day 1820 – hard questions


once in a while some questions come up i either don’t know how to answer, shouldn’t answer or don’t want to answer. noticeable that i’ve pulled myself out of involvements in the world of taekwondo. i no longer teach or attend poomsae trainings, took break from competitions, skip demos, and avoided going to main school. all i do is run my branch school and keep making improvements. now when asked if i’ll resume my commitments and return to the competition floor, it’s really hard to say if i still have it in me and i have the heart to make a comeback

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day 1627 – killarney growth 

doing some paperwork administrative tasks while reflecting back on my teaching career thus far. since i have taken over as branch chief instructor in 2014, killarney saturday has steadily grown. it used to hover in the eighties and nineties, but that has changed since. one hundred and ten students enrolled across my saturday classes this term is an impressive number. the steady growth in the number of students is a compliment i’ll take. it just goes to show that i’ve poured my heart and soul into giving the best instruction i could possibly provide. i’d say i can say i definitely earned the lead role and. i intend on growing and improving killarney with each term

day 1528 – more student

more work coming my way, taking on another student. she approached me for help and i’m a willing helper, though the obstacle is also time availibility. i’ll have to figure out my already crammed schedule to see how i can accommodate the both of them; at least i know i’m wanted somewhere. somehow, somewhere i think i was born to teach something since i find teaching all the time

day 1322 – transformation 

this is not a throwback thursday, but a random photo sifu sent me today and i thought it was funny but fitting. to a raw competitor of six years ago, when i also sparred at bc champ. i can’t keep track of how many competitions i have been to since then; it’s probably a good sign when i don’t. i miss the good old days when i had coaches to turn to, but now i, myself, have taken on that role and can only rely. on myself. still trying to grow into someone i could rely on. it’s a special day for lomo, but no time to celebrate

day 1256 – new term

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not having put on a taekwondo uniform for several weeks is eerily long but the fact that it didn’t bother me which might not be a good sign. hopefully it’s just the long break and not lost passion for taekwondo or competition itself. i am back on the mat and had a decent first day of killarney winter term. bringing in another new instructor will put more load on me, but at least i’ve finally let go of sunday because working seven days a week is brutal

day 922 – cognitive stimulant

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found today’s morning session a tough one and it wasn’t even physically demanding at all. i dragged my sleepy butt out the door but i was just not mentally there to perform. i found myself being a whiner more than a doer and that’s not what i should be doing. my mind and body would’ve put caffeine to good use if only i made a pit stop. after my energy level went back to functional nornalities, i made up for the lacklustre morning session with an afternoon one

day 876 – eve workout

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spending morning of my christmas eve at the gym banging out the reps because scheduled work never stops. it was a workout i needed to get in because it put me at ease and made me feel right. i felt particularly bad i lost track of time yesterday and didn’t make it into the gym like originally intended. a tiring session as usual and i’m exhausted leaving the gym, but it was definitely the energizer that sparks the rest of the day