day 608 – gloomy weather

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on the weather network app monitoring the weather for the next couple days. the forecast looking wet which will only ruin my long weekend plans because i finally have a rare weekend off. hoping by checking more often, it will increase the chances of forecast suddenly changing for the better and give me some sunshine. so far it doesn’t seem like it’s working in my favour but i can only remain hopeful

neon it up

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season 19 pubnight was a huge success for all that i can remember, although i wouldn’t mind skipping the hangover. as it so happens, a few drinks or a dozen for some, will get me a chance to see the other side of people or should i say the real side. and then you meet drunkards that’s always in your face who wouldn’t leave you alone and all you really want to do is punch them in the face. nonetheless, i thoroughly enjoyed my time this season spending the night with a group of awesome people. we were all a rowdy bunch with hundreds of people crammed into red room drinking and dancing. i myself also let loose after a few and said or did some things people wouldn’t normally hear or see from me. apparently there’s picture evidence of me kicking someone in the head

day 607 – bedtime

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sleeping way earlier than my norm today and by that i mean three hours earlier than what i have been getting past two weeks. i guess my body finally decided to crash from over exhaustion and it can no longer take it anymore. poor body is so tight and sore in too many ways even my roller cannot help me. hope i get a well deserved and much needed restful night and able to resume grinding soon

day 606 – hungover breakfast

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just trying to make some sunny side ups this morning waking up after an epic night. my head is hurting, legs and arms are pretty dead and sore; i can only imagine it will be slow the rest of the day. i hope these eggs are cooked, but i guess i will eat it and find it later. i wasn’t expecting to wake up so early but my legs cramped up several times, and couldn’t fall back asleep

day 605 – glow with it

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started the day with 8am taekwondo training and ended the day with 1:30am vdl pubnight. had a great time chatting it up, mingling with people, dancing to the beats and of course a little drinking. yelling over the loud music for several hours has taken its toll on my throat. crazy night it was at pubnight having shot after shot but had a blast partying it up. at the end of the night, i stumbled out feeling a bit smashed, i am sure photos will be my evidence of took place tonight

day 604 – bashed legs

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my legs are bashed with countless bruises from everything as of late. i didn’t even realize how much damage was caused and what i did that may have caused it but it may or may not be a harmful thing. i guess its just another sign my pain receptors no longer feel its something that requires my attention. it’s probably preferable my legs don’t take any additional beating until the current ones subsides. i think my physio’s going to have a thing or two to say when he sees this

day 603 – supps arrived

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my extra boost arrived at a good time. precisely what i needed to remind myself to stay on top of things. this whole depressing phase has taken its toll and worn me out in too many ways. nothing has been settled and nothing has been thought through, but i need to stop digging a deeper hole for myself and get back to the grind regardless of the situation. but i know that there will be sunshine after the rain

day 602 – subliminated debut

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it was a slow start to dodgeball after a two week layoff, but got better as the night went on. as competitive minded as we are, dodgeball isn’t all about wins and loses. we were having some fun, getting up close and personal with the camera on our new jersey debut. we are finally able to take our team photo with the whole team present and debuting our spiffy new jerseys which i am truly proud of. feeling good with the jerseys and well on our way to winning best dressed

day 601 – something new

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trying something new because i felt like a challenge was in order. wouldn’t mind adding some new skills into my repertoire and seeing how far it takes me. i honestly believe i am capable of achieving the goal i set out to do so, all i need to do is go out and make it happen. the day i make new ground or fully achieve a skill is when i can feel proud of myself for having worked hard for it. i learn to never stay stagnant, never settle and always be hungry for more because there’s so much out there waiting for me to experience

day 600 – pick me up

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there are so many uncertainties in my life and so many things i cannot control. so many questions floating in my head. i can’t be certain if i have chosen the path i want, if it’s even possible, if it’s worth it and most importantly – is my passion still there. i am very scared that the passion no longer exists and i am pursuing something where my heart is not at. i am lost in darkness and not sure where i am headed. and if it’s not, it will only make me more depressed than ever. where are all the answers to get me out of this funk?? on a completely different note, happy 600th day post