day 1685 – board cuts

the aftermath of a blackbelt test i didn’t want to work. it didn’t bode well from the beginning and only got worse when i’m told by the grandmaster to hold a board when he knows very well my hand isn’t healed for it. it really has become a hostile environment i’m tired of bearing his unreasonable and unethical ways. it has caused me too much grief and too much sleep and i’m no longer willing to go the distance to suit his needs while i sacrifice my happiness. either his attitude has to change and respect has to be there, or that’s the end of an era


day 1673 – grunt session 

needed some grunting moments as a source of outlet prior to having my taekwondo meeting with grandmaster. i really needed to unleash all that anger with endorphins emitting activities and iron was just the thing. the frustration of being continuously bombarded with phone calls and messages up to the hour of the meeting. didn’t kick up any of his calls because i didn’t want to be distracted by unrelated work matters. needless to say i was so distracted and deflated to the point where i didn’t want to hit the gym, but i’m glad i did it on a day where i felt so unmotivated

day 1656 – sweats and frees

saturdays are sweatpants and frees kind of day because i’m in a judge free zone. running around all day, literally, and it was a very brisk run that also included an eye appointment and none other than taekwondo. i’m experiencing some dryness and haze so will require another follow up appointment sooner than expected. it’s not alarming, but not what i wanted to hear

day 1648 – equipment haul

just twelve hours later lugging my hockey bag out of killarney, i’m walking into the community centre again, this time with me a bunch of taekwondo equipment. getting back into the thick of teaching isn’t so bad if i didn’t have to deal with a crazy mother who doesn’t think like a regular human. like i’ve said a hundred times and will say again and again; if u’re in it for the belt, u’re in the wrong place cuz i don’t just sell them. it’d save both my time and her money if i just directed her to a martial art store

day 1629 – lightbulb 

the can do attitude i bring forth has proven it can take me far. my role has expanded quickly since the start of january and i’m quickly recognizing that gaining responsibilities and gaining importance comes hand in hand. as such, overtiming no longer surprises me. after a hard day’s work, it was a good night chilling out with the long time taekwondo bros and sis. we’ve become such a close knit group over the years training, competing, traveling and drinking together. afterall, the road to nationals wasn’t easy, but we got each other’s back. the bond continues to be strong no matter where life takes us because taekwondo brings us all back together

day 1579 – sunday workday

it started off having a laid back sunday morning before getting into work. good that i don’t have a 7:30am start on sunday as well so i could sleep in a little after a late night of partying. had no urgency to sleep after a night like this, but once in a while is okay. worked another blackbelt test and the rest of my time spent completing a bunch of modules. banking these extra hours hopefully to pay off and gets accredited for in the future

day 1536 – sandwich 

saturdays is barely considered meal prep. if lucky, i’ll get two toasts in; if not, one will get me through until dinner time. all these years i’ve managed killarney saturday classes as well as i could and no question i put my heart and soul into it. if sifu stopping by today changes because i taught wearing a t-shirt instead of full uniform due to a broken thumb, i have nothing to say except it’s unfortunate. parents were concerned for me; why i wasn’t rest the injury and taking a day off when i’m obviously in considerable pain. i am here being my workaholic self because i know my students need me more