day 1504 – numero uno 

although i haven’t been here many times, this box feels so homey because this place has everything i like. a good first rehab session in the books. nothing too difficult and starting off easy since he wasn’t sure where i was at with my recovery. he’s one of the most caring dude i’ve ever worked with and would ask if i was okay every so often. i wish i could play with everything here, but i had to lay off doing crazy stuff that he wouldn’t be concerned . soon, i hope the crazy stuff will be mine again soon

rise and shine

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vacation is officially over. that means it’s time to get back on track and grind again. during the twelve day span that i was overseas, i felt so confined and struggled mightily with gym withdrawal. the days felt so unfulfilling without any real physical exertion. i would hate to live like this on a normal basis. i was dying inside but my parents didn’t understand why i was making a big fuss out of it because they simply didn’t understand what gym and sports meant to me. i, on the other hand, have no intention of explaining it to them. some days they would make random comments relating to my built in hopes to convince me to lessen my exertion. luckily venting to mo has eased much of my frustration; i know he’s well aware of where i’m coming from. back home, training and being active is a major part of my life. i’ve been consistently training and making progress on many levels and i felt good about them. but a dozen days without gym access has set me back really far and now i’m uncertain what i’m capable of. i am actually afraid to find out. i would feel so useless if i find out i’m back at square one. i don’t want to lose what i have worked hard for. i told myself that once this vacation is over, everything will go back to normal – no, it’s going to be even better. i told myself i would rep out all my sets; i wouldn’t be lazy, complain or make excuses. somehow, i need to keep myself accountable and get myself back on track if i stray. i am back in town today, which means i’ll be hitting the gym doing what i need to be doing. the destination is pretty clear, my mind just needs to work with me. it’ll be a long road back, but i must refocus and work harder to negate that deficit. june is a month of many changes and challenges; one that i am going to make things happen. it will be worth it in the end

day 953 – re-rack much??

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day three of staying off my legs as i was instructed. i may be operating with many limitations, but doesn’t mean that i can’t go to the gym to work on other muscle groups. disgusted at those people who doesn’t clean up after themselves and re-rack the weights they used. it’s not much to ask for; if you use the weights, you should be strong enough to put them away. these people should be publicly shamed for being an inconsiderate human being and ruining the gym experience for others

day 813 – ligament troubles

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physio appointment can’t get any earlier than this. having a 7am appointment basically meant that i was still half asleep and struggling to be coherent which made it almost impossible for me to clearly explain to my physio what had happened at the time of injury. i mustered the most vague explanation, physio was better off finding the answers and figuring out the severity of the injury himself, and he did. he went through a series of tests to check for ligament tears and thankfully reported negative, but a ligament sprain isn’t something to be taken lightly by all means. today’s appointment had me on both ice and then electro, and that usually signals a prescribed rehab process is on its way. so that means no sports or physical activities until he says otherwise

day 687 – morning physio

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stumbled into the clinic still in half sleeping mode and physio was quick to take note. he figured giving me a bunch of crazy exercise was going to wake me up and increase my alertness. another stint on the muscle stim after a tiring routine, makes me believe that i will be doing muscle stim forever and ever. important visit today because i had messed up my knee and groin and needed to get that fixed heading towards montreal

resolution series: [ten] fitspo

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for kids, bumps and bruises, sprains and breaks heal quickly. but once the teens passes you by, you realize these problems persist longer than what you are used to. you can no longer be as carefree when attempting something because that innocence starts to leave your mind and childhood is inevitably leaving your body. that’s for normal people, but it’s an entirely different story for me. i started getting injured at a very early age and because sports is my passion, it makes it my weakness. my personality and lack of patience doesn’t allow me to rest long enough before going back out and playing again. without letting it heal properly like it should, i push it far too hard much too soon. i have been fortunate i have had an awesome physio overlooking me for over the past dozen years cause without him, i either will not be walking today, or wouldn’t be involved in any of the sports. because of the team that supports me in the back end, i can continue to do the things i love. when i was younger, i never fully understood why they were forcing me to do all these training and boring rehab exercises, but i slowly come to realize what they put me through is only for my own good. ever since then, i told myself i would make that change by listening to them and letting them push me as hard as they see fit. it gives me the satisfication to look back at when i first started and notice how much better and stronger i have gotten over the years and the work and effort i pitched in are finally starting to pay off. the deal is simple, i do my maintenance work and take care of my body the right way, then i get to go out and do my thing. i need to continually get stronger in order to get better at what i do and be the best that i can be. taking care of my body is definitely top priority in the long run. and when i stray away from that, my wallpaper and backgrounds act as a reminder to always shut up and train

day 654 – kinesiologist revisit

imagemorning physio and revisiting one of the kinesiologist i have seen years ago but haven’t seen at the clinic in ages cause it’s been a long time since i last had a saturday appointment. but nothing really changes since both my kins are alike in some sense, except one challenges me more and the other makes fun of me more. the same routine applies: he gives me an exercise and i will complain momentarily, he doesn’t budge then i go off and do it. it was an easy day comparative to other visits, but muscle stim is never easy. got my back beaten up because it is so tight from all that throwing and lifting