day 1926 – random gift

sometimes the perks of being an instructor is helping students not expecting anything in return. anything that involves writing reference letters, signing volunteer forms, filling in evaluations and even answering supervisor phone calls. once in a while there’ll be the odd thank you gifts. today is one of those days where i received a cadillac gift card from a parent as if it was my birthday. i wish to continue to help in any way possible not because of these thank yous, but because i can

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day 1922 – scholarship

grandmaster handed out scholarship to a few of us at the annual celebration party. it’s his way of encouraging us to take the next blackbelt test. to be frank, this amount covers only a small portion of the large sum. i’m not sure where i sit with this decision because it doesn’t necessarily change anything for me. there’s many reasons i don’t need it, but also many reasons to just do it. i’ll give it a little more thought over the course of the next month and see what type of commitment it requires

day 1914 – courtside mastercup

it’s showtime for my students who’s going to compete in this year’s master cup. to all those stepping on the mat at provincial stage, i’m proud of all of them to have the courage to compete. to all my competitors, i’m happy to see the improvements in each and every one of you. this is the first time friends outside of taekwondo world came out and it was quite fun. the freestyle poomsaes is what i had to stay for, even if it meant i would be late for teaching. i’m super exhausted after the long day of coaching and teaching. i cleaned up to pass out before ten thirty

day 1904 – pastimes

one of my long term past time is training for poomsae competitions. though it’s over a year since i stepped on the big stage, i still spend a great deal of time coaching competition. there were times when thought i was done with taekwondo, but every time i try to step away i somehow get pulled back in. the debate is do i still have one last one in me. after my mentor and friends departed, i no longer have as much drive as a competitor to shoulder all the responsibilities

day 1901 – attempt practice

a failed attempt to practice after sunday poomsae training. intended to have some extra practice after all the kids left, but didn’t get much done and ended up going off on some discussions. i think i’m going to try to set some time aside to get some extra practice in for myself; testing to see if i can get myself back into it. in need to set some goals for myself with some deadlines

day 1879 – teaching shifts

two teaching shifts after lots of jamming isn’t ideal. not the best day of teaching at taekwondo having to deal with a number of difficult students. the first hour had a handful of uncooperative students while managing a class of thirty two very beginner class. one kid wouldn’t follow instructions, one wouldn’t stop complaining, and one wouldn’t move and kept crying. i couldn’t attend to at the same time, but i did the best i could out of the gongshow situation. survived the day on two peanut butter toasts and a sore throat

day 1866 – sloppiness

spent time running through some basic kicks and then taeguek 1 all the way to taebaek. i’ve realized too much devotion to instructing as taken away from practicing and bettering my own skills. i can’t remember the last time i did a poomsae or kicks for real. i feel utterly rusty and even disgusted with how sloppy its become. i need to dust of all that rust and keep up with my own practice. as an instructor and a competitor, it would be a disgrace to lose all that proficiency i once trained really hard for. it’s only fair i continue to practice as i expect my students to do the same