day 1336 – lounge seats

my enjoyment the one hundred level lounge seats stopped short of the end of third period when i was startled by some news. finishing the game was the least of my worries as i rushed home to find out what’s been happening all day. i’m really concerned and i’m scared, but i mustn’t show it because my mom needs me to be strong at a time like this. i can’t show any signs of weakness because i need to be there for her to hold the ship together 

day 1119 – demeanour

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sometimes when you get comfortable seeing something you forget to appreciate the little things that surround you. taking things for granted happens; it happens with things, it happens with people. i guess i can’t be too bothered because a good day at the gym cancels it out and also makes up for my last subpar performance. i am happy i made new ground today and i know there’s more to come. once again, it reminds me pr’s are meant to be broken, limits are meant to be surpassed and goals are meant to be reached

day 1101 – snatched

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pushing it hard at the gym this morning and not letting my cold get to me. after a long session, i came out looking like i was abused but it was all worth it because i was working on a lot and a lot of cleans. despite my throbbing headache, i am stoked since i had just done my first ever barbell snatch. although it is still very raw and still have a lot of mechanics to work on, it’s definitely a step in the right direction. i’ll stay persistent and keep working on it; it’s only a matter of time before it gets better and become second nature

day 1094 – recondition

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getting up is what happens after falling down. restarting today is the best choice because focusing on my journey and devoting more time on myself is vital to a healthier and happier me. going into the gym and lifting usually makes my day better. today was no different as i surprisingly upped my deadlift numbers. i learned that i can’t do everything alone; sometimes opening up and turning to others helps me better manage my stress. my journey is not going to be easy, but i look forward to improving and picking up a few new things every step of the way

day 1086 – bruce quote

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thinking of something to get myself going again. this man says some very powerful things that i would like to live by day in day out. in bruce lee’s wise words, always be yourself, express yourself and have faith in yourself. it’s a tough stretch, but we have each other’s back to fight through all battles. sometimes a quiet and simple evening brings out the quality of our time and lightens up the mood. just remember tough times don’t last, tough people do

day 1066 – annual award

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another busy season of taekwondo comes to an end with the passing of canada cup. through this season, i have found much success further developing my own competition game as well as training my students. it hasn’t been easy at all, there has been lots of struggles and self doubts along the way, but i got the job done at the end of the day. here’s to another grand champion trophy to add to my collection. i don’t know how many more competitions i have in me; i am hoping won’t end just yet

living through my falls

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it’s unbelievable how fast things could change and how far things could fall. outside my shell, it’s hard to tell i have lived through two very rough weeks. but beneath my shell, my life felt very close to the “underworld”, filled with mayhem that’s got me feeling rocking bottom. the descend started off with a week long fever, cough then cold. i couldn’t muster much activity during this time; i was bed ridden and under endless medication majority of the time. my body felt weak as ever; all the ground i’ve gained has been lost, and deep down i felt even worse about myself because i couldn’t do anything to change it. luckily, i had a personal nurse that took care of me and almost felt more concerned about my health than i ever was. just as i was recovering from sickness, the nightmare hit me hard – literally. ever since being struck at dodgeball playoffs, i felt like i was living in a really bad dream. having a concussion is scary because everything felt out of whack. my head and neck were throbbing, my movements were slowed, my speech and thoughts were disoriented, my appetite was affected – the bottom line is, i wasn’t able to function like my normal self. what made it difficult was i couldn’t tell people what i was going through nor could i disclose the severity fearing they will not let me continue with my upcoming events which means so much to me. i’m feeling slightly better with each passing day and a week after the incident, i can safely say recovery seems like it’s on course. thankful mo has been by my side during this rough span. just having his presence makes things better and gives me the inspiration to think on the bright side even when times get tough. i’ve fallen very far down and lost a lot of the gains i’ve been working hard at, but now is really not the time to hang my head. i’m not okay with myself and my performance in it’s current stage, so i’m going to make it right. i must get it together and make up that ground in a hurry. it won’t be easy, but it will be done