third last game of the season for fishsticks so filling the scoresheet is what i needed. i did exactly that tonight, taking the lead in my bet with a one goal two assist night. i was tired heading into the game having worked from nine to eight with a two hour gap in between teaching shift and promotion test, but not so tired after such good production. i’m sure i’ll feel the fatigue even more tomorrow trying to wake up for my 7:30am shift after a late game. i’m just happy that i feel like i’m rounding into form again as playoffs are ramping up.
after calling out the test for one hundred and thirty students, i get some well deserved mat time. it was insane for me to lead every individual group from white to red belt, more talking than i would do in a whole week. it was more oa test for me than the students as fifties and sixties is the normal range. i don’t think i’ll survive another one of these tests alone so another instructor better step up soon. got home after some window shopping and a long promotion test in time to have my first meal of the day just shy of nine o’clock
long day on the mats that spanned ten hours with a break that wasn’t even a break. it wasn’t even necessary when i was already past my point of hunger. the promotion test went well, but the impromptu meeting the grandmaster called was rather disconcerting because he wanted and expected us to shoulder more than what we’re currently taking on. i know some of his disappointment was directed at me because i made the wrong call at portland to pass on that seminar. well after digesting that discussion is realizing i need to feed my empty stomach
just as i thought it is the same old quarterly event, things start to get interesting. unexpected circumstances arise with the stresses of putting together a solo performance on the spot. i suppose there were many things in my repertoire that i could use, but i didn’t want to think and just resorted to some stick knife self defense. another prime example of the always ready expectations put to the test, i can never get too comfortable with that phenomena
with the completion of an ultra long blackbelt test, i went home and passed out from pure exhaustion. even after it’s all said and done, i hadn’t really recognized what i had just gone through. it certainly took a few days not only for my body to recover, but also for my mind to digest what i just really accomplished. when i first took up this sport, i only thought of it as a short term activity with little or next to no goals. it’s funny when i began this journey, everyone questioned why i chose this martial art because my legs were already so beaten as it is. being my stubborn self, i did it to prove to those who said i couldn’t do it because my body won’t manage. thinking back, i do feel ashamed that i didn’t have much commitment from the beginning and set a very low goal going in; but a few unexpected circumstances and many small things propelled me to this point. little did i expect to still be practicing taekwondo so many years after and be going for my third dan today. what i also didn’t expect was to be an integral piece of the puzzle, in instructing, coaching and competing; and competing at a level that requires traveling across canada and even out of the country. through competitions, i have turned some heads, gained some respect and earned some recognition both provincially and internationally. i give my instructors a ton of credit for giving me that extra push and getting me to where i am now. i can comfortably sit back today and realize what i had just accomplished is far beyond what i, myself, and the entire population thought i could attain; something that many may never achieve. i know there comes a time when i must hang it up, but that time is not now. i still have some competitions and accomplishments ahead of me, i don’t want to call it quits and not use my skills to its fullest potential
it was a uber long test, but i made it. from the moment the test began to the end of the test, i don’t believe i had a chance to sit down. i was up testing and doing my stuff from the very start while the grandmaster and many of the instructors and students watched. taking all components of the test in one go is a massive undertaking, but i knew that i wouldn’t have done it any other way. there were things that i should have and could have done better; but i can live my performance given the preparation time i had prior to this test and being fully exhausted with the amount of things i performed while having little rest throughout. i was beyond drained and overworked when the promotion test was all wrapped up. i am truly grateful to all those instructors who got me to where i am and made it all possible. could never have imagined how far i would go when i first started this journey. i am officially a third dan blackbelt!!
spent a good chunk of my saturday night watching playoff basketball, taping myself, rolling out and massaging my ailing groin. i am all taped up in a lot of places i feel like a mummy on a certain level, but i am feeling pumped and ready for action. tomorrow will be a big day for me, it is finally my turn to take my promotion test for a third stripe. just the grandmaster, all my senior instructors, a couple tens of students watching and my pride on the line, no pressure. now i would appreciate very much it if i am able to fall asleep with this stomachache that was also costing me sleep time the night before