i’ll be the first to admit i didn’t sleep well not knowing how this quarantine birthday would turn out. going into the day, i had no plans besides a home cooked dinner and cake with family. waking up, i thought i’d do a solo lift, have a couple of lonely hours waiting for dinner time to arrive. fortunately, it got better as the day unfolded and turned out to be quite eventful. i met up with some friends who got me onezo bubble tea, then had a hangout to take some shenanigan photos, and finished off with a zoom short party after a decadent dinner. i’ll be the honest i wasn’t looking forward to this because growing older is hard to accept, especially when i feel like i’ve underachieved all my life. i mulled about it for some time, but maturity came around and said that age is just a number; my heart and body still feels young
spending the last of 2015 near canada place enjoying beautiful holiday lights before some highly anticipated midnight fireworks. the night was so cold, two brisk walks along the seawall was more than enough to get us frozen head to toe. 2015 was good for the most part, but i know that 2016 will be the best year yet. ready to take on bigger challenges that will get me past levels i have come far too comfortable at staying within
bad habits always gets me. every time i feel like i am in exhaustion, i will stop short of completion and make myself believe enough is enough. i have just come to accept the fact that my mental game is not as strong as it needs to be, and that there’s nothing i can do to improve that aspect. this shortcoming is probably an explanation as to why my game has remained stagnant over the years, where i stop short and fail to take my game to the next level. and this only becomes a cyclical process where when i don’t perform well, i tend to hang my head but not focus on finding the underlying problems and dealing with it head on. just today i was reminded that my body is stronger than i think and when fatigue sets in, the mind is usually the first to give in. so when training in and out of the gym, or anywhere for that matter, it is as much training for my mentality as it is for my physicality. it is good that i get to work alongside some of the most motivational individuals because reality is i need constant reminder that i must stop at nothing until i push out the last rep of the last set. the kind of people that are never satisfied and always challenging me to be better and only then will i come to the realization that i can do things i thought i never could. these individuals keep me honest and lets me know that i ain’t going anywhere until i complete it cause anything below my maximum capability is unacceptable. i think my recent knee ligament that made me forgo my november competition really caused the damage – in a good way. there’s been a recent spark in me that i want it more than ever before; that i am willing to work hard for what i want to achieve and i am going to tackle my weaknesses head on. i no longer want my game to remain the same. i have some ambitious goals to reach and it certainly wouldn’t reach itself. i am ready to take that next step in further enhancing my game, and i am determined to do whatever it takes. the power is in me and it is up to me to train it to work to live up to my fullest potential. i do believe it is in me
daylight savings ended last night and that extra hour of sleep is much welcomed for a sleep deprived me, but now is when the darkness really hits us. i need to find the motivation this season when i wake up in night fall and go home in night fall. starting off november with a gym session is a step in the right direction, even though i am outright sore. even then i would call it a good start to the month and hopefully stays that way. the next couple months will be busy and important, but november is crucial for all turning points. it’s time to grind everyday out and learn a little something about accountability
feel like i am falling off the train tracks and hitting a wall so another check in is required to make sure i know what i am doing. it’s hard to always stay on track, but always got to keep a tab on it and not let myself stray too far and even back pedal too much. when life is a long journey, must aim high and make meaningful goals and achievements to strive for. and throughout any undertaking of any goal requires discipline in many forms that makes the separation. unfortunately that also means times can get rough, minds can get lost and that’s what usually what happens to me far too often. it is important to know that the struggles and hardwork is part of the process and that the progress and eventual achievement will be well worth every ounce of effort i put in. the process is important, but knowing the reaching the top of the mountain and conquering every obstacle is the most rewarding feeling should be enough to keep at it. that i should be proud of reaching and striving, all for the greater good
when is it my turn to take a real vacation to get away from this hectic life?? i have taken time off, i have flown and driven and gone across canada, but none of which was purely for vacation because i held competition obligations. i am drained, overworked and am in dire need of a vacation where i can just relax and get away from stresses of life no matter how big or small. there’s too many places, cities and countries on my wishlist; when and where will i be able to fulfill them??
it’s past the mid way mark of september and the weather is looking a lot like autumn season. not everything has gone the way i had planned – in fact, many things have gone awry in the past few months but i can’t complain because all in all, summer of 2015 has treated me well. i spent a fortune to get myself yet another sony flagship phone, had my fair share of summer sweets and indulgence, and more doctor visits and scans were prescribed. there’s always a first for everything including: my first and second ever long hike, took a leap of faith with tumbling and flipping, ample time spent on the beach and in the water having the opportunity to try wakeboarding, wakesurfing and paddleboarding. staying in the game is always important for me as always, with another nationals complete, another walk with the dragon fulfilled, more tennis balls crushed, and of course never escape the physio and injuries aspect of life. my gym quests never stops even though much of the time i feel slowed progress, but slow progress is better than no progress. and even though the physio appointments and kinesiologist lectures never ellude me, there’s a lot of positive improvements in terms of occurences and length of rehab time required to get back into the game. although i did travel to montreal, it wasn’t solely for pleasure but more so for competition purposes. i do wish traveling does happen for me in the fall or winter season. here’s snippets of what went on this summer as proof it happened, that i took a few steps in crossing out some of the things on my bucket list