day 2297 – obligated instructor

it was critical for me to be at taekwondo even just hanging onto the half a life i had left. i was feeling weak and dizzy while losing my voice but still felt the need to be there to make sure the students who’s getting ready for promotion got the proper stuff down. i stayed as long as i could last and helped the many i saw before i could no longer. at least i went home with the peace of mind that i gave it everything i had and supported my students in ways possible. now i’m just going to pass out early and rest this bronchitis

day 2296 – missing me

this is an extreme pessimism post because i’ve seriously had enough everything. there’s so much i miss about this. i miss being able to move without so much pain and limitations. i miss being the fittest, strongest and best shape of my life. i miss doing backflips, kicks and flips at will. i miss playing hockey and dodgeball with all my teammates. i miss the soreness that came after every lifting and training session. i miss being able to jump and climb onto anything i wanted to. i miss the summer sunshine and being outdoors until night. i miss doing everything i can’t do at the moment

day 2289 – wu’s stripes

picked up the wu’s four striped black belt from the main school along with my students’. one more belt to add to my collection and keep it going. i’m proud of my fourth degree, but i’m more proud of the three first degrees i’ve trained and nurtured from the very beginning of their white belt journey. they’ve all worked very hard to earn their first stripe. i hope to get them more stripes and get more students to earn theirs

day 2277 – girl can dream

a design concept i’ve stayed up many late nights thinking and working on this model. i’ve really taken this concept to heart hoping one day i could own a space like this and run my own business. i imagined a space reasonably sized, but with all the necessary equipment arranged in what i deem as the most ideal layout. a space i own could never go without a personal gym space. i wonder if and when this could become a reality. i understand for this to happen, a lot of steps and obstacles must be taken, but i’ll keep dreaming in the meantime

day 2276 – master cup morning

tournament morning at burnaby bcit with a rude and demanding awakening. he who lets me run my own branch and doesn’t have to worry my school told me off several times and questions my leadership choices. i didn’t have time to worry about his aggression, and instead focused on helping my friend make connections and introductions. overall a successful master cup with a lot to take backs for next time

day 2270 – stay home sunday

stayed home originally thinking i’d be lazy, but turns out to be a work afternoon. i finished the much delayed payrolls for terms of killarney because someone complained about class reserve distribution. the email chain started getting out of hand and in turn made me even more agitated. i checked the spreadsheet and all is good to go until he makes other complaints. at least i got off my plate and onto better things

day 2269 – broken teacher

trying to teach all the classes being on less than one foot combined. my left didn’t work well before and now my right is heavily crippled. capping off the last class of the shift with the poomsae competition team. surprisingly made it through the whole shift without having to demonstrate any kick at full speed or full power. it helps that all classes went smoothly and all except the first class came ready to learn