day 2268 – sky fallen

it feels like the world just crashed on me. i wish my first instinct was incorrect, but i’m pretty certain i’ve just torn my other retinaculum during the battle. it was a bad judgment on my part – i shouldn’t have tried to sync the cartwheel back tuck and should just went for it on my own. now my everything is in jeopardy and i can’t help by think that my hopes and dreams of competing or even tricking in general could all be over. it hurts thinking not even reconstructive surgery can be a solution and all i can do is keep waiting and hope there’s a chance it will heal itself to a usable state. no one truly understands the physical pain i’m going through at the moment, and definitely don’t understand how much this hinders me in all the things i do and love doing. i just know i’m not ready to say goodbye to any of those things

day 2108 – k fever

finally got my antibiotics even though i’m sure it hasn’t kicked in yet. wasn’t sure if i was up for late night karaoke but went anyways because i wasn’t about to be called out on bailing again. i generally don’t like the mic in my hands so i’m glad some of the guys like holding onto it. i am content jamming without the mic. i didn’t know any of the rap songs, but i was happy to just listen in. i was feeling quite fatigued by the end and was so ready to pass out the minute i got home

day 1979 – casino countdown

i still have a hard time believing 2018 gas flown by so quickly. i didn’t get to countdown last year so making up for it this year at river rock. the whole casino was packed with people trying to get their last gambling in before the new year. the hype happened at the foyer where the dj blasted music and threw confetti while two performers were suspended from the ceiling. after the countdown, i also did some gambling at the craps tables before calling it a night while getting my last bubble tea in for the year

day 1924 – 98 degrees

been looking forward to attending the concert of my favourite boy band back in the 2000’s. the inside of vogue theatre had an old smell and uncomfortable seats. i saw a dozen familiar faces and funny enough the person who sat on my other side was also someone i knew from dodgeball. good thing we didn’t have to stand the entire time. i had a good time jamming away, but i just wished that they sang more from their own album and less of christmas songs

day 1889 – beyonce concert

can’t say no when work offered free tickets to beyonce and jayz concert. i was getting impatient when the show was delayed an hour before some chloe x halle came on for a couple intro songs. it was also freezing inside bc place, but when beyonce hit the floor, she really did put on a show. the stadium was down right shaking when the music came on. it was a good show but ran way too late on a weeknight

beyoncĂ© – if i were a boy

it makes me sad listening to this, but it also resembles the current. a lot goes to show that i’ve been taken for granted. it’s true that a guy will never understand what damages they make with a little mistake. once done it can’t be undone, once not done it cannot be made up for. i’ve lost all hope in making this a meaningful relationship if i can’t feel any care or support. i can’t make you better and i don’t want to change a person, but i have an option to move on. this really is the last of it and maybe one day, it’ll finally click

day 1356 – robot league

the hype of robot war league just got higher after i got my baymax shirt specially delivered. what’s also hyping is the countdown to my sunny vacation is within twenty four hours away. worked really hard in the past months and definitely earned this time off, both away from work and away from home. i hope it bodes everything that i have been looking forward to and i can’t wait to enjoy my vacation hitting up the sunny state that hosts disneyworld