day 1129 – salt and pepper

img_20200124_1517195125112703379053205.jpgi was pretty bored and lazy today even though i had a ton of things waiting for me to do. the family commented on how rare it was to have me eat out with the rest of them. it’s been a long time since i hardly recall when and where was the last. it was such a long dinner, my everything was so stiff by the time we took the bill. got home and did some painful rolling so i can still move for team practice tomorrow. i’ll also get to my long to do list tomorrow

day 1084 – stack on stack

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executing the literal meaning of stack on stack with four different bottles of four different flavours. after overcoming the weird after taste and the colour residue on my tongue, i have really come to like what it provides. getting them bcaa restocked so i can power through my workouts. i am all stocked up in terms of supplements and prepared to make more gains

day 892 – new nemesis

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i knew the day would come when i would outgrow my pipe and needed to find a harder alternative. for as much as i use my rollers, my body has developed enough immunity to the pipe it no longer serves me justice. i have passed the stages of foam, firm foam, even firmer foam, ridged foam, plastic and pipe in sequential order; let’s get straight to the point and go for metal. found a new effective tool to roll out my frequently overused legs and get it to a functional state

day 836 – no better feeling

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continuing my obligatory blenz matcha remedy after physio appointments because each visit usually entails a long list of exercises and much pain inflicted. today’s appointment went extremely well, probably one of the best i have had in years. i cannot express how ecstatic i felt when physio told me my knee is recovering well, no misalignments and everything is holding up nicely with the exception of some minor spasms and tightness. i had a good feeling about this because i have been feeling great prior to the appointment and this just confirms it. it’s funny how many take what i have been longing for as a given, but for me, being pain free is a rarity and means the world to me

day 758 – physio checkup

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having my regular morning physio check up and it was a positive one, held up nicely since last visit and that’s huge for me. it’s a sign of progress and a big step in the right direction considering i have been doing a fair amount of my activities during this time span. my reward for having such positive feedback is some trolling courtesy of my physio and kinesiologist who demanded some unexpected numbers and then threw a curveball at me. i had a lot of hesitation but they gave me the sense there was no way out of it knowing i must do it or i am not going home

day 730 – my bars

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it’s exciting when my orders and packages keep coming in and this time it’s my much anticipated combat bars. with these stocked up in my drawer, i am ready for just about anything or so i would like to think. i could use a boost in training lately as there has been a lack of it. hope this restores my motivations and puts me back on track with the things i really need to do

day 721 – hibernating day

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my mind is constantly telling me all commitments should be pushed to the side, not going out tonight anywhere because i feel the need to hibernate. i want to stay at home and take the time to catch up on so much i haven’t gotten around to completing. hope hibernating this week will cure all the troubles and tasks on my plate, set me back to normal and boost my productivity

resolution series: [twentyeight] pity

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everyone has their own problems to deal with, some less complex than others. there’s no secret that i have been plagued with endless injuries throughout my life. i have given up on trying to hide that, because i have learned that patchwork only makes it go away on the superficial level. unfortunately that’s just temporary fix and will keep piling on to account for greater problems. i simply cannot live without the sports and activities which i play, for it is the passion of my life. it won’t be forever, but it is my choice to continue playing and practicing them for as long as i can manage. i do intend on doing everything i can within my powers to do my rehab and maintenance work. my main focus is on getting better and stronger every single day; always be a better version of myself. don’t question my will to strive for what i want just because you have it easier. don’t question my passion to always stay hungry and carry on even when nothing goes my way. don’t question how big my heart is when you don’t know how much pain i have endured. don’t question my toughness if you don’t know what i experienced because very few people have a clue how much work, time, energy and commitment i put into making all this possible. standing on my own two feet was never a given to me, but i learn to be grateful for all the times i can. sometimes i sit alone thinking to myself i don’t deserve to be dealing with all these mishaps and i certainly don’t deserve your bashing or judgement. i need not your pity nor your approval for what i have to go through as i result of what i do. i was given this life and these obstacles because i could handle it. i appreciate those who’s helped me out along the way, it’s meant the world to me. if you have nothing good to say, don’t speak

resolution series: [twentythree] progress

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no one is perfect, but everyone is working towards being the best they can be. twelve years ago, when i first stepped foot in my physiotherapist’s clinic, i had no idea it would be such a long journey full of changes and learning curves. from a girl who couldn’t do a single exercise given to me no matter how basic. from a girl who wouldn’t put any effort into trying to do the exercises no matter what was assigned. to a girl who can now do all that plus weights and equipment thrown at me for different variations and increased difficulty. at that time, i bet my kinesiologists were very frustrated with me and wondered what was wrong with this girl because i didn’t put any effort in trying to complete any exercises they asked of me. through the years, they have opened my eyes to a whole new world, making me understand why i had to do what i was told. slowly i began to listen and understand how my body works and what i need to do for it. taekwondo didn’t start off easy for me, i went through some rough patches and stretches were i wasn’t feeling it. i wasn’t trying hard, i let things slip under the rug but gladly someone pulled me aside to let me know that half-assing wasn’t acceptable. he woke me up by telling me i shouldn’t settle for anything less for my best and never play down to my classmates’ level. if it weren’t for that lecture, i was probably ready to call it quits and would never have made it this far. i can safely say that there are many things that didn’t start off well but turned out well because someone out there decided to take it upon themselves to make me understand the importance of putting in the work and effort. ever since then, i have taken big strides in the right direction and to make the necessary progress

resolution series: [twentytwo] mentor

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the people i have been surrounded by have played a tremendous role in shaping me for who i am. they provided me with much guidance, endless advice and mentorship that influenced my growth as a human being. i have had many people guiding and pushing me every step of the way, either dragging me back on track whenever i stray away or making sure i don’t slack off when i shouldn’t be. i know for a fact, without the team behind the scenes attending to me when i fall apart, i probably wouldn’t be walking today. they have constantly given me motivations to train harder and train smarter to get better and get stronger. it is through them i learned that i must put in the work and work for what i want in order to continue playing the sports of my life. the coaches and teammates i’ve had the privilege of playing with and learning from also played a significant role. they have taught me the true meaning of teamwork, that we ought to work hard for each other. lots of credit goes to the instructors that inspired me and showed me to way to higher ground. i have come a long way from the beginning of my taekwondo journey, but i won’t stop knowing there’s still a long way to go to get to a level i never imagined i could be at. i am hoping one day i would be looked up upon, to be mentoring and inspiring others to become what they could never have imagined