day 1655 – leg heavy 

my compound movements felt surprisingly good even after a few off days that went awry. a few days away and trainers there came to ask where i’ve been. squatted the same weight as last time but with more ease, and even upped the deadlift cause i felt up to it. maybe lifting across from my kinesiologist helped pump me up and made sure i follow through. i’m going for something new in my routine. it’s time i switch things up because i have different wants and need to zone in to the specifics


day 1621 – big lifts

had an extremely late night but woke up early with a few things in mind. hitting the gym was mandatory, for today is designated for strength. the few hours of shut eye took a toll on me and took me a few hours to halt the lethargy. since i anticipated on training, i didn’t want to eat and went with the banana i stuffed down an hour ago. making my way to the gym with an empty stomach and was probably a horrible idea. i knew it was going to be a grind, but feels good to still have gotten through the heavy big lifts. with all that delay, i didn’t get any food in me until roughly half past five. need to be cautious not to be malnutritioned where all my meals are jumbled up like today 

day 1594 – new bar

i forgot to set my alarm but my body clock works well enough to wake me up at half past six so i was minimally late for work. there are days i just need to keep plug in the headphones and keep going and going; hopping from work on top of work. start off the week strong with lifting and be the first to use this newly unboxed olympic bar. getting back into my routines has sure left me sore for days and i can’t wait do it all over again to be sore for days again

day 1588 – gymery

though not cleared for most activities i do, the surgeon has given me the okay to be here. my gear was ready and my bag was packed while i waited for his signal. it’s the first time in over two months i could legitmately be here in my happy place doing the happy things. a stupid setback happened due to my impatience and inability to stay put. i thought i was okay, i wanted to be okay, but only after exerting it did i find out it was still premature


day 1524 – bruised butt

meetings got shifted around so immediately had a long meeting once i got into the office. it was so busy at work; before i knew it, it was already 11am and i have yet to eat my go to breakfast of peanut butter toast. i didn’t do a good job starting the month of october skipping my first meal, but i vouch to do better with eating. the fall in hockey really hit hard as i chose not to sit down at work all day because it gave my buttocks a ton of grief. i went to the gym to do my lower body workout which i probably shouldn’t have, but at least i exercised caution to make sure it didn’t cause it to feel worse. it was a much lighter day than i would have liked

day 1485 – casual pr

my hand still hurt like a beep but going in cold for my second try at my normal monday workout. my crippled hand is still painful to open and close, meaning no deads today but still got to finish the squat portion. i went in just wanting to lift something without judgement, but instead casually matching my post rehab record weight for four, which is upped from last week

day 1478 – buckle down

it’s inexcusable that so many times i lose my self discipline and stray off from what i need to be doing. there’s been a lot of pressure from different sources of life and i’m struggling trying to stand my ground. i didn’t sign up for this, maybe i was meant to be alone in the dark, forever. i’m so stressed out; it’s been disappointing the stress has so much impact on my willpower and the lack of it. there is no excuse to not have a better habit and stick with what i want