’s really worked during this quarantine grind is we keep each other accountable. both of us felt sore and tired, but we kept up with the training because we knew we needed to push through for the whole ride. we trained, but trained smart and adjusted to only doing things our bodies could handle. for me, it was focused on aerials, websters and back handsprings. it’s good that my webster is back on track and felt good after a few off days. i’ve also committed to do a better job at stretching to get my flexibility back

day 2425 – attempted run

woke up with a plan to get some fresh air and do a morning run, but it didn’t go as planned. it was raining when i woke up, but once the sky cleared up, i walked to van tech field with an intent. i could barely get through two laps around the oval before i called it quits. goes to show how out of shape i am and how much work i’m going to have to put into this cut. will go back to the drawing board and try again soon

day 2413 – millie

this week didnt start off well and has felt off. i didn’t feel like going to work any day this week and been procrastinating on all my projects. also been consuming a lot more coffee than usually, sometimes more in the afternoon just to stay awake. i don’t like any interaction with millie, but i’d rather walk over and bug her while she sleeps instead of doing my work. maybe it’s a clear a sign i need a day off soon just to recoup

day 2409 – taegeuk practice

third and last scheduled poomsae for all the bc championship competitors. i must admit these seven hours shifts with the extra training is one of the roughest saturdays. all the competitors have improved a lot since the first training, but i’m still feeling uneasy about a few. this was suppose to be the last session, but i think i’ll need to hold one more for my own peace of mind

day 2402 – onezo rose

i taught through the whole taekwondo shift plus poomsae training and didn’t once get to sit down. i was so tired i honestly didn’t even care for dinner. all i wanted to do was make it out to onezo on their last day of rose tapioca. first time trying onezo, first time trying rose pearls and first time making a special trip just to get a bubble tea. the rose with the grapefruit pulp gave it a unique sweet and sour taste. i drank that and passed out before eleven o’clock hit

day 2381 – glutinous rice balls

after teaching my usual taekwondo shift, i had a bunch of paperwork to take care of and didn’t want to go out. it was family time at home with glutinous rice balls for dessert – a ritual on the fifteenth day after chinese new year. it was so delicious i couldn’t help myself but have a second serving even knowing it’s not the healthiest thing. i hope i had enough expenditure today to balance out the calories

day 2345 – hockey rust

making my first squirtle appearance since the many damages that started in october. the rust on the ice was real and it didn’t help that we’ve been tiered up. the score was very lopsided even though my team got many shots of goal. my line had plenty of good chances, but couldn’t bury any. after gearing off, i rushed back to flightclub for board games night. i didn’t stay until the end, but even then it was already past 2am and i’ve been up for close to twenty one hours

day 2344 – work and play time

second day of the year and already back at the office seems kind of cruel. it was extremely difficult to wake up given my sleeping schedule was thrown off during the holidays. the tiny human was also back at the office and hung out at my desk because school doesn’t resume until next monday. when she was watching her spongebob show, she cooperates and stays busy. if she didn’t occupy herself, she wouldn’t be allow to stay at my desk. i’ll miss her after this week, but will still see her during my saturday taekwondo

day 2320 – low life

sleepless on a sunday night does not bode well for monday morning. i needed a coffee first thing when i got into work. i couldn’t help but stay awake thinking and overthinking of all the things i may have to give up. i can’t stop myself from crying thinking my life as an athlete could come to an abrupt end. i hadn’t done all that i wanted to accomplish and i clearly hadn’t expected it to approach so soon. i can’t stand to open up and tell many of my injury status so keeping it to myself was my next best option