day 2320 – low life

sleepless on a sunday night does not bode well for monday morning. i needed a coffee first thing when i got into work. i couldn’t help but stay awake thinking and overthinking of all the things i may have to give up. i can’t stop myself from crying thinking my life as an athlete could come to an abrupt end. i hadn’t done all that i wanted to accomplish and i clearly hadn’t expected it to approach so soon. i can’t stand to open up and tell many of my injury status so keeping it to myself was my next best option

day 1027 – born ready

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going to my grandma’s and spending some time with her on my last day in hong kong. my uncle showed several videos of the young me where i was swimming, jumping and lifting things that’s much too big for me. it was hilarious to see myself running around in two pigtails and sailormoon clothes. it’s a good reminder of the things i did growing up that made me who i am today; it’s proof that i was born an athlete

sports never stop

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it’s obvious where my passion is at and what i will continue to do no matter how many times i get injured. there’s no substitute in life that gives me as much satisfaction and pleasure so i am going to ride it until the very end. just being able to do them is a gift i never take for granted. it’s all about getting up after every fall and know that i will be okay┬ábecause i have the greatest team behind me to get me back in the game. others can scrutinize and criticize me for putting myself through all that pain, but that doesn’t change the way i go about it. it is part of that fire that burns from within which makes me fight back and want to become stronger and better. where no one out there can question how much this means to me and how badly competitive sports means to me. rest assured that no matter how many times i face adversity, i am determined to come out stronger than ever. i am an athlete afterall and that competitiveness never dies

day 293 – the long road begins

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been putting off proper rehab for my ankles and knees and using temporary fixes throughout all the training. now that the nationals are over, it’s time to do proper rehab to train and strengthen it for long term fixes. physio was very angry and will not let me continue without addressing these issues. will be a long and difficult road ahead, but i am determined to do whatever it takes and stick with it to fix the issues and continue to train and do the things i love. because i believe what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and i am out to prove it